Monday, September 19, 2011

Psalm 91

Thanks to Annette for reminding me of Psalm 91. This is one psalm that I have memorized by heart and was really helpful to me two years ago when I was so filled with fear but 2 Timothy 1:7 says that fear is not from God, so it must be from the devil and that we allow it to be manipulated by the devil.

Saying out Psalm 91, especially in the night and my mind thinks of all sorts of things, teaches me to calm down and brings a lot of assurance to me. Praise the Lord! God brings me peace to my heart. :) at first, it did not do anything for me until I turned the Psalm to me personally as follows:

Psalm 91

 1  When I dwell in the shelter of the Most High 
   I will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say  of the LORD, “You are my refuge and my fortress, 
   my God, in whom I trust.”
 3 Surely You will save me from the fowler’s snare 
   and from the deadly pestilence. 
4 You will cover me with Your feathers, 
   and under Your wings I will find refuge; 
   Your faithfulness will be my shield and rampart. 
5 I will not fear the terror of night, 
   nor the arrow that flies by day, 
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, 
   nor the plague that destroys at midday. 
7 A thousand may fall at my side, 
   ten thousand at my right hand, 
   but it will not come near me. 
8 I will only observe with my eyes 
   and see the punishment of the wicked.

 9 If I make the Most High my dwelling— 
   even the LORD, who is my refuge— 
10 then no harm will befall me, 
   no disaster will come near my tent. 
11 For You will command Your angels concerning me
   to guard me in all Your ways
12 they will lift me up in their hands, 
   so that I will not strike my foot against a stone. 
13 I will tread upon the lion and the cobra; 
   I will trample the great lion and the serpent.

 14 “Because you love me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue you; 
"Because  you acknowledges my name, I will protect you".
15 I will call upon You and You will answer me; 
   You will be with me in trouble, 
   You will deliver me and honor me. 
16 With long life will You satisfy me
   and grant me Your salvation.”

God's words are true and He really has shown me the many many times He has rescues me, the many many times He loves me, even through my family and friends. :) His angels come and encamp around about me and my family. Oh Lord, I love you so very much. Thank You Jesus so much for Your love for me! I praise You Jesus! I exalt You, Lord, I magnify Your name! :)



Praise the Lord that Dr Beh is due to discuss with two doctors specialized in Gendicine to solve the blood clot around the right lung. Please pray for God's wisdom to be poured on these doctors during the discussion. I just feel so blessed that God's hand is at work to bring these docs together during this complication but nothing is impossible to God.

Hamir just prayed for me over the phone. The anointing was so strong I started to cry. I felt the Holy Spirit cover me and reminding me that I will live! Praise the Lord!

There was suddenly a call from Heartscan Bangsar to ask me to come in for the 6th treatment. I was very encouraged by the news and after treatment i did feel slightly better. However, my brain became a bit fuzzy so much so I couldn't talk properly though in my mind I knew what I wanted to say. So weird! Thankful, my brain has gone back to normal again. Whew!

Thank you to all of you that greeted me on my birthday today. I am very touched.  Thank you so very much!

I am slightly stronger today because I find myself walking all by myself. Praise the Lord! The best part is when I start panting from walking around the room, I can quickly hook myself to the oxygen machine to catch breath and top up oxygen into my body.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Thank You for the surprise Birthday Party!

Thank You for the surprise Birthday Party!

Some ex-CCF members from church gave me a surprise when they jumped out one by one from the stairs to greet me "Happy Birthday"! But this time most of them came with their children. Previously, we were all single except one couple. They earlier wanted to set the table and banner downstairs before inviting me down. But I almost messed up their plans because I surprised Henry and my mum earlier by coming downstairs unaided! :)

Ee Leng even popped foil streamers cracker In-house. :) What a lovely surprise! Cheng Yi baked my favorite orange poppy seed cake. Yummy! There were just surprise after surprise, food wise, people wise - everything! We also had freshly baked bread, melon balls salad, edamame salad, soba noodles and guacamole. Yummy!

