Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Salvation is Yours

Thanks cousin Tammy for referring to me to the interview between Ps Vernon Falls (the one teaching me in Deeper Life Seminar) and Sherry Lim, a 4th stage breast cancer survivor. You can catch the interview at :

http://www.inscribe.info/ll/s5e12.html
or other interviews that Ps Vernon has conducted and uploaded at :
http://www.lifeline-intl.org/newday/

Interestingly, she was also under the devil's attack initially and the spirit of death came upon her saying that she will die and there is no hope. That is one huge reality to me and I am glad with all your help and prayers and the love of Christ, I discovered how to rebuke satan quickly. All Glory to God for He who is in us is greater is He who is in the world!

Ultimately, God is love and He gives us hope, joy and peace that surpasses all human understanding once we are a child of God. And it is easy to be a child of God. God has made it so simple for us.

For in Romans 10:9, he said “That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.“

To receive Jesus into your heart, just read out aloud the following prayer:

Lord Jesus, come into my heart. Be the Lord of my life. I believe God raised you from the dead. Come in Lord Jesus. I receive you now as my Lord and Saviour. Amen.

You are saved now!

All of God’s promises are for you to claim now and you are now an overcomer - like me! Praise the Lord! I pray you will get a bible, find a church or just email me at chochot7@gmail.com to join my home group.

SOCSO compensation

I just returned from an interview with a panel of doctors at Hospital Selayang. Elaine had told me I could apply to SOCSO for compensation so I did. They reverted pretty quickly despite the fact I wrote to the wrong office. You should apply to SOCSO in the state where you live. Thanks Mee Mee for helping me with the application. :) I have never been to Hospital Selayang so I was pleasantly surprised that it is so big and packed with cars as well! We prayed for the whole thing to run smoothly and soon after, we missed the turning to the hospital! Thankfully God always gives us a way out and believe it or not, there was a second sign up ahead taking us to the hospital. Amazing! Praise the Lord! We really thought we had to find some U turn back. We were already running late this morning. I was told to wear loosely and soon found out why. One of the doctors listened to my lungs. Henry wasn't allowed in and I was praying they wouldn't ask me for my prognosis because I really don't know but I can guess if they asked me. (Don't ask me ok.) :) I showed them the scans, biopsy, my bone scan, identity card. I think they probably wondered why I did not look too sickly. Some of the patients outside were in wheelchairs. I did truthfully tell them I had stopped coughing and put on 1 kilo when asked. Strangely, they would rather look at my X ray than the scans. Anyway, I wasn't too worried as I had already committed everything to God. All in all it took an hour of waiting and probably only 5 minutes of interview. They say they will send me a letter in 2 weeks' time.

There was this poor man waiting outside and I think he must be getting tired because he went outside to sleep over several seats. He also did not smell too good. I kicked myself for not praying for him while I was there. How selfish of me. I only thought of him in the car. I pray that God will heal him and bless him with compensation doubly fast. I pray all this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Update

I will be going for an X Ray and doctor's check up on 1 October 2009 at SJMC under Dr Foo Yoke Ching. God has been good to me. I feel stronger each and everyday. One thing I notice, I do not have the usual "sweating for no reasons" any longer. Previously, I would sit and when I stand up, my back legs will be sweating. I also had sweaty palms occasionally. But now, I do not like sweat like that anymore. Hallelujah!!!

I also notice that I do not have that depressed feeling in my chest, like wanting for more oxygen in my lungs. Praise the Lord for His work of miracle in my life! God has given me new lungs! Even Ps Sasha sensed it when she laid hands to pray for me last night.

Last night, was another special night for me. Ps Mrs Grace Lay from the House Of Joy Ministries in Seremban laid hands on me and prayed for me. Slain again. Yes, I will doubt no more, I just received God's healing for me. Thank you Lord for the many people laying hands on me to pray for your healing for me. Thank you Lord for you are my healer. I thank You for Your finished work on the cross. I thank you for bearing my disease and by Your wounds, I am healed!

Praise be to God! All Glory to God!

Hearts are Healed, Christ Revealed

Thanks cousin Tammy for the lovely song. Indeed, let God's heart beat within us. So you are, so are we. I am almost in tears as I listen to this song. I thank the Lord for revealing himself to me, for healing my heart, for healing me and saving me from this dreadful mess that I am in. I would like to share this beautiful song "The God I Know" by Singapore's City Harvest Church with all of you to sing out to Him in your quiet time.

Click http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H3VLKAL_suI&feature=player_embedded or click on the video bar on your right.

