Monday, February 28, 2011

Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 7

Nic gave us a pleasant surprise last night when he said aloud "I am trying my best" when asked why he was taking so long to answer a question during his homework session. His normal reaction would be to give a loud wailing whiny noise so we really praise God for another growth spurt after Nic turned 8. We encouraged him to continue to think that way rather than giving up and whining. When Nic starts to speak life that way, it will renew his mind too. Father God truly has "ephphatha" his brain since we prayed according to Mark 7:34-35. Nic complained that his christian friends have not even heard that term before and neither have some adults. I showed him Mark 7:34-35

"He (Jesus) looked up to heaven and with a deep sigh said to him, "Ephphatha" (which means "Be opened"). At this, the man's ears were opened, his tongue was loosened and he begun to speak plainly."

It may not be that following the way Jesus healed works all the time but to us it is about believing everything that the bible says, the words that God gave us, the power of His words to those who believe. We draw so much comfort that God is fully in control when we follow Him and what he says about us.

Nic celebrated his 8th burthday recently at Get Crafty, One Utama. The pirate themed party was inspired by one of Nic's earlier phone games - Monkey Island. Shortly after we fixed the theme, Nic discovered a new love for Smurfs. That would be an interesting theme wouldn"t it? The party decorations at Get Crafty were so well done. They were like little stage props and the children had fun playing around the coconut trees, disguising as pirates and travelling in a little boat around the shop. Tea time snacks of croquette, egg and sardine sandwiches, fired mee hoon, chocolate eclairs, pizza squares, siew paus were served on nice big white dishes and all prepared by LAVA, a little tiny cafe downstairs near the Cold Storage supermarket. LAVA even baked Nic a lovely treasure box cake overflowing with treasures!

Nic's favourite cousin, Gwen

Happy Birthday Nic! We love you very much!
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Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 6

Joshua blowing dry his hook


Ethan with his finished sword

Nic's RETRO pirate boat. If only pirates were not evil but just fun loving. Nic insisted he did not want a skull, so his sail was heart shaped and the body of the boat were painted with bright colors. Nic hates violence. :)
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Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 5

During the party, a treasure chest was pulled out and when the lid was opened, the kids went crazy for the gold coins! Wow!

The gold coins were bright and shiny and they started grabbing the coins and stuffing as much and as fast as they can into their loot bag.

....until there were none left!

Ivan showing off his bag of coins!
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Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 4

Boat within a boat

Even adults can have fun!

Lets go to Monkey Island!
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Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 3

Ahoy there! I am recruiting little pirate boys! Come join me.

Ethan,one of the new recruits!

Tatt King, Sharon giving their approval as Calvin and Brian
take their oaths as new pirates

Is this what this is all about? Sword wielding and hooked on fun?
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Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 2

Happy Bithday Nicholas!

Moist chocolate cake. Taste home baked someone said.

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Saturday, February 26, 2011

Nic's 8th Birthday at Get Crafty- Part 1

Can't we feast first?

No...we have to make our weapons first! Let's get going.

My hook.
Thank you Aunty Audrey for organising this lovely party for me!
My friends and I really enjoyed ourselves. :)
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Friday, February 25, 2011

El Elyon, El Shaddai

The devotion at the bottom caught my eye because of the word "El Elyon". And "El Elyon" caught my eye because last week no one in my bible study group could answer me what "El Shaddai" meant! We could actually study the names of God in Hebrew to understand his nature better. I later found out El Shaddai meant "God Almighty". There's a famous song written by Michael Card and John Thompson that goes...

El Shaddai, El Shaddai (God Almighty, God Almighty)
El Elyon na Adonai (God Most High, O Lord)
Erkamka na Adonai (I love you, O Lord)

YouTube movie Amy Grant singing El Shaddai

Now more about El Elyon...may you be blessed by the devotion from

The Bridge

I don’t know if you have ever been over one of those very high bridges across a mountain pass or a rushing river. Maybe you have had to clamber across the ceiling of a high building on what is called a catwalk, high above the floor below. I used to have a good head for heights and at one time in my life had to drive a tower crane, which meant stepping from the ladder in the tower structure out into the cab which was suspended from the jib across quite a gap, many metres above the ground. Not nowadays!

As a team we have been looking at the various names of God and I came across the reference in Genesis 14:18 where Melchizadek is referred to as the priest of ‘God Most High’ – El-Elyon, a name not often used of God. I found this a helpful name however, as it is easy to reduce God the Father down do a near-human level. Because we have the privilege of intimacy through Jesus, we can tend to forget that God is still El-Elyon, the ‘Most High God’. Perhaps that is because such a High God could seem too ‘inaccessible hid from our eyes’ as the old hymn goes.

How good it is that God Himself has made the bridge linking us created beings here on earth to the ‘Most High’. 1 Timothy 2 reminds us that part of the role of Jesus is to be the mediator, the go-between, or the bridge between that ‘high and lifted up’ One and ourselves. Through all generations mankind has been seeking to construct bridges to God, but they never work because they can’t reach God. However, by God starting from His end, a successful bridge was established, in the person of Jesus Christ.

