No Fear

No Fear (by Liz)

Jesus paid the price
Made a sacrifice
And in Jesus lies
The answer to my cries

No fear, no fear
Fear does not come from You
No fear, no fear
Only power, love and self control

Little by little
Baby steps to You
I cling on to your Word
You pulled me from the pit

I love you Lord
I thank You, You're my healer
I love You Lord
No fear but only joy

You took my sins away
Bore my sickness too
You have defeated death
Now we can overcome

I love you Lord
I thank You, You're my healer
I love You Lord
No fear but only joy


Wow! I don't think I've ever written a song before! I was lying down with Ethan by my side and practicing my deep breathing and thinking about God and what He has in store for me. I asked God for a name for a ministry that Uncle Allen has in mind for those suffering from cancer which I think will be a very powerful ministry to make people realise that God heals. Suddenly, the lyrics filled my mind and I had to grab some paper downstairs. Poor baby Ethan woke up - now watching TV!

Any takers to create the tune for me?

All Glory to God!

Thank You Lord

Thank you Lord for all you've done
For all you gonna do.
My heart is always for you
I love you very much


Thanks King Wai for sharing this beautiful song. It is so beautiful to sing out to the Lord! (Double click the first box on the video bar on top right of the page.)


Thank you Lord (by Don Moen)

I come before you today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank you lord
Thank you lord
For all you've given to me
For all the blessings that I cannot see
Thank you lord
Thank you lord

**With a grateful heart
With a song of praise
With an outstretch arm
I will bless your name
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord
For all you've done in my life
You took my darkness and gave me your light
Thank you lord
Thank you lord
You took my sin and my shame
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank you lord
Thank you lord

Check out youtube: http://www.lyricskeeper.com/don_moen-lyrics/223408-thank_you_lord-lyrics.htm

Nutrition - God's way

Thanks Aunty Judy. Thanks for driving all the way to my home to deliver my nutrition pills. Aunty Judy helps supply E Excel products to me which are well researched by a Taiwanese doctor, Dr Chen. Dr Chen's ambition was to be a famous scientist. She was a snooty young lady upon graduation mostly because she was so brilliant she did not have to put much effort in her exams. Interestingly, her heart changed when she saw a 30 year old woman suffering from cancer making voice recordings for her 3 toddlers (that wasn't the first patient). Dr Chen's life completely changed after that. She wanted to find a cure for cancer. Scientists have budgets to do research but their drugs are mostly chemical. When she found out that a plain little soya bean can have such great reaction to a cancer cell she started researching further but no one wanted to sponsor her. So she formed a research company to carry out research for other companies and used the profits for her own immunology research. That was a long time ago. She has no secrets. Anyone is welcomed to do better. Her only goal is to find a cure and for cancer prevention.

It is heartening to know that God our maker gives us natural plant to build our immunity and in a way, Dr Chen has found a way to bring the potency of these natural plant to our homes as it is impossible to consume so much daily. When God created the world, He said in Genesis 11,29:

11 Then God said, "Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds." And it was so.

29 Then God said, "I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.

Interestingly, in my situation, I had to turn back to what He originally provided to us in Genesis (what we call "vegetarian" these days). Siew Mei mentioned that in the end times, when food get so processed and meat get so tainted, at least we can still go back to the "Genesis produce" to heal us.

That's why for the time being I've left out meat from my diet. No pork, no chicken, no fish. Maybe later. My current diet also does not contain sugar, salt, oil, milk or eggs. All so to starve the cancer cells. My creative mum (she says it is inspired by the Holy Spirit) comes up with fruit juices and warm meals from vegetables, grains and nuts. Thanks Daffy for the juicer and thanks TRYGOS for the blender.

Here is to give you an idea of what SUPPLEMENTS I take in daily:

E Excel Products (all from natural plant - no chemicals):

Nutriact (polysaccarides from mushrooms) 1 sachet 3 times a day
Celebration of Life (cactus juice, ginseng, cordiceps) (2 sachets a day)
Daily Nutrition Pills for Morning (6 pills once in the morning)
Daily Nutrition Pills for Evening (6 pills once in the evening)
Noco (for respiratory) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Art (for bones) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Act (for action) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Circle (for circulation) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Nutrifresh beverage (15 fruits & vege) (2-3 sachets a day)
Lidan beverage (for liver) (2-3 sachets a day)
Herba beverage (for heart) (2-3 sachets a day)

Others:
Probiotics 1 pill a day
Porcupine powder (1 a day)
Tocovid (2 pills a day)
Grapeseed (2 pills 3 times a day)

Chemicals:
Tarceva (1 pill a day)
Antibiotics (1 pill a day)

There's really a lot of swallowing to do. But sweet Siew Mei reminded me that whatever I take I must take with a prayerful heart. So, I think I have slowed down a bit and say a more detailed prayer to the Lord which really worked! The last check up, for the first time, I gained weight! 1 KILO!

