I Asked for Vision

Yesterday at the Global Breakthrough, I asked God for a vision during the loooooong praise session. Whilst everyone was speaking in tongues, I asked God for a vision. I could not see anything. It's like looking at darkness in my mind! Later, I can see things around but I can't quite make out. I thought I saw people's back. I saw the word "King" and then the picture of a crown and a furry robe came to my mind. Then, I saw the word "camel" slightly hidden. The word "gentleness" came very clearly followed by "kindness". Still trying to look further, I saw a shape and "church" came to my mind. When the session was over, I asked Ps Joseph what the camel meant. It is so strange to see a picture of a camel. He said camels in a dry land are beautiful to the people living there. A camel also stores a lot of water. Later, I told him the other words and when Ps Lydia heard the word "church", she said "Again? You are always burdened for your church!". She warned me not to get entangled with the church politics because my health comes first. I told her I will always remember her advise and when I do feel burdened for FBC, I will just say a prayer and let it go to God. Then Ps Joseph said, "A camel also carries loads". You must be the camel carrying the burden!"

This morning I told Henry about the vision and he said "Haiya, it means the fruit of the spiritlah". So clever, husband of mine! Now, I know what the whole vision means.

"God is the King in First Baptist Church and He wants us to be filled with the Holy Spirit so we can show the fruit of the spirit which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. And I am the camel to tell you all this."

Ah well, at least that is my interpretation. The only way we can be filled with the Holy Spirit is if we desire it and ask for fresh anointing.

That was my second vision. The first vision I had in this journey was on 17 July 2009 where I saw 3 flashes of witchcraft sillouette. Now I know it confirms the spiritual attack that constantly happens to me. We have to put on the armor of God friends.

I Felt Warmth!

I did! I did! I felt warmth! I experienced the Holy Spirit this way. I know He is still in me in the midst of dryness but I felt His warmth! Yayyy! I had a breakthrough today and I want to share it with you. After the last blog, I just shut myself in the room and just wanted to be close to God. So I fell on my knees and started to pray and speak in tongues. But in my mind, I wanted to read His word (greedy to do both) so I grabbed the bible and started with Psalm 91. I cried out to God to protect me because He said if I acknowledged His name, He will protect me.

Psalm 91:14

"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name."

Then, I was thinking of what I needed to strike the devil. I needed God's word in Ephesians 6:10-18 but amazingly as soon as I read the first line, I was starting to feel reassured.

Ephesians 6:10

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.

The more I repeated the same line, the more the spirit within me became stronger and I started to feel His warmth though I wasn't really thinking about it at that moment.

I started to read other passages as well eg Ephesians 2:4-5

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.


I started to speak in tongues in between reading and repeating bible passages and after awhile, for the first time, my tongue started to loosen and had taken a life of its own. Even the language and tone was different. Wow! At one time I felt the urge to go to the toilet (sorry guys) and in the toilet the tongue started speaking faster but it was as if the tongue and I were separate. Wow! I had new motivation to speak in tongues because last night I went for a praise and seminar at Global Breakthrough and according to Elaine, last night was the longest session speaking in tongues that she witnessed during praise. Even Elaine and I settled down after a long while and just received the holy spirit silently!

I continued to speak in tongues and reading God's word and suddenly I started to sob loudly and I cried out to God. Wow! I just felt so overwhelmed. I couldn't continue after that because trying to speak in tongues while crying is not so easy. I realised my back and my chest was feeling warm. I smsed Henry immediately to let him know and I quickly documented in my journal. This is all too exciting for me! I have been speaking in tongues before, at best maybe close to 5 minutes each time but quite heavy. It was only after Ps Chris confirmed I was really speaking in tongues that I gained more confidence but still, it just wasn't like today.