The challenge to us all is to walk across that rather slender connection in our daily living. The difficulty is that the way is not horizontal, the bridge slopes upwards! In order to proceed we need a daily appreciation of the ‘most high-ness’ of God – as we keep looking up, a living relationship with Jesus the Mediator, and an awareness of where we’ve come from, so that we take nothing for granted.
God is the ‘Most High’, and worthy of all our praise and loving worship, but He invites us to approach Him by ascending into the heights with Jesus, who stands firmly with us in our earthly experiences, whilst at the same time lifting us into the presence of the Father.

Prayer: Thank You, Jesus, for being the bridge through whom we can come into the very presence of ‘God Most High’. Please help us to walk with You, looking upwards every day rather than being fixated on the problems of this life. Amen.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Comforted by 2 Kings 4:16-37

Over the past few days, my mind has been troubled over the passing away of YS. She was diagnosed with colon cancer in 2009, had an operation to remove the tumor, had chemo and recently had tumor in the uterus and she had her womb removed. I only met her once. I knew of her difficulty opening up as she seemed unfazed by her circumstance. I knew of Anita's struggles in sharing Jesus' love with her. I too tried. A few of us were praying for her. She was hospitalized around the same time I was struck with so much pain and my pain had started the day after I met her. She had difficulty passing motion and soon had to be hospitalized with stuck intestines and she deteriorated from there on until she passed away on Tuesday.

It is really so hard to pray for an unbeliever. We prayed for her eyes to be open to see Jesus.  I know He has the power to just show himself in her room but He didn't, at least I don't think He did. He has shown Himself to others and they believed and received healing but in her case He didn't. I know we can't put God in the box. I sense God knew her through and through and Henry said even if He did show himself to her, she might still have rejected Him. After all, Jesus, the son of God came to earth, in person, said who He is, showed the miracles, died and risen and the Jews still rejected Him.

I have been mulling over 2 Kings 4:16-37 for the past few days and trying to understand it. It dawned on me this morning the reaction of the well-to-do woman, prophet Elisha's reaction and even my reaction when faced with a desperate situation.

1. The well-to-do woman called her husband and said "Please send me one of the servants and a donkey so I can go to the man of God and return"

2. Elisha shut the door on the two of them (ie Elisha and the well-to-do's dead son) and prayed to God. Later, Elisha stretched himself on the boy and the boy grew warm.

3. I cried out to God from my hospital bed, tried to get verses to claim and for comfort and I sought Hamir's advise for I sensed somehow he was going to be the one who could help me.

I know YS tried many things, even went for healing service though she could not understand any of it. I don't think she ever opened her heart to Jesus for soon, she shut her close friend out from helping her further. Her close friend could not "stretch herself" out to YS to show her the way and pray with her. How do we tell her of unforgiveness, hardness and bitterness when she wouldn't open up?That was the most painful of all to stand back and watch her die in bitterness. We could only pray for her. But today, I received comfort reading 2 Kings 4. We can't blame God when things go wrong, we can't generalize that He is an unloving God. Only we ourselves who are facing the predicament truly know and understand our ownself, what we are going through, the mess in our hearts, the hurts we are facing inside. Turn to God and release it all to Him. The holy spirit will guide you along as He did me. He sends people to us to help us. Don't shut them out. The Holy Spirit is so gentle, He never forces our will to worship Him and that is why it is always our choice to come to Jesus. We always have a choice and we can love again when Jesus transforms us from within.

2 Kings 4:16-37
   “No, my lord!” she objected. “Please, man of God, don’t mislead your servant!”

 17 But the woman became pregnant, and the next year about that same time she gave birth to a son, just as Elisha had told her.

 18 The child grew, and one day he went out to his father, who was with the reapers. 19 He said to his father, “My head! My head!”

   His father told a servant, “Carry him to his mother.” 20 After the servant had lifted him up and carried him to his mother, the boy sat on her lap until noon, and then he died. 21 She went up and laid him on the bed of the man of God, then shut the door and went out.

 22 She called her husband and said, “Please send me one of the servants and a donkey so I can go to the man of God quickly and return.”

 23 “Why go to him today?” he asked. “It’s not the New Moon or the Sabbath.”

   “That’s all right,” she said.

 24 She saddled the donkey and said to her servant, “Lead on; don’t slow down for me unless I tell you.” 25 So she set out and came to the man of God at Mount Carmel.

   When he saw her in the distance, the man of God said to his servant Gehazi, “Look! There’s the Shunammite! 26 Run to meet her and ask her, ‘Are you all right? Is your husband all right? Is your child all right?’”

   “Everything is all right,” she said.

