God is our Healer

God has given me a certain boldness. For the first time after receiving the news from the last ct scan, I wanted to give my testimony at Elpizo which I had attended once before. After His wondrous work on me and how clearly I heard from Him, it can only be God at work. I was hoping I could give my testimony and as soon as I got to Elpizo last week, I showed Sherri Lim the scan report and immediately she said I should give my testimony. Praise the Lord!

I hadn't planned what I wanted to say because this journey has been so wonderful and His wondrous work so numerous I just did not know where to start. I prayed for the holy spirit to guide me and He sure did. There were a few that came up to tell me they were blessed and even while on holiday there was a call who heard the testimony and wanted to find out more. All glory to God!

Psalm 105 says to "Give thanks to God, call on His name, tell all the nations what He has done, sing to Him sing praise to Him, tell all of His wonderful acts".

She gave these bible verses to chew on:
Matthew 15:13
1 Peter 2:24
Psalm 119:17
John 6:63
Psalm 27:13-14
2 Corinthians 12:19
2 Corinthians 5:7

When I reached home, I received a sms from Ying Chee who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer spread to her bones and brain. She thanked Jesus for the recent scan which showed that her lungs is now completely clear! Praise the Lord! Ying Chee contacted me early this year after reading my blog. She was to me a complete stranger. I was so burdened for her because she spoke to me with a heavy heart. She cried, she was fearful and did not have God's peace in her. I was completely lost not knowing what to say to her. I just closed my eyes and surrendered to God to minister to her. She said she felt peace after our conversation. Praise God! Her journey is nothing short of a miracle because Dr Foo called her a bad patient ie not listening to her advice. She deliberately missed her last chemo treatment! She eats what she likes - pork and mangoesteen which caused her to cough more. She prays to God to bless and sanctify the food that she eats. She goes for Jean Lim's ministry although I warned her to be careful as her situation deteriorated when she did not take any nutrients or go for any treatment earlier and Jean Lim's ministry would strictly tell her not to take medication. But interestingly she told me she went not so much for the "no medicine" talk but for the presence of God. She felt while she was there that even her voice cleared and she could praise God again. God works in mysterious ways. There is really no one way of healing from God. My mum wished that it was my good news instead but I told her God's ways are perfect and He has his own timing.

God is our healer, even if we use nutrients or chemo treatment, it is God working through those means that bring about healing but for Ying Chee it was none of that but just finally learning to trust God until the spirit of fear and death left her, until it sunk within her spirit that she is completely healed. Even then, physically she wasn't completely well yet though the scan report showed otherwise! Praise the Lord! All glory and honour belongs to Him!

You can read more about Elpizo in this latest Star clipping. Elpizo is at DUMC, Dream Centre, Section 13 PJ. Next session is on Sep 23rd at 10 am. Lunch (organic food) is provided.

http://thestar.com.my/lifestyle/story.asp?file=/2010/2/22/lifefocus/5614490&sec=lifefocus

My Creator King

I wanted to jog this morning but God sent showers of rain so it was time to praise God instead and I had such a good time. :) I was singing the doxology (the one everyone has to stand up in church again after singing worship and I always hear chuckles because they forgot to remain standing). It's a beautiful song and each time I sing it, it's like the lyrics, I just want to praise Him. I just found out that the lyrics to this song was written by Thomas Ken in 1674! Wow!

Praise God, from whom all blessings flow;
Praise Him, all creatures here below;
Praise Him above, ye heav'nly host;
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2fynpR6u-4

Anyway, while singing this song, I flipped the bible pages to Psalm and immediately landed on Psalms 148. It was as if the lyrics were plucked out from this Psalm, I am sure it was. But there is so much more to praise God as Psalm 148 shows:

1 Praise the LORD.
Praise the LORD from the heavens, praise him in the heights above.
2 Praise him, all his angels, praise him, all his heavenly hosts.
3 Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars.
4 Praise him, you highest heavens and you waters above the skies.
5 Let them praise the name of the LORD, for he commanded and they were created.
6 He set them in place for ever and ever; he gave a decree that will never pass away.
7 Praise the LORD from the earth, you great sea creatures and all ocean depths,
8 lightning and hail, snow and clouds, stormy winds that do his bidding,
9 you mountains and all hills, fruit trees and all cedars,
10 wild animals and all cattle, small creatures and flying birds,
11 kings of the earth and all nations, you princes and all rulers on earth,
12 young men and maidens, old men and children.
13Let them praise the name of the LORD, for his name alone is exalted; his splendour is above the earth and the heavens.
14 He has raised up for his people a horn, the praise of all his saints, of Israel, the people close to his heart.
Praise the LORD.

What caught my eye was verse 8 "...stormy winds that do his bidding" and I praised God because over the weekend we were at Sunway Lagoon and while we were at the wave pool, it started to pour heavily, the wind was blowing strongly, there was lightning and all of us were asked to leave the pool. Ethan, Nic and I squatted using the big raft as our shield and I told the boys to start praying because God loves us so much, He will hear our prayer! As Nic repeated after me and the prayer ended, I said to Nic, "Now watch God at work". It's just that I have seen God's glory over last week that such faith has rised up within me. I just know that He loves us so much that he would make the rain stop just a little while for the boys to enjoy themselves.