Collectively, it costs a bomb! Thousands and thousands of ringgit! But with showers of blessings from my mum, aunties and friends and insurance, so far, all has been provided for. Believe it or not, the insurance money only kicked in last week! But I am very thankful for God's hand upon my life and my family even down to logistics, kids being taken care of, ability to rest, exercise and read the bible. Thank you Lord for everything! Indeed I lift my eyes towards the mountains and He is my Helper! The maker of heaven and earth! Praise the Lord!

We have AUTHORITY & POWER in JESUS'' Name

Thanks Tracy and Isaac, your encouraging words are so deep and revealing, I must share with everyone. We are victorious as Christians and many of us have not taken the journey to experience this victory! We walk on victory ground as King Wai always says. We are "in" His GRACE. We just need to believe and claim this victory. All Glory to God!

"Hi Liz, from both of us tonight! We wanted to encourage you (just read your latest blog together) with a scripture from 1 John 4:4, 'Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world'. Also from Isaiah 41:10 'so do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God'. Just to encourage you during this time - yay Victory is yours! - how wonderful to know the hand of God is on your Life! Victory was yours the very moment you accepted Christ into your life; it was then that in your journey that you learned this amazing truth! This is God's amazing truth to us and for us! We have AUTHORITY in Jesus's name, POWER in His name. Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world! Amen! Thank you God! King of Kings and Lord of Lords; maker of the heavens, maker of our galaxy, maker of this universe! Jesus, saviour of the world! Victory is ours because He said so, Amen! We are praying with you and with your band of prayer warriors! take care, love Tracy & Isaac"

I Asked for Vision

Yesterday at the Global Breakthrough, I asked God for a vision during the loooooong praise session. Whilst everyone was speaking in tongues, I asked God for a vision. I could not see anything. It's like looking at darkness in my mind! Later, I can see things around but I can't quite make out. I thought I saw people's back. I saw the word "King" and then the picture of a crown and a furry robe came to my mind. Then, I saw the word "camel" slightly hidden. The word "gentleness" came very clearly followed by "kindness". Still trying to look further, I saw a shape and "church" came to my mind. When the session was over, I asked Ps Joseph what the camel meant. It is so strange to see a picture of a camel. He said camels in a dry land are beautiful to the people living there. A camel also stores a lot of water. Later, I told him the other words and when Ps Lydia heard the word "church", she said "Again? You are always burdened for your church!". She warned me not to get entangled with the church politics because my health comes first. I told her I will always remember her advise and when I do feel burdened for FBC, I will just say a prayer and let it go to God. Then Ps Joseph said, "A camel also carries loads". You must be the camel carrying the burden!"

This morning I told Henry about the vision and he said "Haiya, it means the fruit of the spiritlah". So clever, husband of mine! Now, I know what the whole vision means.

"God is the King in First Baptist Church and He wants us to be filled with the Holy Spirit so we can show the fruit of the spirit which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. And I am the camel to tell you all this."

Ah well, at least that is my interpretation. The only way we can be filled with the Holy Spirit is if we desire it and ask for fresh anointing.

That was my second vision. The first vision I had in this journey was on 17 July 2009 where I saw 3 flashes of witchcraft sillouette. Now I know it confirms the spiritual attack that constantly happens to me. We have to put on the armor of God friends.

I Felt Warmth!

I did! I did! I felt warmth! I experienced the Holy Spirit this way. I know He is still in me in the midst of dryness but I felt His warmth! Yayyy! I had a breakthrough today and I want to share it with you. After the last blog, I just shut myself in the room and just wanted to be close to God. So I fell on my knees and started to pray and speak in tongues. But in my mind, I wanted to read His word (greedy to do both) so I grabbed the bible and started with Psalm 91. I cried out to God to protect me because He said if I acknowledged His name, He will protect me.

Psalm 91:14

"Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name."

Then, I was thinking of what I needed to strike the devil. I needed God's word in Ephesians 6:10-18 but amazingly as soon as I read the first line, I was starting to feel reassured.

Ephesians 6:10

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.

The more I repeated the same line, the more the spirit within me became stronger and I started to feel His warmth though I wasn't really thinking about it at that moment.

I started to read other passages as well eg Ephesians 2:4-5

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.