 27 When she reached the man of God at the mountain, she took hold of his feet. Gehazi came over to push her away, but the man of God said, “Leave her alone! She is in bitter distress, but the LORD has hidden it from me and has not told me why.”

 28 “Did I ask you for a son, my lord?” she said. “Didn’t I tell you, ‘Don’t raise my hopes’?”

 29 Elisha said to Gehazi, “Tuck your cloak into your belt, take my staff in your hand and run. Don’t greet anyone you meet, and if anyone greets you, do not answer. Lay my staff on the boy’s face.”

 30 But the child’s mother said, “As surely as the LORD lives and as you live, I will not leave you.” So he got up and followed her.

 31 Gehazi went on ahead and laid the staff on the boy’s face, but there was no sound or response. So Gehazi went back to meet Elisha and told him, “The boy has not awakened.”

 32 When Elisha reached the house, there was the boy lying dead on his couch. 33 He went in, shut the door on the two of them and prayed to the LORD. 34 Then he got on the bed and lay on the boy, mouth to mouth, eyes to eyes, hands to hands. As he stretched himself out on him, the boy’s body grew warm. 35 Elisha turned away and walked back and forth in the room and then got on the bed and stretched out on him once more. The boy sneezed seven times and opened his eyes.

 36 Elisha summoned Gehazi and said, “Call the Shunammite.” And he did. When she came, he said, “Take your son.” 37 She came in, fell at his feet and bowed to the ground. Then she took her son and went out.

Stem Tech Pills Testimony by Michael Ooi

I called Mr Michael Ooi today, a 68 year old man who was diagnosed with stage 4 prostrate cancer spread to his bones, liver and lung last September 2010. His cancer marker was an amazing 3500! He was supposed to go for some marrow extraction failing which chemo but he did neither because he met a Dr Sundram from Subang Jaya who told him to take Stem Tech pills. At end December, he went to visit an oncologist and the oncologist told him he needn't have seen him. Michael was worried because he thought of the worst. Maybe the was nothing the oncologist could do but surprisingly, the oncologist told him there was no cancer in his bones, lungs or liver. His canc marker was down to 66.1 which means he still had prostate cancer and currently he is still on the stem tech pills. He does not take other vitamins, his diet includes fish and chicken and he doesn't eat organic. I had to ask the Nic question, "Uncle, are you Christian?". He said yes so I shouted "Praise the Lord, all glory to God!". It is a miracle because out of all the doctors he met he met Dr Sundram who prescribed him Stem Tech pills. Which doctor would recommend him multi level marketing pills. Michael is truly blessed, God's hand was upon him, he got it right with only one medication and what a strange medication! Praise God indeed! You can hear the excitement of his voice. He was happy he regained his muscles, his weight, his appetite.When first diagnosed he was on wheelchair, skin and bones and in pain. I could hear his wife shouting at the background he had gained 10 pounds from 150 pounds to 160 pounds.

I am on my 3rd bottle of Stem Tech (5 pills morning and night) and 28 days of low dose naltrexone.They seem to work well together! I am slowly gaining weight and energy. God is good all the time! :)

Monday, February 21, 2011

A tune in my Head - Part 2

I put lyrics to the tune I had in my head last week. Here it goes:

Come praise Him
Come praise Him
Give glory to His name
I love You, my Lord
You're my Healer

Update - One Kilo

I was sad I missed Bro Leong Po Lye's call last week when I took Nic for music class and therefore he could not pray for me over the phone while I was driving. I tried calling him this morning but he was too busy. I told Henry I had to pick up my courage to call him again and he laughed and said I have been through much more than that. The devil still tries to put fear in my heart even till today doesn't it?

When Bro Leong finally called me back, he asked if there were any improvements and I said how Henry and I marveled at how I had increased 1 kg. My heart sunk 2 weeks ago when my mum weighed me and despite taking protein powder and additional supplements, I was down by another kg to 42kg. In total, I have lost 18 kg since the diagnosis. But last week, I noticed that my weight increased by 1 to 1.5 kg! Praise the Lord! That is a very good sign indeed! Bro Leong prayed that I would increase by another 1 kg this week and so on until my complete healing. Praise the Lord! Thank You Lord for your hand upon me and bless O Lord the people praying for me and my family and protect them O Lord from the evil one. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Circle of Friends

Circle of Friends

Last Wednesday, Elaine taught me to make my first pair of earrings. It is actually very easy once you have all the beads and tools at hand. I can imagine Elaine preparing for dinner and saying to herself "Oooo, what earrings shall I make for myself today?" and then just string them up and pop on the ear hooks! Voila!

I've always wanted to make jewelry. During the CCF fun fair ages ago, our stall allowed men to make pendant necklaces for their girlfriends for RM5. That was such a funny sight for men's fingers are much bigger and watching them fumble with pliers and hooks was so hilarious.