Tzu Anne wanted to repeat the little 'performance' I was made to do way back on 19.9.1999 (the theme of the party was based on the TV series "Space 1999"). I was so inspired back then to hold my birthday party based on the TV series because of the number of rolling 9s. But it back fired when Tzu Anne made me wear a pointy bra made of silver foil! Tsk! Tsk! Thankfully for her compassionate this round. :)

Coincidentally, a few of my uncles and aunty, sis and nephew also showed up and we all had a good time together. What a lovely blessing from God! Thank you my dear friends for the lovely celebration together. I will always treasure this moment. :)

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Update- Admitted to Sg Buloh Hospital on 12/9/11 at 1.30 am

Update - admitted to Sg Buloh Hospital on 12/9/11  at 1.30 am

It was an interesting ordeal for me since it never happened to me before and I could not remember the main crisis part so it wasn't scary for me. I had to interview Henry and my mum to fill in the blanks. I can imagine it was a really scary and anxious time for Henry and my mum. So, here is recalling (with some help) what happened.

12/9/11 at 12.45 am

Henry told me I asked him to take me to toilet (even this I can't remember!) When I returned to bed, I got into a fit for few minutes -  my eyes rolled up and I clenched my hands to my side.

My mum said I fainted for a while and my eyes opened to look around but I was not responding to any of them. They called the ambulance and the men came to our room to take me into the ambulance. Apparently as I was so uncomfortable on the cold  stretcher, it was cold metal that I screamed "Dear, help me, help me! I am so cold! and there was adrenaline rush, I was so strong that I sat up! They brought along my quilt. :)

It was only at the Sg Buloh hospital at 2 am that I first recalled when I opened my eyes and i was wondering why I was in the hospital and which hospital. Henry and I were in the Accident and Emergency Ward (A & E Ward) when they finally placed me in ward 4D at 6 pm after 16 hours. It did turn out that A & E ward was better coz it was air conditioned, the service was better coz there were more staff in a smaller section. It was still comfortable in ward 4D coz we each had a ceiling fan over every bed. God poured rain everyday, His showers of blessings to cool the weather each day! Praise the Lord!

They first put oxygen as soon as I was in the ambulance and I kept fighting against it until about 2 am. They continued with oxygen when I was in A & E and they gave me saline and sodium drip as soon as the doc diagnosed me for low in sodium.

Day 2 - 13/9/11

Still groggy but better appetite today. Still on drip for more saline.

Day 3 - 14/9/11

I found out the doctor was going to withdraw fluid from my lungs even though we didn't suggest. Now that is really scary for me. I always thought withdrawing was from the lungs itself but apparently not! The fluid is outside the lungs and pushing the lungs so that it is difficult to expand. He poked a tiny needle in on my ride side of the ribcage after local anesthesia onto the spot and he managed to suck out 1.2 liters of straw fluid with a bit of blood stain. 

Doc still insist I stay an additional night because my sodium level was only 1.26 and not hit the recommended 1.30 level yet. I was immediately put back on the drip. 

I had some aches on my bum coz of so much rest and difficulty sleeping so guess what I received? 5 ml of morphine! It taste like bitter 7 up ha ha! They had no codeine DF118, only morphine. Interesting.

Day 4  - 15/9/11

After another bag of sodium in saline, I finally hit the sodium level of 130! praise the Lord! I was finally discharged at 12.30 pm and the timing was very good as we had time to go home to freshen up, rest and make our way to Heartscan Bangsar to meet Dr Beh for the Gendicine treatment which must take place every 3 to 4 days. 

The blessed experience from the few minutes of fit which I do not remember suffering was my sodium level was pumped up and the fluid was withdrawn from outside my lungs and I was fed with more oxygen. :) thank you Jesus. That is what You mean when Your best interest takes place from certain ordeals!

Back with Dr Beh, he decided he would use the saline drip to carry out both P53 and for the withdrawal of fluid outside the lungs. This was because a scan showed that there was still a lot of fluid which was adding pressure to the lungs still causing me breathlessness when I move around.

He poked from the same area as Dr Aaron Hew of Sg Buloh hospital did.  But it was all dry even after several poking. He said that means me the whiteness on the scan represents blood clot which is worse coz it is nothing Dr Beh can do. It hit me suddenly that is how God will show me when there is a turnaround, it is through His hand in whatever He will use or directly from His power. Now, it seems impossible to men but all things are possible with God. I put my hope and my trust in God because I AM HELPED! :) Praise the Lord! :)

We bought an oxygen machine and a heart and oxygen pacer from Maycare in Bangsar. Ethan is so cute. He loves to measure his oxygen level to 100 and quickly passes the pacer to me so that I can get 100 too! Such a joy. Without the pacer my reading for oxygen level is 92. Normal is between 95 to 100. My heart rate can be between 80 to 111 even resting! Currently with the oxygen tube on, my oxygen level is 98 and my heartbeat resting is 92.