Today's experience really gave me renewed motivation to keep trying and just soak in His awesome presence and just pray in tongues. Flashes of Aunty Beverly and Kim Kee's mum and Tony came to my mind. Later Hamir explained it does happen like that and it is through our moaning and groanings that we are praying for these people. Hamir is so excited for me too for He says God is preparing me for another level. Wow! I just want encourage you to desire to speak in tongues. Sometimes, we are so burdened we do not know how to pray. As we speak in tongues, we pray in the spirit that God understands. It is so beautiful. Keep trying friends.

1 Corinthians 14:2

For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to God. Indeed, no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.

Ps Leong of EFC Gospel said now that I have received God's healing, I should continue to thank Him and if I run out of words, I could thank God speaking in tongues. It did not occur to me that I could thank Him that way. Thanks Ps Leong.

The Dark Forces

I really treasure your prayers even more now. What really hit me in this entire journey from the beginning is how real the spiritual realm is. Even though I am walking so closely with God, time and again, it comes back to attack me and it is confirmed from friends. I even had stronghold of stautes removed from my home last week with the help from Uncle Allen and His prayer warriors. The worst was the bad dream that I had in the early morning before the scan. Even at the 11th hour it will try and sneak in. I just want to share with you that if it can still try and devour me when I am walking so closely to God what more for those who aren't. The reason why for some of us it is so difficult to hear God is because the evil forces are trying very hard to pull us away from God.

Ps Sasha just called me just now and I thank her for reminding me that I need to really soak in God's words 24 hours, even while I am sleeping! I ask her how is it possible that can I pray when I am sleeping. She said it is possible and I will try. I can try to speak in tongues and just continue to speak in tongues until I fall asleep so that even in spirit I am still praying. Last week, I went for a healing and praise session at the EFC Gospel Centre. Ps Sasha interceded for Ps Leong and at one time during the deliverance, she felt tremendous headache and collapsed on my shoulder as it was just too painful to stand. Only today she shared with me that there was a presence of strong dark spirit that she had to constantly battle with. It is only when I soak in God's words and put on the armor of God, that I can use the sword of the spirit (the word of God) to strike back at the enemy. That night when I had the bad dream, unknowingly, I did that. I used God's words of Philippian 4:6 and 1 Timothy 2:7 and thrust the sword at the devil and it flead immediately.

Oh Lord, thank you so much for that night you heard my cry and caused Chiew Hwa to pray for me. I pray oh Lord that my friends will continue to pray for my protection against the evil one. It is striking me, Aunty Beverly and Kim Kee's mum (Tham Soo Ping). Give us your holy spirit and lead us and guide us what to do. May the Counselor remind us again and again your scriptures and how we can strike the enemy at this critical time. I pray for protection for all my prayer warriors as they too have been hit but there is NO ONE stronger than You. You have equipped us with the knowledge and with the Holy Spirit by our side we will stand firm. The battle belongs to you oh Lord, you said so yourself. You do not lie and I pray for your protection, I claim Ps 91 and the blood of Jesus to cover all of us - myself, Aunty Beverly, Kim Kee's mum, my family, my cell group, all my prayer warriors. I rebuke you devil and I cast you out from amongst us. You have no power, no dominion over us. There is no room for you in our bodies. We are a temple of God, I cast you out in Jesus' name! Get out now in Jesus' name!

I pray all this in Jesus' name. Amen.

He who seeks shelter in the Most High will rest in the shadow of the almighty (Ps 91:1).

That's what I will be doing, just resting under His wing, soaking His word. Please pray for Aunty Beverly and KIm Kee's mum the similar manner. Thanks friends.

Thank You

Hi Joanne, All glory to God indeed! You too have experienced God's miracle and you have been my encourager from the beginning! :) Thanks so much. Thanks for the advice on lots of water and antioxidants. The nurse kept asking me whether I felt itchy but thankfully not because I was already not feeling like myself and cold as well. It must be so miserable to feel itchy as well if rashes break out. I have been drinking lots of water because I also had the Zumita drug administered. The last time I had Zumita drug, I had fever the very next day. This time, I rejected the thought immediately in Jesus' name and drank lots of water. :)

Hey Tracy and Isaac, I wondered where you have been..he he..good to hear from youuuu! Yes, praise the Lord indeed. He is mighty and powerful! He loves us all and wants us all to reach out to Him!