So, thank you Elaine for taking me to new heights with jewelry making. I can't wait to sink in to bracelet making. :)

Later, Pastor Chris and Pastor Sasha and Goh arrived at her house for bible study and they ended up praying for healing for me. I remember I was feeling slightly unwell and cold at 4pm when we started singing. Even Ps Sasha shared later that she felt something was disrupting our worship earlier. They sat in a circle around me as they prayed and I remember Ps Sasha claiming that this perfect circle of love is what will hold us together in Him - that no enemy will be able to break through.

I think what Ps Sasha is saying where there is love between friends, between husband and wife, within community, it is more difficult for the devil to work its way in compared to if there is strife, anger or hurt in relationships, the devil will help fuel our minds with bad thoughts of the other person. So, the next time someone gossips of another person especially in church, remember not to participate but to pray instead for the person for where there is strife, lies every evil spirit!

Anyway, Ps Chris felt God's love, His compassion and mercy for me. He said he knows it is hard for us to understand how deep, how high, how wide is His love for us but He does love me (us) so much. I did for the longest time just know God's love only in my head. It is certainly true that each time I receive revelation of God's love, my faith in Him grows.

Last Friday, during bible study, Henry encouraged us to imagine Jesus sitting on a chair next to us rather than picturing Him in heaven faraway. Today, I watched Brother Leong Po Lye's testimony cd how a lady with stage 3B stomach cancer was told by Bro Leong to picture Jesus standing in front of her. In her quiet time she did and she saw Jesus in mediteranian clothing standing in front of her and she fell to His feet crying for a long time and she felt Jesus hand on her head. She saw scars on her hands. She told Jesus that this did not belong to her but to Jesus and Jesus said to her that He did it so she would know how much He loved her (that He died for her sins). That was her encounter with Jesus and from that day on she just got better and better until her cancer marker went back to normal range within the next few months. It always starts with a revelation of God's love for us and we can only do that if we spend time with Jesus. And sometimes, I would deliberately switch off the TV! Every time I lie down and start to speak God's words aloud, I feel all the uneasiness around my chest area just go away and my breathing starts to ease up and I become more relaxed in Him.

What Ps Chris said to me touched me. He said God loved me so much and He has seen my desire for healing and He will grant the desires of my heart for healing. That just made me cry because I love God so much too. The night before, I asked God "What work would you like me to do?". I shared it with the group because so happens that was going to be their study for next week. As they prayed for me, Ps Sasha said the first word she received was 1 Corinthians 14:1 and she told me to pray about it.

1 Corinthians 14:1
"Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy"

Ps Shirley Cash said the same about me during the Deeper life Seminar last October. She said I may be afraid to say it at first if God were to tell me something but she told me not to be afraid and just be obedient. I am not sure how all this works but I just ask God to show me and help me understand all this.

I felt so good after the healing prayer. I felt stronger and even though that night I dreaded to take Nic out for music class for I wasn't feeling too well earlier, I actually had stamina to last the entire night until Henry came home. I even took the kids for a night cap at Coffee Bean and Ethan who was so hungry then was so thankful, he gave me a kiss and a hug. Kids really make my heart melt. Praise the Lord! I thank you for completely healing me. I thank you for the victory won! Thank you Jesus! There is no one else like You!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Murphy's Law

Murphy's Law

Last Sunday, Murphy's law applied. Everything that could go wrong seemed to happen!

Nic got up whining, even having his favorite breakfast was painful. We soon found out why when Nic puked all over Henry's car. I was sweating so much driving that morning soaking lots of tissues just because I was anxious we were late for church. What made it worse was the warning light for the petrol came on and I had no wallet or handphone because we put all the bags in Henry's car in a haste. I was praying to God and I sense Him telling me "calm down" so I prayed in tongues until I calmed down. But on Henry's side, he had to deal with the mess in the car and another wave of vomit later, taking Nic to see a doctor and cleaning the car at a nearby petrol station before coming to church. Poor thing!

I had already calmed down and just praying that all will be well on Henry's side. We could not lunch together as a family for Nic had to rest at home. So, Ethan and I had lunch together and bought groceries together and then Murphy's law happened again! I lost my keys! I lodged a report, backtrack to the supermarket and carpark. I was digging into my handbag and Ethan said "Never mind mummy, i will find  it for you". We emptied out the entire bag but still no keys and then realized "uh oh, I haven't prayed yet" and so I did. Immediately, I had a flashback of how my hand bag fell under the table at the restaurant and true enough when we went back to the same table, the customer seated there said he had passed my keys to the manager. Praise the Lord! Henry was already out of the house dragging poor sick Nic out then but thankfully he could turn back home.

This whole episode together with the episode of the rib pain all happened the same day! In all our anxiety, anger, fluster, pain, God is really trying to refine us to be more and more like him like putting us in refiners' fire. That night we thanked God that we overcame all the evil that came our way. 