As soon as the prayer ended, the wind almost stopped and Nic said "The rain is getting lesser mummy, the air stopped". He meant the wind that brought the heavy rain has stopped blowing hard. Even then it took another 5 to 10 minutes before the rain finally subsided and the guard finally blew the whistle for all of us to get in again!

The good part was that the crowd became lesser since many left the pool area. We were the second family to jump in again. Praise the Lord! Stormy winds do listen to Father God who loves us so much and hear our prayers. Praise the Lord all ye heavenly host, all creatures here below!

Who am I that you are mindful of me?
Who am I that you set Your love on me
my Creator King

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tE6weABW-I&feature=related sung by Don Moen

Gazing at Father God

Somehow, somewhere from reading the bible, I have this perception that God is at my right hand and I also know that I am seated with Jesus at God’s right hand. I would then get confused. Hey, which is which now. However, last week while reading Psalms 16:8, I suddenly received revelation. Yay! I finally figured it out!

"I have set the LORD always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken."

So, I just wanted to share with you what I saw suddenly! Imagine - I am at God’s right hand. Initially, it seems like I am reigning with Him and I am looking out at others as well. But these past 2 weeks have been so heavenly, I kept gazing at Jesus. That’s it! See, when we gaze at Jesus while seated on his right, our body is turned towards him and now in this position, God is at our right hand. Furthermore, God’s promise is this – “I will not be shaken”. How true it is – I saw the blood coughed out but because He said to me in Isaiah 7 that the nodules will not rise up against me, it will not take place, I calmed down and as a result, I was not shaken. Praise the Lord for this wonderful revelation!

I shared it with Henry but he thought I read Psalm 16:8 in the wrong context. I said it is such simple reading, it can’t be wrong. Anyway, I checked the bible lexicon to check whether I had read Psalms 16:8 wrongly.

Amazingly, the bible lexicon confirmed even further my understanding! The sentence “I have set the Lord always before me” means to avail God, to agree with God who is in front of us, in sight of us, opposite to us. In this position, our eyes are fixed on Him with Jesus in our heart. We are gazing at Father God with Jesus in our heart.

So, Henry was right, it’s not just that He is at my right hand but I have to set the Lord before me first before He is at my right hand.

Praise the Lord for this understanding. Praise the Lord indeed! :)

Update -My Rhema Came True!

Isaiah 7:4,7

"Do not lose heart because of these two smouldering stubs of fire...It will not take place, it will not happen...will be too shattered..."

Thank you so much for praying alongside me for today we saw His deliverance. We went for a ct scan again at SJMC today. The nurse was wide eyed that a ct scan was scheduled again only after 2 months. That was because the last ct scan showed 2 nodules marginally larger and although the doctor was not alarmed it still meant I had to come back for early testing again just in case it progressed.

The past 2 months had its ups and downs - down because physically I was trying to recover from cough which Ethan infected me twice, down because I was struck with massive back pain twice, two weeks ago and again only last Sunday night, down because I coughed blood which initially scared me. Up because I grew closer to the Lord. His words to me have been very encouraging and preparing me. He told me to be strong in spirit, he told me Isaiah 7 and I was encouraged so much so that when I coughed blood I put 2 and 2 together, it could mean that I coughed up the tumour.

I read 2 Chronicles 20 and God said the battle was His and all I had to do was to give thanks and sing praises. The passage showed that the 2 armies that came after the Israelites started destroying one another after they finished slaughtering the men in Seir. All this happened while the Israelites were singing and praising God! How amazing is that?!

I was filled with new confidence. Yesterday, there was rain storm at my area for only 15 minutes. My back was aching, I was feeling weak, I could hardly even pray in tongues or sing praises but when the rain came, my spirit soared. I asked God to show me lightning that he would send lightning to smoke the mountain, to shoot his arrows and rout my enemies. And He did, just once. The lightning was pretty near followed by a mighty loud thunder and I jumped and then I praised God and thanked Him!

Today as we went to the hospital I just started singing praise songs. The ct scan showed that the MAJORITY of the nodules have reduced in size. For the first time, the report said that I am responding to treatment. Praise to the Lord! He is forever faithful and nothing is impossible for Him.

Henry and I are just jumping with joy and continuing in praise. Praise the Lord, we extol You, we declare your wondrous works! And to Jesus be praise, glory, honour and power forever and ever!

It will just take a minute

Sharing a prayer with you....

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day,
I thank You for my being able to see
and to hear this morning.
I'm blessed because You are
a forgiving God and
an understanding God.
You have done so much for me
and You keep on blessing me.
Forgive me this day for everything
I have done, said or thought
that was not pleasing to you.
I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe
from all danger and harm.
Help me to start this day
with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day
to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.
Please broaden my mind
that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper
over things I have no control over.And give me the best response
when I'm pushed beyond my limits.
I know that when I can't pray,
You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be
a blessing to others.
Keep me strong that I may help the weak...
Keep me uplifted that I may have
words of encouragement for others.
I pray for those that are lost
and can't find their way.
I pray for those that are misjudged
and misunderstood.
I pray for those who
don't know You intimately.
I pray for those that don't believe.
But I thank You that I believe
that God changes people and
God changes things.
I pray for all my sisters and brothers.
For each and every family member
in their households.
I pray for peace, love and joy
in their homes; that they are out of debt
and all their needs are met.
I pray that every eye that reads this
knows there is no problem, circumstance,
or situation greater than God.
Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.
I pray that these words be received
into the hearts of every eye that sees it
in Jesus' name. Amen!