Scan & Brave Henry

Scan Ordeal

Now that I have rested from so much excitement yesterday and high adrenalin, I can write a bit more of what really happened yesterday at the hospital.

The scan was around 11am to 11.30am. Oh the pain the pain the pain! Thankfully it was a doctor that fixed the drip line for me so I was again praying "Jesus save me, Jesus save me", then I felt a sting but it was bearable. Still, it was uncomfortable to move my right hand. I had to drink 3 cups of fluid. The CT scan room was very cold and thankfully they let me bring in my shawl and they also gave me a blanket. I saw this big monstrous injection with luminous green dye like you see in the movies. Yikes! I looked away. I didn't want to think further about it. But I hoped that wasn't the contrast dye that was going into me. Perhaps it did.

CT scan is like a ring with a slim bed that slides mechanically in and out. I finally lay down and when I went through the ring they asked me to hold my breath and when the machine withdraws, I am asked to breathe normally. Oh, but before that, when the contrast dye was injected into me, there was this tremendous pain where it felt like my veins were being stretched! I kept asking Jesus to help me! Thank God it wasn't like that forever. I had to go through the ring 3 times. And then it was over. Whew!

We had to wait an hour. I dare not move my right arm still but I was getting hungry. But I also did not feel quite myself after the dye was administered. Felt a bit nauseas, a bit of back pain. Groan. I decided it was me just being hungry so sweet hubby went to get some hot water to whip out oats for me which I had to eat with my left hand.

An hour later at 12.30, we were told to have our lunch first and come back later. We went to the canteen in search for food and I ate "outside food" for the first time since my diagnosis - white rice with lots of taugeh. Mummy's cooking is better. :) Henry and my mum later commented at home that I have such a good appetite. Praise the Lord! Without appetite I would not be able to consume all the nutrients to build up my immune system.

Brave Henry

Elaine joined Henry and I soon after at 1.30pm and we went to collect the scan results. Henry immediately dug into the big envelope for the results and Elaine commented "You not going to wait for the doctor?" Henry was not going to wait. He felt confident as there were too many signs, too many confirmation of good news that it could not be anything less. As he read the results, his eyes opened wide "Wow", eyes opened wide again "Wow"..and again "Wow". "What what what?" I said. Then he read out. There were so many "No"s to what was originally there. I can't quite remember now and I don't really want to know coz I was worried it would dampen my spirit. He also mentioned that the liver spots have almost completely resolved. That's amazing! The nodule in the lungs shrunk from the original 6 cm to only 20mm! From cms to only mms.

Finally, while I was given the zumita drug administration for reinforcement of my bones, Dr Foo arrived and pulled Henry and said "It's good loh" They looked at the scans together. My original scans had a lot of white spots - what I called the "machine gun". Too many to even do surgery to remove. Now it was all darkness except for a few spots here and there. Dr Foo was surprised how the tarceva worked so well on me. She said I must have the mutation gene that hooks onto the tarceva drug to kill the cancer cell. Then I remembered what Siew May said "God has the power to turn on and off our genes". He must have switched on my mutation gene and used it together with the first tarceva tablet because before that, I was on painkillers for 2 days and right after the first tablet, all my bone pain and my fatigueness went away. Dr Foo said it is not possible with only one tarceva tablet but NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR GOD. Likewise, He has the power to use nutrients I am consuming to build my immune system to generate T cells to fight the cancer cells. We as Christians also have the power to rebuke and cast out cancer cells. So with these 3 combination under God's guiding hand, no wonder the cancer cells are destroyed! Apart from Him, we can do nothing! All Glory to God!