Thank you for all your love, prayer and support even by visits from some of you. :) We feel so loved! :) Thank you so very much especially for Henry who must have gone through a lot each day running  up and down and even going back home each night and back every morning. 

Ethan says "poor thing" to me and I said "no" and he quickly corrects himself and say "mummy is strong and healthy in Jesus' name!" :) he is entertaining me now with lots of his art work, a heart, 2 combs, a fan and a flat lantern of cowboys and aliens all made of paper. Very entertaining. Nic is just happy I am home with them right now. I miss them all too. :)

Friday, September 9, 2011

Update - P53 Gendicine treatment #5

Update - P53 Gendicine treatment #5

Day 1 - Treatment and Right after Gendicine treatment #5

Before the treatment, I was feeling so weak and I had poor appetite, only a quarter of a bowl of sphaghetti. At Heartscan Bangsar, it  took me awhile to climb the stairs. Although Henry let me watch "The Banquet", I was so tired most of the time. Towards the end, after the nurse gave me a snack, I felt energized. After the treatment #5, I immediately felt stronger, able to walk faster, appetite returned partly because voltran was injected into me. Henry and i even had dinner together to celebrate our 11th wedding anniversary which was on 8 September! Prior to treatment we weren't sure whether we could celebrate and mummy wanted me to eat at home. But that ain't no celebration. It would seem everything is normal coz it would be over my leftover sphaghetti. Later at night, mild headache developed.  I took a panadol and an arcoxia. My voice was still like a whisper and mummy and Henry had to strain their ears to hear me. 

Day 2 - the morning after treatment #5

Surprise, surprise! The first thing Henry said when I woke up and spoke was that I am stronger today because my voice was stronger. :) Praise the Lord! I walked faster and I even wanted to go out for a very short walk. But as soon as I opened the gate and returned the keys to the house, I was panting again! So sweet of Henry who immediately encouraged that by next week, I would not be breathless anymore because Dr Beh said he will evaluate me on Monday and schedule a day to take out any fluid from my lungs. I would normally be afraid but after two years I am bold as a lion according to God's word! Still a bit fearful but I look towards God's words and His promises. 

That was my bunny self again trying to exercise again. I had to lie down and try again a few minutes to exercise again later. Alas it was drizzling! So, we guessed God did not want me to go out. I walked around the house and in the garden for a wee while and actually that was enough for me. Had to rest again. I started to cough quite a bit when swallowing the tablets. Funnily I was not in the mood in doing so and instead started a coughing frenzy. That made me weak again and my voice went back to a whisper. Sigh. Still I rest and went to tidy up my wardrobe. Imagine I could not do any of this before. I just have to keep resting in between so as not to overstrain myself. It is like going to gym and checking your heart rate now and then so as not to overstrain but imagine my level now! I observed that my appetite is back to good again ie a full breakfast and juice as well. Praise the Lord!

2 days ago while praying in the morning, the Holy Spirit spoke to Henry and gave him an idea to consider sending me to China if HITV is not then recommended by Dr Beh after Gendicine.. In China there is an added procedure with Gendicine to inject nitric liquid(.) into me to kill the tumour and to further clear it off with chemo. Chemo with Gendicine has much lesser side effects, that is the beauty off it. Henry had done some reading and he now has to ask the right doctors in China to make sure that it is workable as an alternative. That was how the holy spirit spoke to Henry 2 years ago when the holy spirit told me to tell Henry to fast and pray and as a result we told the fifth oncologist to use Tarceva instead. I think Dr Foo saw our determination that she never asked me to do a Tarceva test which would take another two weeks to get the results. Also, God had wanted me to start taking Tarceva immediately which tied to King Wai's burden to ask us to act immediately coz it was already two weeks after my first ct scan. And you remember the miracle that all aches and pain left me with only ONE tarceva pill which Dr Foo said was impossible. Praise the Lord! I know God is working something out for me now. Praise the Lord!

Do pray for me for next week's Gendicine treatment visits, on Monday and Thursday, blood test on Monday and the fluid withdrawal from the lungs next week. Thanking you all in advance. :)

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Target of RM250k achieved!