I felt that the enemy came in one direction but fled in seven directions! For that night we felt so much peace in our household despite going through so much. God blessed Henry with a good petrol station that cleaned up all the vomit for him. I found my keys! We both had good bonding sessions with a son each. He took my rib pain away. He taught us to cast our anger and our anxieties to Him. He taught us to use our authority to trample on the evil one. 

But still, Murphy's law would not end that night. At midnight while Nic was asleep he suddenly got up and puked on the bed sheet. We just went through the routine of wash up put on the clean sheets and still felt God's peace on us. Praise the Lord!

1 Peter 1:6-7. `So be truly glad! There is wonderful joy ahead, even though it is necessary for you to endure many trials for a while. These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold - and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honour on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.`

Overcoming Spiritual Attack

Overcoming spiritual attack

Of late and really ever since the our maid's episode, Henry and I have discovered the power of prayer in agreement based on Matthew 18:19. I just want to share with you another recent testimony of how not only is prayer more powerful when two on earth agree about anything we ask for that it will be done by God, but also prayer from our spouse is very powerful because it is heartfelt and in Henry's case, he means business against the evil forces!

Last Sunday, I was feeling a bit of pain on my right rib and sometimes I think it is all in the head so I decided to press the rib to see where the pain is and I found it. Every now and then I would check it again and it is still there. Sigh. I prayed against it. I read God's words to overcome it but the pain is still there. 

Henry saw me pressing my rib and he asked what is the matter. I told him this slight pain on the rib just started that day. I asked Henry to pray for me and so he laid hands on my rib and he started to bind and break the spirit of affliction that it will have no hold over me for I am a temple of God etc and we both said Amen in agreement.

Within the next 30 minutes to an hour, there was no more pain even though I pressed on the same spot! Then Henry said "It's an attack againlah". "What attack?" I asked. "It is a spiritual attack again" he said. It really was. Even though the pain is real, it was all just a lie from the enemy to cast doubts in the victory I already have in Him. In that way, the battle against disease can sometimes be difficult because the pain is real but when we are children of God - even pain, sickness, fear and death have no power, no dominion over us for God who is in us is greater than the devil in the world!

Be encouraged my friends. :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

A tune in my head praising God

I had started exercising again for the past one month and it has been very encouraging. I remember right after the attack I was taking walks like an old woman. I barely had the strength to walk and constantly coughing so much so I had to wrap a scarf around me.

But these days I can manage a slow jog around my neighborhood and as I reached the playground to calm down, I suddenly had a tune in my head and started breaking in tongues and praising God. I thought I'd better write down the tune so I can write lyrics to it some day. Here it is sharing with you:


The "_" represents two counts. Makes sense? Ah so much from a non musician. Ha ha. It feels good this morning to praise God like this. At bed time last night, I was at the window sill enjoying His presence, looking at the night sky with the distant lightning in the sky. It just kept going and going and going. I just feel so much love and awe for God in times like this. I had already slipped downstairs to take my low dose naltrexone and crept upstairs. Suddenly Henry stirred and he reminded me to take it. We normally pray together based on Matthew 18:19 while taking the ldn. I told him I heard him snoring and he chuckled and said "praise God, praise God". That is ever the first time I hear praise uttered from his lips so naturally half asleep! Yes, praise God indeed, God with us, His presence was very strong last night.

Matthew 24:27

""For just as the lightning comes from the east and flashes even to the west, so will the coming of the Son of Man be."

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Thank you Jesus for Your blessings

Thank you Jesus that i got to meet CT on Monday and for the bottle of liver supplement (Nature's Glory, Singapore) from him. Thank you for Aunty May calling me out of the blue on Tuesday and blessing me with some bottles of stem tech pills. Thank you for Aunty May putting me in touch with Jenny and for her testimony.

(Jenny shared her testimony how stem tech helped her recover from spinal problem which led to nerves, eye sight and breathing problems so much so she had to stop work after three years. Also, her cancer marker kept going up for her liver. It was only when she started taking stem tech pills last July that she started seeing results within 3 weeks and finally last November, the inflammation at her spine and her cancer marker went down. Today she is back at work).

Thank you Jesus that through Aunty May, brother Leong Poh Lai from Singapore (who has special anointing to pray for people diagnosed with cancer) prayed for me. I know Your hand was upon me because Bro Leong was away in Africa but You made it possible for me to call him, when he was in KL for a day. I praise You, Lord!

Thank you Jesus for Uncle Seng bringing over the stem tech pills from Aunty May. Thank you also that through uncle Seng, You gave me an answer as to why our garden lights always go bust. (uncle Seng explained that it is because the garden lights we bought were so tightly sealed that when the tungsten light gets really hot, there is no breathing space for the light resulting in its very short life span. So, he gave some tips on some lights that last longer). Praise the Lord! Problem solved!