I started to speak in tongues in between reading and repeating bible passages and after awhile, for the first time, my tongue started to loosen and had taken a life of its own. Even the language and tone was different. Wow! At one time I felt the urge to go to the toilet (sorry guys) and in the toilet the tongue started speaking faster but it was as if the tongue and I were separate. Wow! I had new motivation to speak in tongues because last night I went for a praise and seminar at Global Breakthrough and according to Elaine, last night was the longest session speaking in tongues that she witnessed during praise. Even Elaine and I settled down after a long while and just received the holy spirit silently!

I continued to speak in tongues and reading God's word and suddenly I started to sob loudly and I cried out to God. Wow! I just felt so overwhelmed. I couldn't continue after that because trying to speak in tongues while crying is not so easy. I realised my back and my chest was feeling warm. I smsed Henry immediately to let him know and I quickly documented in my journal. This is all too exciting for me! I have been speaking in tongues before, at best maybe close to 5 minutes each time but quite heavy. It was only after Ps Chris confirmed I was really speaking in tongues that I gained more confidence but still, it just wasn't like today.

Today's experience really gave me renewed motivation to keep trying and just soak in His awesome presence and just pray in tongues. Flashes of Aunty Beverly and Kim Kee's mum and Tony came to my mind. Later Hamir explained it does happen like that and it is through our moaning and groanings that we are praying for these people. Hamir is so excited for me too for He says God is preparing me for another level. Wow! I just want encourage you to desire to speak in tongues. Sometimes, we are so burdened we do not know how to pray. As we speak in tongues, we pray in the spirit that God understands. It is so beautiful. Keep trying friends.

1 Corinthians 14:2

For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to men but to God. Indeed, no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.

Ps Leong of EFC Gospel said now that I have received God's healing, I should continue to thank Him and if I run out of words, I could thank God speaking in tongues. It did not occur to me that I could thank Him that way. Thanks Ps Leong.

The Dark Forces

I really treasure your prayers even more now. What really hit me in this entire journey from the beginning is how real the spiritual realm is. Even though I am walking so closely with God, time and again, it comes back to attack me and it is confirmed from friends. I even had stronghold of stautes removed from my home last week with the help from Uncle Allen and His prayer warriors. The worst was the bad dream that I had in the early morning before the scan. Even at the 11th hour it will try and sneak in. I just want to share with you that if it can still try and devour me when I am walking so closely to God what more for those who aren't. The reason why for some of us it is so difficult to hear God is because the evil forces are trying very hard to pull us away from God.

Ps Sasha just called me just now and I thank her for reminding me that I need to really soak in God's words 24 hours, even while I am sleeping! I ask her how is it possible that can I pray when I am sleeping. She said it is possible and I will try. I can try to speak in tongues and just continue to speak in tongues until I fall asleep so that even in spirit I am still praying. Last week, I went for a healing and praise session at the EFC Gospel Centre. Ps Sasha interceded for Ps Leong and at one time during the deliverance, she felt tremendous headache and collapsed on my shoulder as it was just too painful to stand. Only today she shared with me that there was a presence of strong dark spirit that she had to constantly battle with. It is only when I soak in God's words and put on the armor of God, that I can use the sword of the spirit (the word of God) to strike back at the enemy. That night when I had the bad dream, unknowingly, I did that. I used God's words of Philippian 4:6 and 1 Timothy 2:7 and thrust the sword at the devil and it flead immediately.

Oh Lord, thank you so much for that night you heard my cry and caused Chiew Hwa to pray for me. I pray oh Lord that my friends will continue to pray for my protection against the evil one. It is striking me, Aunty Beverly and Kim Kee's mum (Tham Soo Ping). Give us your holy spirit and lead us and guide us what to do. May the Counselor remind us again and again your scriptures and how we can strike the enemy at this critical time. I pray for protection for all my prayer warriors as they too have been hit but there is NO ONE stronger than You. You have equipped us with the knowledge and with the Holy Spirit by our side we will stand firm. The battle belongs to you oh Lord, you said so yourself. You do not lie and I pray for your protection, I claim Ps 91 and the blood of Jesus to cover all of us - myself, Aunty Beverly, Kim Kee's mum, my family, my cell group, all my prayer warriors. I rebuke you devil and I cast you out from amongst us. You have no power, no dominion over us. There is no room for you in our bodies. We are a temple of God, I cast you out in Jesus' name! Get out now in Jesus' name!

I pray all this in Jesus' name. Amen.

He who seeks shelter in the Most High will rest in the shadow of the almighty (Ps 91:1).

That's what I will be doing, just resting under His wing, soaking His word. Please pray for Aunty Beverly and KIm Kee's mum the similar manner. Thanks friends.