The internet reception at my house these past few days is so bad but I persevered and waited for the song to be downloaded and played it all one shot again! It is really worth the time!

The God I Know
City Harvest Church (key: D)

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just you and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It's all because of you
All because of you
The God I know
Righteous and holy
The God i know
Faithful and true
The God i know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As you are
So are we (to verse)
So are we(to bridge)
This is my cry
My one desire
More of you
More of you

Do Not Let The Devil Reign In Your Heart

I was reading and studying the bible this morning on 1 Corinthians 4 and 5 and thought how similar it was to our church condition today though the trials may be different. Even Matthew Henry’s commentary opened my eyes to see the problem of my church:

“Party spirit, and a false notion of Christian liberty, seem to have saved the offender from censure. Grievous indeed is it that crimes should sometimes be committed by professors of the gospel, of which even heathens would be ashamed.”

I know this is a sin of our church for not disciplining those who have harmed the church as a whole. In 1 Corinthians 4: 5, it is written:

“Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God.”

In his commentary, Matthew Henry has this to say about not judging others and leaving it to God:

“There is a day coming, that will bring men's secret sins into open day, and discover the secrets of their hearts. Then every slandered believer will be justified, and every faithful servant approved and rewarded. Spiritual pride and false doctrines tend to bring in, and to spread such scandals. How dreadful the effects of sin! The devil reigns where Christ does not.”.

This should be a comfort for all those who have been hurt by exchange of harsh words in church. In the first place, there should be forgiveness in the heart immediately. I was taught in Deeper Life Seminar to say in your heart right in front of the person (but not aloud!) “Father, In the name of Jesus, I forgive you” and then walk away before any further exchange of harsh words. Then come before the Lord and pray and release all the hurt and anger to God. In that way, you leave no room for the devil to take a foot hold in your life. By allowing the hurts to develop, it will just get deeper and deeper until the devil reigns. Henry’s car was knocked by another car as he went to the market recently for his favourite chee cheong fun. The lady promised to call Henry shortly as he left his handphone at home. He did not take her details as he relied on her promise that she would call and fix his car for him. He got so mad when she did not call. Head throbbing, he took out Psalms and cursed her! I was so shocked and felt in my heart it could not be right to curse someone else. I asked for her name and he said “Angel”. Immediately, it struck me, it was a spiritual attack. We have been praying very hard for protection and understanding how the devil attacks so I was shocked at how Henry handled the situation. I told Henry if this continues, he will be no different from the old days when he cursed drivers. Is it not better to forgive and ask for the holy spirit to work in her life. The holy spirit may even convict her heart to call him one day. At least too, he would not harbor any hatred in his heart to allow any foothold by the devil. After all, her name is Angel, a devil in disguise to provoke anger in Henry, particularly to in his area of weakness too!

Anyway, I was left perplexed then, if we do not judge, do we live with the sin committed by the offender that hurt the church as a whole? In 1 Corinthians 5:3, it is written:

“Even though I am not physically present, I am with you in spirit. And I have already passed judgment on the one who did this, just as if I were present.”

Rightfully, a single person cannot judge to discipline/ex-communicate another for wrong doing as shown in 1 Corinthians 4: 5 but any disciplining, according to the Geneva Study Bible, “must be done by the authority of the whole congregation, after the matter is diligently examined”.

Matthew Henry goes on to say:

“The bad example of a man of influence is very mischievous; it spreads far and wide. Corrupt principles and examples, if not corrected, would hurt the whole church. Believers must have new hearts, and lead new lives. Their common conversation and religious deeds must be holy.”

So friends, forgive each other, do not let hurt build up in your heart. Be willing to be disciplined when it happens and allow God’s words to reign in our lives. For we must all be aligned to His word. Anything else would be in disagreement with God and we are not following God even though we claim to be.

Thank You

Once again thank you for all your blessings (monetary and non monetary) and prayers. Thanks Sue, George Tee, Mr and Mrs Liew for laying hands on me and praying for me. Thanks Fee for your fresh supply of vegetables from your mum's garden and so far away too. Thanks Grace for your recommendation of Biotherm for the acne. It does work. It dries up the acne and now it has a layer of hardened skin on it. Yay! Thanks Irene for the huge supply sour sop although not in season. Thanks Mohana for your blessing. Thanks Daffy for your cute artwork on the birthday card. I don't miss stuff like that. :) Thanks Yew Leong and Freddy for thinking of me and calling me out of the blue. Thanks to my boss to tell me to take my time before reporting to work. Thanks for all the belated birthday wishes from all of you. It truly is wonderful to have friends like you.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Faith Is Infectious!