Thank you that whilst many chinese were celebrating "pai tin kung' on  Thursday night, you sent three of your servants to minister to me and Henry and to pray for us. Thank you for Your words through brother Steven Lee, brother Henry and Ps Serene. Just when I was sharing on the blog about casting out all the spirit of fear, rejection and death from me, You used them Lord to minister deliverance to me and now that all the "rubbish" has been burnt away, You remind me to think of the past no more and to live each day led by the Holy Spirit. I thank you for warning me to be careful of what I think and what I say from now on and to keep declaring the victory I have in You and to never stop talking and praying  to You. Thank you for your love and compassion for me and You tell me to continue looking at You and not at my problems for You love me and care for me and will send me help. :)

Thank You for the bible verses you gave me through them...

Matthew 6:33
Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart 
   and lean not on your own understanding; 
6 in all your ways submit to him, 
   and he will make your paths straight.

Habakkuk 3:17-19

17 Though the fig tree does not bud 
   and there are no grapes on the vines, 
though the olive crop fails 
   and the fields produce no food, 
though there are no sheep in the pen 
   and no cattle in the stalls, 
18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD, 
   I will be joyful in God my Savior.
19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength; 
   he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, 
   he enables me to tread on the heights.

Thank You Jesus because you have ordained me and not necessarily behind a pulpit but just sharing with people around me.

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 1:5,8,10,12

5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, 
   before you were born I set you apart; 
   I appointed you as a prophet to the nations

8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD.

10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”

 12 The LORD said to me, “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled.”

Thank You for Maria from Elpizo calling me yesterday and giving me the word of Matthew 8:17 that You took away my infirmities and bore my sicknesses and I need not bear it any longer. Thank You for your reminder to just continue to feed on your word to build my faith and to hear your rhema.

Thank you for Anita who called me yesterday and prayed with me and thank You again for this morning that even when Henry was leading worship for morning prayers, he too got prayed for. Thank You Lord for your awesome love for your children. Thank you that You continue to restore my body back to health and heal my wounds. Thank You Lord for everything.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Listen carefully to My words

I was sharing Jesus with someone when he pushed the question of whether Jesus is the son on God or just a prophet. I am not good at handling questions like these but I know it is not my place to convict a person into Christianity, that it is the holy spirit that does the conviction so i just listened more. God knows I get shaken at questions like these and Maria from Elpizo reminded me this morning to continue building my faith on the word of God. It is easy to get diluted from debates. 

It is wonderful that God is with me all the time because a day after the meet, He showed me this passage to show me how an unbeliever thinks despite hearing the truth.  The following snippet from the bible shows how Jesus himself answered the same questions asked today along the lines of "Who do you think you are?", "We only believe in God", "You are demon possessed". These are eye witnesses' account of Jesus' claims. The Pharisees who claimed that they follow Abraham rejected Jesus in the end.

John 8:41-47

“We are not illegitimate children,” they protested. “The only Father we have is God himself.”

 42 Jesus said to them, “If God were your Father, you would love me, for I have come here from God. I have not come on my own; God sent me. 43 Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. 44 You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. 45 Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me! 46 Can any of you prove me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don’t you believe me? 47 Whoever belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God.”

John 8:49- 58

   49 “I am not possessed by a demon,” said Jesus, “but I honor my Father and you dishonor me. 50 I am not seeking glory for myself; but there is one who seeks it, and he is the judge. 51 Very truly I tell you, whoever obeys my word will never see death.”

 52 At this they exclaimed, “Now we know that you are demon-possessed! Abraham died and so did the prophets, yet you say that whoever obeys your word will never taste death. 53 Are you greater than our father Abraham? He died, and so did the prophets. Who do you think you are?”

 54 Jesus replied, “If I glorify myself, my glory means nothing. My Father, whom you claim as your God, is the one who glorifies me. 55 Though you do not know him, I know him. If I said I did not, I would be a liar like you, but I do know him and obey his word. 56 Your father Abraham rejoiced at the thought of seeing my day; he saw it and was glad.”

 57 “You are not yet fifty years old,” they said to him, “and you have seen Abraham!”

   58 “Very truly I tell you,” Jesus answered, “before Abraham was born, I am!” 59 At this, they picked up stones to stone him, but Jesus hid himself, slipping away from the temple grounds.

And more of what Jesus said...

John 8:12
“ When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

John 8:23
 23 But he continued, “You are from below; I am from above. You are of this world; I am not of this world. 24 I told you that you would die in your sins; if you do not believe that I am he, you will indeed die in your sins.”

John 8:31-47
 31 To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. 32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
 33 They answered him, “We are Abraham’s descendants and have never been slaves of anyone. How can you say that we shall be set free?”

 34 Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. 35 Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. 36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. 37 I know that you are Abraham’s descendants. Yet you are looking for a way to kill me, because you have no room for my word. 38 I am telling you what I have seen in the Father’s presence, and you are doing what you have heard from your father."

 39 “Abraham is our father,” they answered.

   “If you were Abraham’s children,” said Jesus, “then you would do what Abraham did. 40 As it is, you are looking for a way to kill me, a man who has told you the truth that I heard from God. Abraham did not do such things. 41 You are doing the works of your own father.”