Elaine also had a look at the scans later. I told her she had to look at it far away from me and "Don't dampen my spirit ok?". Later, she told me I should look at the scans because it will encourage me. Well, maybe in my quiet time I will open the big envelope to peep in. I must confess that I was slightly disappointed it did not show complete healing but Henry and I did pray last week that even though it did not show complete healing we will still trust the Lord and not doubt Him and just continue to wait upon Him. As long as I know it is good news and God is in control, that's all I need to know. True enough, when I sent out the smses and you guys rejoiced with me, I felt it was like angels were celebrating the victory and the good news with me! And I was reminded again how awesome our God is and His wonderful miracle on me. For that I am eternally grateful.

Thank you Lord for healing me. You are the Lord that healeth me. My Jehovah Rapha.

Unshaken

I felt a gush of cold wind go through my body. I thought it was the holy spirit but it was something else... I turned to my left and saw my sister sleeping next to me. I observed her dressing (I have not slept with my sis for soooo long!). Suddenly I heard moving glass sound. Then I heard it again and saw the window pane moving. There was a thief outside the house on the emergency lane. He ran away and I tried screaming but no voice came out. I took something to knock the outside wall to alert others. He stopped and pretended nothing is wrong. Then, he ran back towards me and smiled deviously at me. At that point I was so scared I woke up. It was a dream. I started to pray for protection for my sister and her family, my dad, my mum, my mum in law, Adrian, Sook Yian, my family and started claiming Psalm 91.

I was reading the bible, claiming protection from God and smelt foul smell. Henry stirred and asked him whether he farted and he said no. Later, he said he could not remember me asking him!

In the morning, Chiew Hwa smsed Henry to check if I was ok because she woke up twice and thought of me and she prayed for me in the morning. Then, I remembered 2 things from God's word: God commanded us not to be anxious about anything but to pray (Phillipians 4:6). He also did not give us a spirit of fear but a spirit of love, power and self control (2 Timothy 1:7). Then I realised it must be the devil. Worse still, it is a dream of a thief and it seemed so real. The devil comes like a thief in the night to steal, kill and destroy. It wanted to instill fear and steal my faith away. Anyway, I did warn my sister to claim Ps 91 and not to be fearful (2 Timothy 1:7).

Later, Elaine told me that Ps Lydia did mention to her that the devil's presence is foul smelling, unlike angels, like sweet fragrance. The spiritual realm is so real. We must really put on the armor of God and stand firm!

He is the Lord who Heals! - Jehovah Rapha

I just bow on my knees and thank God over and over again.
Thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus, thank you Jesus.
Thank you for the cross. Thank you for a second lease in life.
Thank you for letting me testify your wonderous deeds.
All that you are revealing to me throughout this journey is coming true.
Confirmation after confirmation that I am healed
- by your wounds I am healed.
Hallelujah, praise the Lord!
I sing Your praises!
I shout from the mountain top that JESUS IS ALIVE!
You are a living God.
When I call You, You answer me.
You are the same yesterday, today and forever!
Jesus, you still heal today!
I am so humbled for Your amazing love for me.
Thank you Lord for loving me.
I know you love your church too.
May thy will be done on me as it is with First Baptist Church.
Let them ALL see your glory, let them see who you really are
- Sovereign, Living God, Mighty, Powerful and
yet so Loving - my Healer and my Provider.
Let them tremble before an Awesome God
and rebuke all spirit of complacency, dissension, faction, pride, argumentative behaviour, hurt, discouragement.
Let them tremble with fear and think twice before they open their mouth to speak death to others
For everything that is not the fruit of the Spirit is NOT from you and is from the evil one.
This morning, the devil tried to steal that faith from me by instilling fear in my heart from a bad dream
but I reject that fear in Jesus' name.
I thank you for sending angels to watch over me
and prompting Chiew Hwa to pray for me this morning.
I thank you for my family and friends praying for me the whole journey
Thank you Lord for everything.