Thank you all so much for your kindness and abundant blessings. Because of your loving kindness and support, we have reached the target of RM250k so quickly. I want to thank Abba Father for His providence of these new treatments together with financial help when he burdened you all to help me. I am in so much awe and my faith in God has leaped. :) We need not worry anymore about finances to be paid for these treatments if everything is to be done in Malaysia but as explained, at least another RM50k is necessary if a procedure for HITV is done in Japan but we will need Dr Beh to confirm again later after the results from P53 Gendicine. So, any extra funds coming in will be held for this purpose.

On Monday, my base line report came out to be compared with later results. My face grimaced in pain looking at it. It seems like the cancer is everywhere. I dare not even mention here because you might only think of death. We need to look at Jesus because what man thinks is impossible but with God, anything is possible. It hasn't been easy recently because of the aches on my bum and my threshold of pain is low. But it has no power nor dominance over me for I am a worshipper of God and no weapon formed against me shall prosper!

Steven lee called me this morning and gave me much encouragement. Of late, because of my aching bum, I tend to look at the circumstance coz I am feeling so uncomfortable. Steven said in his spirit he knows that God has a purpose for me. He says it not to say nice things to me but he senses it deep in his spirit. My purpose is to glorify God. He has observed me and has seen wonderful things God is doing in my life and he has seen my faith leaped through this journey. He said I should look at God as a big great God so that all this pain and aches and circumstance will be just a tiny mole. I said yes, they are under my feet! He asked me to pray for God's double anointing every morning. I have almost forgotten all this because of the pain and I am so glad he called me to remind of how great God is and what He has done for me all this while. I am the righteousness of God in Christ.

Malachi 4:2
But for you who fear my name, the Sun of Righteousness will rise with healing in his wings. And you will go free, leaping with joy like calves let out to pasture

I am the righteousness of God in Christ!
I am the righteousness of God in Christ!
I am the righteousness of God in Christ!

Jesus TOOK my sins that I am now the righteousness of God in Christ. Everything is alright between God and I
He was forsaken, so that I am forgiven by God.
He was condemned, so that I am accepted by God.

Therefore, alll this happened not because of my sins but so that His great works can be seen in me. I thank you Lord in everything. May Your name be glorified and may everyone personally experience Your love! :)

John 9:2-3
And His disciples asked Him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he would be born blind?” 3Jesus answered, “It was neither that this man sinned, nor his parents; but it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him

Tuesday, September 6, 2011


As of yesterday evening, the funds raised since 18 August 2011 is RM200k! RM 50k to go. Praise the Lord! Yesterday, I received a call from Steven Lee that he wanted to sow seeds to me too. I said oh no, you need it more than I do. know he has 4 adult kids to feed and he has many testimonies how God somehow provides for his family financially, always just in the nick of time! He told me it is not out of compassion but out of obedience to God that burdened him to sow a certain amount.

I would like to say a short prayer for all the "seeds" received from all of you and the future "seeds" towards these treatments that God has opened the door.

"May God bless everyone who has sowed the money towards my family for the treatments. May the LORD, the God of your fathers, increase you a thousand-fold more than you are and bless you, just as He has promised you! (Deuteronomy 1:11). May He who supplies seed to the sower, and bread for food, supply and multiply the seed YOU have sown and increase the fruits of your righteousness (2 Corinthians 9:10). Thank You Lord for Your indescribable gift. We praise You Lord! I pray all this in Jesus' name. Amen!"

Before the treatment, I was so weak, i was quite depressed I could not even lift my left leg to wear my pants. So, even as I get out of car or from the bed or into bed, I would automatically use my hand to lift up my left leg like a cripple! But in recent days I noticed I can actually lift up my left leg. Initially, when it was getting stronger, I could only lift as high as 6 inches! Still quite depressed. But now I am reminded that all these negative things not according to God's word are seen and therefore temporary. Only God's words "I will give you back your health and heal your wounds," says the LORD. ..." (Jeremiah 30:17) are eternal. I cling on to His many promises and His rhema to me. Thank You Lord for restoring my left leg to normal. Praise the lord!