I thank God for showing me His words again for faith comes from hearing the word of God. His command to me of Proverbs 4:20-22 rings so true for me. I can almost hear God tell me over and over again, don't go far from my words because for me, the weakness is in the mind and it is easy for the devil to play with my mind. So, I must never, NEVER be far from His word. It is almost like life and death situation for me.

Proverbs 4:20-22

 20 My child, pay attention to what I say.
      Listen carefully to my words.
 21 Don’t lose sight of them.
      Let them penetrate deep into your heart,
 22 for they bring life to those who find them,
      and healing to their whole body.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

"Ngo jao lei sei"

Proverbs 18:21
" The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

I was standing on a chair with wheels on the landing of the stairs trying to pull out the thumbtack on my artwork. Those were the words I uttered aloud at three years old when I fell down the stairs in my house and suffered a big gash on the top left of my head. My sis said blood was streaming down and she rushed to get me a hanky to press against my head. Those words "I am going to die" were spoken in Cantonese.

I always found this part of my life quite fascinating. I drew a storyboard of it when I was seven and that is why I remember it so vividly. Firstly, it showed I was a Cantonese speaking child. Secondly, from a child's point of view, I was innocently saying what I really felt at that time. I think that incident scarred me for life.

But few days ago, I took another step and dug deeper. Since my parents were separated then and were away at work, they could not rush to the scene to give me a big hug or to comfort me. I think for a long time, there was still a big hole in my heart waiting to be comforted, to be loved. I was finally taken to the clinic after my sis called my parents and I had my wound stitched up but I don't recall being comforted. I was living with my dad then so i definitely didn't have my mum to hug me. I think that the emptiness opened up for the spirit of rejection to come into me as I grew up. 

I have to ask you this. Have you ever, at any point of your life, thought of committing suicide? Henry said he never did. 

I remember my sister and I moved to stay with my mum in her flat when I was four. When I got really angry with my mum, I felt like packing my clothes to run away or jump off the balcony. I would put a leg over the balcony but I was too chicken to jump. More like, wisdom took hold of me. Sometimes, stress at work can be so bad and when there is no way out at that point, I would just say "I feel like committing suicide". But really, I don't mean it. It is stupid to take my life away because there is always a way out. It is just at that point, it was very frustrating. Interestingly, spirit of fear from the fall opened up to spirit of rejection and then now came the curses upon myself to die. Sigh. What a whole lot of mess! I think the worse that came from such fright was fear of men which paralysed me from doing a lot of things later in life like singing on stage, presentations, meeting people, going on missions, even teaching Sunday school to babies. Yet, if I put my mind to it (battle of the mind) and overcome the fears, I actually do very well.

The fall leading to the spirit of rejection also left me with lots of relationship that did not work out. Always looking for love and never finding it. Henry was God's blessings to me because by then I had Jesus in my life and I was very very close to Jesus then.

The latest battle I had to deal with is hyperventilation or panic attacks. It could be over the simplest things like sorting mail. The other day, it was simply transferring some money from my account to Henry's account online. The system wasn't working well that day even though i called the customer service centre and I felt the pressure that if I didn't do it, then Henry would not be happy with me or my credit card would be cut off or something like that. I was so stressed but then I realized I shouldn't be like this and I kept crying out to Jesus aloud! Then I asked Henry how he dealt with circumstances like that when the banking system lets him down and he gave me a very good answer! He said "You should realize that the  IT world is equally fallen too so just be more patient. Give yourself a break and try again later". I think it just woke me up at that point of time not to be so hard on myself, to take a step back and look at the big picture and it is just not about me and to look at the circumstance around me as well and just be patient. Henry also said to do what we always tell our boys to do "Say I am kind, I am patient".

In my heart, I have forgiven my parents because I know it was the circumstances that led to all these rejections and fears. I know my mum did her best to raise us up singlehandedly, with whatever little resources she had and she has done a marvelous job because I grew up a happy child. I think she over protected me. She did a lot of things for me rather than to allow me to be independent so much so I have difficulty doing simple stuff like sorting mail! I think it is really tough to be a parent. We almost always have to play psychologist and balance out everything. 

I can see so many parts of me in Nic that it is frightening. We try to help him overcome his fears and help him to be more independent with simple chores around the house and building his character in Boys Brigade. We try to help him think positively rather than to go melancholic and thinking of the worse scenarios.

Only yesterday, Nic was coughing and when we told him he needn't go to school, he suddenly was healed miraculously. Ha ha. See how he psyches himself not to go to school? The doctor confirmed he had red throat but even before he met the doctor, Nic claimed he was healed because Henry prayed for him earlier. Henry is really cool because he has all this little visuals that helps Nic and Nic seems to be able to relate to them. He drew a visual of a weak brain and a strong brain and another which we are planning to show him are some strong plants shooting a weak zombie  (inspired by the "plant vs zombie" game).