Yes, God is merciful indeed. Praise His name! The CT scan this afternoon showed that my main lung tumor has shrunk tremendously and the lesions around have also reduced tremendously. Even my liver spots have been reduced to 2 small spots and the report actually said the liver spot "has almost completely resolved" which we take to be almost completely gone. Dr Foo is pleased with my progress and she is recommending that I continue with the tarceva medicine. She also said that I would not even need monthly bone treatment. I would only need to do it bi-monthly. Praise God. He has stayed true to His word to me. All glory to God. :)

I treasure all your smses to me so I've added it to my blog. As the smses pour in you are like angels rejoicing with me! Thank you to all!


Kok Leong
2009.09.01 22:43
Great news henry. at church camp, we have a person who give a testimony on a year ago. He has a brain tumor and after surgery, he went into coma for 4 days. He wasnt a christian, but the wife was and the church prayed. Today, his tumor disappear. His message to all of us, dont under estimate the power of prayer. just wanted to share so that the team w continue to pray for liz, u and family. Good night

Siew Mei
2009.09.01 17:08
Happy to hear that. Praise God. But dont take it lightly, coz chemo often can cure symptoms. Need to keep working on towards good lifestyle.

Lip Sin
2009.09.01 16:45
Praise the Lord for His faithfulness. It is very please to hear the good news. Keep trusting in Him!

Tony Toh
2009.09.01 16:07
Thank you Jesus. Have tears in eyes.

King Wai
2009.09.01 15:21
Wonderful news henry. Truly praise god for his deliverance. Keep up w the continual treatment n keep waging victorious spiritual warfare til every cancer cell is eradicated!

Vince Au
2009.09.01 15:01
Praise be to our sovereign Lord for his healing on liz.

Steven Toh
2009.09.01 15:00
AMEN! PTL.

Wendy Chan
2009.09.01 14:59
Ptl.

Barry Chua
2009.09.01 14:57
Yes! Praise God! This is wonderful news! Will keep on uplifting Liz. Am so happy for you and your family!

Cheng Yi
2009.09.01 14:54
That is WONDERFUL news indeed! Praise Him

Bran & siew lee
2009.09.01 23:57
Heard d won -derful on u fr koots.with God,nothing's impossible. He wants us to trust n obey. V can't but rejoice with u n Henry. PTL. siewlee+bran

aunty rita
2009.09.01 17:31
I'm very happy 4 all the good news. Keep praying.

annette
2009.09.01 17:32
I rejoice in tears for u dear sis. Our God is ever faithful to His children. Continue testify His wonderful work in yr life !

eric hew
2009.09.01 19:12
PTL! He has stayed true to his word indeed! GB

steven toh
2009.09.01 20:30
AMEN! PTL!

aunty khwan
2009.09.01 17:18
Praise de Lord. He has been kind n merciful. Give thanks n praise. It is such a wonderful news. Ur mum must be so happy.

daddy
2009.09.01 17:31
Thankful at your healing process. Hoping to see u about 11am 2mo

chee meng
2009.09.01 17:45
Hi Liz & Henry, Haliluya, Praise the Lord.

cheryl
2009.09.01 19:08
Amazing! Praise God! Take care.

Alvin Foo
2009.09.01 15:09
Like my dad lah! Tumor shrinks then kapoof! it's gone!

May Foong
2009.09.01 16:17
Praise the Lord!

Uncle Wong
2009.09.01 16:04
We receive this wonderful news with joy. Praise the Lord.

Seuk Fang
2009.09.01 15:52
Its great 2 hear tat:)nothing's impossible wen u put ur trust in god's infinite knowledge n understandin.Continue to take k of urself.we're always here v u!

Huey Ling
2009.09.01 15:52
Very happy to hear! Look forward to more great news.

Lisa Choy
2009.09.01 15:46
Praise God indeed.