Monday, September 5, 2011

Work overcoming self-centeredness

This was the daily bread that spoke to me this morning:

".......It  mustn’t escape our notice either that work was declared good before sin entered the picture. In other words, work didn’t result from the fall and therefore is not a curse. We see this idea again in Genesis 2, when God “took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to tend and keep it” (v.15).m
BLet’s approach each day’s labor—whether at a job or doing another activity to help our family—with an awareness of the dignity and nobility God granted it in creation.

Our daily work is used by God
To help us care for daily needs;
And work that’s done as to the Lord
Gives witness to our words and deeds. —D. De Haan"

It never occurred to me until reading the daily bread today that carrying out an activity to help others is considered work. To me work has a negative connotation. Working to earn money. Blessed are those who enjoy their work and still earn money. I guess I started off the wrong foot but really with no choice since we were below middle income family. If I had my way, I would go for drama and arts but there were no such studies except probably in America then. I would love to be in broadway, dancing, singing and acting. Unfortunately, I ended up in accounting but amazingly it was also a time of plentiful As because I finally could express in English and there were a lot of subjective papers as well.

In a way, I see a lot of myself in Nic. He is creative but lacks the confidence in a few areas. He is also quite brave on stage as long as they are not solo acts. Carrying out tasks can also be scary for him but Henry has been teaching him by allowing him to do things himself.

Instinctively growing up, I knew I had to teach myself to overcome fear but never with God's help. I joined audit to be better than just an accountant. I stayed in audit to face some of the fierce partners that just scold with lots of sarcasm. It was to build my personality to handle difficult situations. Then I specialized in corporate recovery to face dynamic situations, mostly hostile,  including terminating employee services but really because the business cannot be turned around anymore. Come to think of it, it was so masochistic to do this to myself all to overcome fear! If only I found Jesus. When I did find Jesus, I experienced such a beautiful talking relationship with Him but I still did not come across 2 Timothy 1:7. 

" For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind."

I was so caught up with the relationship, I did not allow my cousin Tammy to help me with this verse when all along, He was trying to reach out to me!

So, I pray, be open to even what YOU think is extreme teaching but if we allow God to  help, He will lead us to the truth and throw away what is wrong according to His word.

I recently realize that I have been condemned by the devil and that I am self centered. During the recent retreat at the Farm in Sg Machang, we talked about transformation and the areas we should submit to God to be changed. As I shared I sobbed uncontrollably . Eveyone in the group was so puzzled. Because I did not lean on God for daily tasks, I find it very exhausting when I give. I give till I burn out and then keep quiet a long while. That is when condemnation sets in. Sherry from Elpizo made me realize that I carry too great an expectation from myself. I could just give a call and chat a short while and that may be good enough but I expect more to be done and get depressed when things don't work out.

That is when I realize how precious P is because God is showing me so much when I depend on the Holy Spirit to reach out to P. P tells me that it is I who inspire her and I say that it is her who encourages me..ha ha. Really it is God putting us together to help each other. I only met her again after 15 years and she was very distressed. I prayed to God to fill my mouth with His words. And He sure did because I can't remember what I shared but she would tell me later how the words when applied to her life help her experience God. Her colleague is amazed how after all she has going through she still has joy in her heart! Then she would replay what I said to her. Praise the Lord! She encourages me back in return. When she went out to look for praise music as I requested her to listen, I asked her to look for 'God will make a way" at Salvation book store, she said I know, they are playing it now! How God loves her! That was God at work in her life! There were many other times and I am so encouraged to see how God works in her and all because I allowed Him to use me. So, I am reminded not to allow the devil to play my mind now that I have Christ. I will just call on the holy spirit to help me and give me ideas what to do and just sit back to see how God works. Thank you Lord for P. Thank You Lord for Your help. Thank You holy spirit!

This morning after the 4th treatment I feel half strong half weak. Strong coz I woke up early, walked a bit outside and am blogging. Weak coz I was coughing and throwing up phlegm and that made me feel weak and just lie down. But I need to move around just a little so that I don't get a sore bum! I did not take any arcoxia last night just two panadols for overall slight discomfort and I could not sleep.

Thank you all for your prayers. :)

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Update - P53 Gendicine treatment # 3

After the treatment on Friday, I felt strong at first but slowly developed headache at night. On Saturday, I felt stronger but towards the night, I had a sore bum from resting too much I guess. I massaged and massaged, popped an arcoxia and later 2 panadols but hours later till 4 am, I still could hardly sleep and each time I woke up, my bum still felt sore. I had no choice but popped DF 118 and how wonderful, I fell asleep immediately. This morning, I woke up pain free, strong and definitely strong enough to go to church.