My eyes opened in new revelation when Sasha told me "Faith is infectious". As she observed how God heals me and work through my life, she said this observation also built up her faith and encouraged her. Wow! To me, I think it is harder to get someone to believe in the Lord, eg Margaret Moth or my aunties or my uncles or even my dad! So inspired was Steven Lee after reading my blog, he left for Ipoh and he said to himself "If God can heal Liz, he can heal this man too". He was laying hands on this man in Ipoh who was paralysed and praise the Lord, his limbs begun to move! I was so encouraged when I heard this news from Hamir myself yesterday.

Like what David shared yesterday in his sermon in FBC, we are to cross cultures and share Jesus with them. Last night, as my kids played lantern with my neighbour's children, my neighbour started sharing her difficulties. I wanted so much to say "Come, let me pray for you" but my mouth could not open. I asked God for forgiveness and for salvation to her family. This is the struggle I face now but after hearing Hamir's testimonies I am so inspired once again!

Hamir has so many testimonies to share about the drug addicts that he has been ministering to. I've lost count the number of testimonies since Hamir started sharing with me 3 months ago. I asked about drug addict number 2 because I missed out on that one. There was this drug addict from Cheras with a very beautiful wife. One day while talking to Hamir, the wife expressed about her husband's addiction and it seemed that nothing can be done to help him. But Hamir guaranteed her that Jesus can help to the point he will eat his shoe if He doesn't. So she started praying to Jesus. There is a toilet in Plaza Pudu that is constantly stucked with faeces and the drug addict constantly went there to get his fix. One day, he challenged God and said "Jesus, if you can really help me like what the fat man (Hamir) said then show yourself by flushing the toilet". He was about to melt the drug when suddenly he heard the roaring sound of the toilet flushing. He was so shocked he ran out of toilet and ran back to his wife and sat shocked for a few hours. He wasn't well the next 2 days. He still continued his ways and went back to the toilet for his fix. Before that, he asked the cleaner if they fixed the toilet. She said "No, it is always stuck but don't know why that day the toilet flushed when you came". He observed that the toilet was filled with faeces again and he said "Ah, it must be coincidence the last time. Jesus, if you are really God, you will flush the toilet for me to see again". After he lit and melted the drugs to sniff it, he was all high. Then, he saw the toilet flushed again! He said he was so afraid that all the high feeling in him left him instantly! Still, he tested God the third time. He was in the toilet another time and this time he told Jesus "No, Jesus, I am not really testing you but please flush the toilet again so that I may believe that you are God". He waited 5 minutes and nothing happened. As soon as he lit his lighter, the toilet flushed again! Today, he and his wife go to church and are serving the Lord. Praise the Lord! He is powerful and mighty indeed!

I cried when Hamir shared the above testimony with me and even the presence of God was with us as he was sharing. It hit me more so because I still have doubts in my heart eg when I see healing taking place or when I see people slain even with my very own eyes. Even when I am slain myself, I wonder if I am pushed but my friends tell me nobody pushed me. But amazingly, God chose to heal me and show His powerful work in me despite this little doubt in me. It shows how much He loves us even though we aren't 100% right with God. We can come to him just as we are and He will take us in. I fell on my knees and asked for forgiveness. I prayed for all hindrances to be removed from allowing me to experience Jesus wholeheartedly. I want to have faith like Hamir and being able to lock with Jesus 100% and just seeing His power move through people and touching their lives and bringing them out of brokeness and darkness.

I pray also that you ask God to remove all hindrances whatsoever and see Him work in your lives more abundantly. For He is mighty indeed. There is no other God. And it is true - faith is infectious!

Please send a perfect labourer to Margaret Moth

"Father God, I pray please reach out to Margaret Moth and grant her salvation, this camera operator whom I watched on CNN today (28 September 2009). Please tell her that she can enjoy life beyond life worshipping You, the maker of heaven and earth. That even as she has experienced everything life has to offer, she can still continue to experience Jesus now and beyond and that is more exciting and more beautiful than anything the world can give or offer. Open her eyes oh Lord that she might see you and receive Jesus in her heart. I bind the evil spirits in her holding her back from believing the existence of hell. For if everyone knew the reality of hell, we will all jump our from our chair right now and fall on our knees. I loose the anointing of the Holy Spirit on her and ministering angels around her to protect her from the evil one. I pray Oh Lord, send her a perfect labourer across her path right now Oh Lord to the hospice where she is in now in Rochester, Minnesota . Hear my cry oh Lord. You say in Psalm 91 that you will grant salvation for all who love you. I pray all this and thank you for answering my prayer that you may demonstrate your love and power to everyone, in Jesus name. Amen."