Update - Next ct scan

Oh, do pray for me. My next ct scan is on Tuesday September 7 2010. This is an exciting time for so many things have happened the last 2 months. I am just waiting upon the Lord and even though the report may not be great, I would still walk by faith and not by sight.

I will also be joining Deeper Life Seminar 4 next week onwards for 8 weeks so that I will be near the Lord and praying that He will reveal new things to me. Classes start on September 6 and those who wish to join or just come for a trial class can do so next week, Monday and Tuesday at 8 pm. You have to come slightly earlier to sign up because classes start punctually. It is at the Renewal Lutheran Church 51A/221 PJ.

Update - I coughed blood

Matthew 13:21 nlt
“But since they don't have deep roots, they don't last long. They fall away as soon as they have problems or are persecuted for believing God's word.”

I had a chance to experience this verse from Matthew 13:21 this week. The past 2 weeks I have somehow grown closer to the Lord and I find it easier than ever to be in His presence so much so my prayer for Him is not to let me go. Last Thursday night during my quiet time with the Lord, the word “Isaiah 7” suddenly popped up in my mind so I decided to check it out. I was so encouraged when I read it because it had an instruction to me from the Lord as well as a promise that He would not let the 2 smouldering fire shrubs to rise up against me. In fact, He said, it will not take place and it will not happen and they will be too shattered”. To me, the verses related to the 2 nodules that the last ct scan report said was marginally larger. Here is a promise from God and I was so encouraged that I memorized His instructions to me to “Be careful, keep calm, do not be afraid, do not lose heart”.

My cough had been slowly dwindling away. It actually disappeared last Tuesday but came back awhile and died down quite a bit last Sunday. I was recovering quite well this week. Each time I coughed, I would confess aloud His word from Isaiah 7 and the cough would go away.

However, I got a scare on Wednesday morning (just 2 days ago). As soon as I woke up, I felt an urge to cough and spit out and to my horror I spat out blood! I have never coughed blood before! Then fear just flooded me and I was shaking like a leaf. I knelt and asked God what is it and he brought back to my memory all the verses he has shared with me the past week – to be strong in spirit, to be careful, keep calm, do not be afraid, do not lose heart, that the 2 nodules would not rise up against me, it will not happen, it will not take place, that they will be shattered, to just rest in him and flow down the river of life with Him”. I also used my own spiritual authority to bind and break whatever was disturbing me in Jesus’ name.

Then, I began to calm down and made a call to Doreen to tell her that I won’t be visiting my colleagues because I just wanted to stay calm and see what happens. Then I called Henry to pray for me.

A few hours later, Henry called and asked if I was alright and I said “Yes! No more coughing of blood”. It has been 2 days now and still clear. Everytime I cough and spit something clear out, I would say “Thank you Jesus, praise the Lord!”.

It got me thinking that it could be a tumour that I coughed up because it was like dark red gunk of clot about the size of 10 sen. It could be spiritual warfare to scare me which it did initially but God has over the past 2 months prepared my hands for war and my fingers for battle. If not, I would have fallen to pieces just like the verse from Matthew 13:21. I would have fallen away as soon as I had problems for believing God’s word.

I just want to encourage you to hold on to whatever verses that God gives you because the rulers of the air, the devil will want to bring us down. But we know we stand from the position of victory. We know that Jesus has defeated the powers of the enemy and we just need to stand firm in our faith. We have nothing to fear from the enemy.

Thank you Father God for preparing me for battle. Thank you that You are a mighty warrior who promised that You will be with me in battle. I often wondered how you would do it but these 2 weeks I saw You in action. I saw how the battle indeed belongs to you. I saw how you prepared me with Your words of life and I need only follow Your words and You bring me out of the pit as I cling on to those words. Thank You Lord for all you have shown me. All glory to You Lord, King of all kings, King above all rulers and powers and principalities. In Jesus’ name I pray Amen.

Isaiah 7:4-9
Say to him, ‘Be careful, keep calm and don’t be afraid. Do not lose heart because of these two smoldering stubs of firewood—because of the fierce anger of Rezin and Aram and of the son of Remaliah. Aram, Ephraim and Remaliah’s son have plotted your ruin, saying, “Let us invade Judah; let us tear it apart and divide it among ourselves, and make the son of Tabeel king over it.” Yet this is what the Sovereign Lord says:

“‘It will not take place,
it will not happen,
for the head of Aram is Damascus,
and the head of Damascus is only Rezin.
Within sixty-five years
Ephraim will be too shattered to be a people.
The head of Ephraim is Samaria,
and the head of Samaria is only Remaliah’s son.
If you do not stand firm in your faith,
you will not stand at all.’”