We were blessed with more cheques today and well wishes, hugs and love. We have collected around RM180k todate, another RM70k to go! :) Praise the Lord! The target fund does not include the procedure in Japan as originally, Dr Beh wanted me to do HITV in Malaysia. However, since the results of the scan was worse than he thought, he has suggested for me to go to Japan now. We wait upon the Lord to see how He leads us in this area. There will be savings of approximately RM50k if it is done in Malaysia (not inclusive of savings of flight and accommodation in Japan).

I am truly truly touched by all your love gifts, even the lovely lady who made costume jewelry and forwarded all her proceeds for the day towards the fund. Thank you so very much to all of you, for your love and support to our family. Kok San's (who overcame a near death incident) wife shared with me today that in her case, she experienced God's providence too. I nodded my head profusely because it is nothing like experiencing God's love and miracle personally. It cannot be compared to listening to someone else's testimony. Somehow, when you hear someone else's journey, we sometimes doubt and think it is all a coincidence but when I experience it personally, I am totally in awe of God and all doubts leave me! I am so blessed to experience His love personally so much so that even when the journey is difficult, I find it an exciting adventure. I actually experienced His first miracle a few days after being diagnosed that I was filled with so much confidence that He will deliver me and i just wanted to share it all in this blog even though I can't see the end of it.

Now, I realize that there is no end to this journey because I am growing in Christ everyday! Even though I overcome this disease, there is more to experience and to glorify Him beyond it. And it goes on and on until I see Him! :)

Today's sermon by Mike Constantine was about being ordinary people on ordinary days in glorifying God. Alas, I learn the hard way in order to be blessed by Him. I had to be an ordinary person on EXTRAordinary days before I experience the many wonderful thingsHe has done in my life and I just naturally want to glorify Him.

I do pray that you take the easy way out and be that ordinary person on ORDINARY days to glorify Him. It is never out of our own strength though but from first experiencing His love, His amazing love, our King that would die for us. Thank you worship group that chose the song 'Amazing Love' today for it really speaks to me. :)

My next treatment is tomorrow at 2.15 pm and another treatment on Friday.

I must say after the first two treatments, I would be strong for a short while before weakness hits me on the second or third day. But this round, I find myself still strong even on the second day after treatment! Praise the Lord! That really encourages me. My sis noticed it too. She said last week she saw me lying down more than half the day and I can't hold a conversation long before getting breathless. Today, she observed I could sit up for quite sometime. I was in Church today, I had lunch at a shopping centre and when I got home my cousin and his wife visited me. So, I was up and about right up to 6 pm today with only an hour nap in between. All glory to God who sustains me and rescues me! :)

My group from bible class came over to my house to pray together yesterday morning. It is part of the Bachelor of Ministry program, even during term break. It has been getting really difficult for me and i wll have to speak to Lifeline Ministry for leeway during the next six months. If not, I might have no choice but to stop as it is getting very stressful for me. During prayers, we pray in understanding and also in tongues and take turns to share what we see or hear from God. We are not to judge but just encourage even if it is wrong since we are all practicing. But I am amazed by the response from the words of knowledge I share. Anyways, the girls, after praying for me saw the foollowing:

'You will be strong like a big tree trunk with beautiful leaves'
'I see love, joy and peace already filled in your heart'

Also, last night, Hamir shared with Henry what his vision was:
"I see peace within her and she will overcome this"

Thank you Lord for the many angels around me that you use to encourage me once again. It is true, You never leave nor forsake me even at this dark hour. I love You Lord !

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Update - treatment today at 2 pm

I have a treatment scheduled at 2 pm today. The drip takes about 2 hours each time and it is very comfortable coz the needle is small and painless and i would get a folder of CDs to choose from to watch!

Just to let you know the total number of Gendicine treatment is 10 times. I have gone for 2 so there are 8 more to go including today's.

The treatment takes place every 3 to 4 days maximum and it goes on until the 10th treatment. Thereafter another scan will take place. Sigh.

During these 10 treatments there will come a point, when I can take it, that the p53 will be injected directly to the artery of the liver and / or lungs. That is when there may be trauma but I know God will help me. :)

Do uphold me in your prayers. Thank you all so much. :) God bless you all abundantly.