William
2009.09.01 15:31
Good news! Everything will over soon. Take care! Rdgs william tang

Sue
2009.09.01 15:28
Thk u God for showing all of us wat an awesome God u r. We just want to bow down on our knees n praise u with all our hearts. Hallelujah!

Allen Teh
2009.09.01 15:26
HALLELUJAH. ANGELS ARE REJOICING IN THE HEAVENS. VICTORY INDEED IN JESUS NAME. GO SHOUT IT FROM THE MOUNTAIN TOP LIZ.

Clarence
2009.09.01 15:24
Very very good to hear this.

Wei Leng
2009.09.01 15:23
Thanks so much for update. Can feel tears of joy in eyes. Heartfelt thanks to God. PTL for His goodness n mercy! Praying for complete healing.

Uncle Seng
2009.09.01 15:22
Hi Lizzie, I'm over the moon with the news!!! Will go c u when I'm out of the woods. Luv ya,
u.seng

Tzu Anne
2009.09.01 15:21
Yay!!!

Pete
2009.09.01 15:19
Praise God! been waiting all morning but i was sure in the Lord as He's always faithful 2 His promises :)...we will continue 2 pray!

Deepa
2009.09.01 15:19
Oh liz!tats d best present iv ever g0ten..we knew u wud rec0ver!we r al so glad:-Dkeep fighting n ul b perfectly fine in no time!hugs!

Anita
2009.09.01 15:18
Hallelujah! All praise n glory 2 Him who is merciful n heal those whose faith is in Him. We rejoice 2 hear of dis miraculous wrk of Him! We wil continue 2 pray 4 complete healing n removal of evry cancer cell in ur body.

Fee
2009.09.01 15:15
Sori, saw the remaining sms abt the pill. In my excitement, overlook! Praise praise him!

Rose
2009.09.01 15:14
Thanks GOD!

Ee Tan
2009.09.01 15:13
PTL Indeed! Am so happy and encouraged to learn about this news Liz.. We shall continue to trust in Him and He will make miracles in your life! :)

Tammy
2009.09.01 15:13
Hey hey hey, what did i tell u? This is such sweet news, halleluyah! Thank you Jesus! A big hug 2u dear cousin!!:-P

Chiew Hwa
2009.09.01 15:12
Praise God! Praise God! We continue to pray for His wonders! This is a miracle that we can testify to. Now, take a good rest, enough excitement today :)

Josephine
2009.09.01 15:12
Praise the Lord. I'm happy to hear the news. :-D

Kathleen
2009.09.01 15:11
Praise God! Hallelujah! Rejoice in the Lord for He has indeed been watching over u sis. Big Hugs! Kath

Fee
2009.09.01 15:11
that is wonderful confirmation! Well, i kinda expected good news since u r already all the symptoms of recovery. Do u stil need to take the pill?

Karen T
2009.09.01 15:10
Praise the lord indeed. It's coz of ur strong faith in Him. I'm so happy fr u. We'll continue to read ur progress from ur blog

Soo Inn
2009.09.01 15:10
WOW! All praise to Him!

May Yoke
2009.09.01 15:09
Praise God indeed. He is good!

Auntie Rosie
2009.09.01 15:09
Praise God. What lovely news of God's faithfulnes and miracle.

Irene
2009.09.01 15:09
Praise d Lord!

Sue
2009.09.01 15:09
So happy! Jumping 4 joy! Praise God! Hug hug hug. Will cont to pray.

Zandra
2009.09.01 15:07
Praise God Almighty!!!!! Praise His Holy and Marvelous Name!!!!

Mrs Liew
2009.09.01 15:05
Praise b 2 our God. He gives us more than we ask or even think!

Beverly
2009.09.01 15:05
Yes cont 2 claim God's promises. Praise d Lord, praise Him only!

Sharon
2009.09.01 15:04
So happy to hear that. Praise and thanks to God. Will keep praying.

Kok San
2009.09.01 15:03
PTL! Wil cont to pray for her.