It is interesting how I can grow up happy yet with all the hidden fears, rejections, spoken curses and suffering silently, trying to overcome them myself. It is only when I knew Jesus in 1998 that His love filled my big hole. And it is only this recent journey that He is teaching me how to overcome my fears, rejections and death so that they will have no more power or dominion over me.

In the name of Jesus, I bind this bondage of fear/ fright, rejection and death that has bound me since I was three. I ask for the blood of the lamb to sever all ties from all of you and I cast you into the depths of the sea. You evil spirits no longer have any power or dominion over me for God who is in me is greater than you spirit of fear, rejection and death.  I reject all the curses of death that I had spoken to myself in Jesus' name.  Holy spirit, come check my mind, my spirit, my soul and body if there be any unturned stone and fill me with your healing power and all of God's love, joy and peace in Jesus' name. Thank you holy spirit for revealing all this to me and for helping me be an overcomer. Thank you Lord for everything! Amen!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Day 2 - Chinese New Year 2011

Not so tech savvy. You would have to click to see the full pix! :)
We made a new discovery yesterday, Restoran Yin Her (Silver River) at Kampung Baru Sungai Buloh. It was opened for Chinese new year which was great because we were looking for Chinese food. It was so prettily decorated and I could feel the merriment of the CNY celebration. The restaurant surrounds a fishing pond so it has great ambience too. We definitely would come back again. :)

We had a few surprises from visiting dad. It was as if God had anointed my dad and Aunty Sandra. Just when I was looking for Flor Essence (some Canadian chinese herb that provides energy), Aunty Sandra whipped one out and asked if I would like to have it! I almost fell off from my chair because I was so excited to see it. :) Thank you Aunty Sandra! :) then, she goes on to say that all I needed to do was to boost up my immune system and I will be alright. talk about speaking life and confirmation of strategy. Praise the Lord! And finally, my dad who is not a believer gave me two verses from the bible to encourage me in my walk of faith in Jesus. Hallelujah, praise the Lord. I have no idea where he found the bible verses from. Only yesterday, Nic was wondering why grandpa is not a Christian whilst grandma is a Christian. I said to just continue praying and grandpa might come back to Father God. My dad quoting me Matthew 21:22 and Mark 11:24 is like answered pray because only the holy spirit could do that. :)

Matthew 21:22

If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

Mark 11:24

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

I pray my dad will believe these verses himself for there is power in God's words. Thank you Jesus!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Update - Feeling stronger and stronger

Update- Feeling stronger and stronger

Chinese New Year's eve has passed today and it was a good day. :) Thank you Jesus! For Henry's family, the celebration starts during the day and I was wondering whether I would survive it all knowing that my body needs rest. So, I had to plan bringing down all my supplements, health drinks, lunch, tea and dinner change of clothes etc on top of the boy's stuff. Even my mum was a bit flustered in the morning and when all the preparation was over she was relieved that she finally got to sit down. Ha ha. I was thinking of saying "welcome to the bunny's world!" Gee, it felt like we were going on a holiday but it was only to Henry's grandma's place. Henry's grandma is 98 years old, still going strong mentally and our kids are so blessed to still have their great grandma to kiss and hug.

At the reunion, the only food I miss is the family's renown pork balls. At a glance, all their food is different shades of brown with no green vege at sight! So, I am glad I am eating healthy. :)

Then, I had a good rest at my mother in law's house while the kids continued to play with their cousins. During the night reunion, we got to chat up with Henry's cousins whom we've not met a long time. One even brought home his Spanish girlfriend! Ole! No culture barrier, I saw her gambling with the more senior folks!

It's amazing. I really feel stronger and stronger everyday. The measly cough is still there but if I keep warm and drink my hot serai tea wherever I go, I notice I don't cough as much. I absolutely have no more aches and pains anywhere today. Praise the Lord! I had a bit of pain on my left rib for awhile, headache of the right side of my head but after lots of binding and breaking, prayers and fifth day of low dose naltrexone, the pain has gone! Henry said headache is another side effects of the drug.

So, it is a good day today. I just had a really good rest but suddenly woke up at 1 am. Might as well give thanks to Jesus. Thank you Jesus. Thank you for taking ALL my pain away. Thank you for a lovely reunion dinner with Henry's family. Thank you for my mum who prepared much for me this morning. Thank you for strength. Thank you for my family! Thank you for fireworks in the air! Thank you Lord for everything! Amen!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Hosanna by Hillsong

Hosanna (Hillsong)

I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes


I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing

Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith

I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees


Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to

[Chorus x2]

YouTube movie

Frances Hunter Healing

For your complete healing from cancer:

Frances hunter healing part 1

Henry and I sat down to listen. You will need to locate part 2 of the YouTube. We followed all the instructions. I pray you too will be healed. Praise the Lord!