Click on the video bar the documentary shown on CNN today on Margaret Moth.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCTMrx8ZyfA&feature=related (Part 1)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rss_Zylkshg&feature=related (Part 2)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFYZMYxhAlM (Part 3)

A beautiful, inspiring lady, so fearless, risked her life in war torn zones to bring us news footage to our doorstep. Burdened to pray for her I did and tears fell as I cried out to God. Thank you Margaret Falls for teaching me in Deeper Life Seminar not to ignore the prompting of the holy spirit and I know that God has heard my prayers and traveled round the world.

1 John 5:14

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him."

Friday, September 25, 2009

It Is So Easy to Sin

I realize it is so easy to fall into the trap of being legalistic, ritualistic or even helping God further His Kingdom. Earlier in my journey after being convinced that I have received healing and daily thanking God and claiming His promises, I had begun to spend lesser devotion time with God. Partly, I didn’t have much to plead with God so I felt guilty I spent lesser prayer time with Him. Thankfully, King Wai brought me out of that “feeling”. He said we are already IN His presence, so it didn’t matter if we spent 10 minutes or 10 hours with Him. Let’s not be ritualistic about it.

Last night, I shared with my cell group on how to pray and Wendy said not everyone is at my level of prayer and King Wai said let’s not get into a formula. I just wanted to share what I learned and to apply it. If I hadn’t shared our knowledge would be limited to what we have learned all the while. But fair enough, it goes to show how easily we can be caught up in formulas and rituals or worse still feeling our prayers are not heard if we forgot to bind a certain spirit.

Once, on a dry period, I had nothing to blog and feeling discouraged that there did not seem to be anything revelation from God to blog about. Then, when I visited Fee’s blog, I started to cry when I read one of her articles referring to me. I asked God to forgive my sin for really, it is when I share my own personal experience with God to all of you is when others are blessed in one way or another and not if I just wrote an article on my own strength. If I wrote on my own strength, it would be easy to fall in the sin of judging others and not taking the log out of my own eye first.

That day on 24 August 2009, I wrote this in my journal as a reminder of how easy it is for me to sin and lose focus from God AGAIN:

“Help me Oh Lord not to judge others. Help me to see from who I really am and what you have done in my life. Let my focus be on You and only You. How sinful I am Oh Lord. Help straighten my path again and help me seek Your face again. I am sorry Lord for hurting you. Oh, how fallen I am. I really need your grace. Stretch your hand again to me. I love You Lord. You mean everything to me.”

I want to share with you then how easy for each of us in First Baptist Church to sin. We have been an unrepentive church for the past 20 years maybe. Can we say we are without sins?

Romans 1:21,22,25

“For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie….”

The scary part is "There can be no revival without repentance."

I was reading Henry Blackaby’s book “Experiencing God in Church” in Glad Sounds recently and there is this church called Faith Baptist Church in Saskatoon, Canada serving a community of about 135,000 people. Similar to our church, they must have faced trials for being far away from God. They had similar thoughts of whether God was still amongst them. Their church dwindled to only 95 people! I was so shocked! Could this be what we will see if we continue to see unrepentance in our church. I am at a lost how we can get everyone to repent because we can’t force people to repent. Only the Holy Spirit can convict of our sins and self righteousness but God cannot work in us if our hearts are hardened. Will our soul – our mind, will and emotion - choose to listen to God the Spirit or the devil?

I speak life to First Baptist Church that soon, we will come together to wash each other’s feet and hug each other and forgive each other. We will choose to REJECT all scheming, lobbying, manipulation, campaigning amongst us and just trust in the Lord and fully wait upon Him. We will let the Holy Spirit guide us.

Ephesians 4:21-25

“Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body.”

Let the Holy Spirit guide us and renew our minds. Let us seek intimacy with God and ask Him to reveal to us in what areas in our life that we have to deal with.

Psalm 27:4
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

How to pray?

I've learned quite a bit attending Deeper Life Seminar on the subject of prayer and would like to share with all of you. It is interesting to note that through my own little adventure reading the bible, I learned that we can pray in many types of prayer such as:

i. We can speak life in Ezekiel’s manner with such authority and in such graphic detail (Proverbs 18:21 and Ezekiel 37).
ii. We can rebuke and cast out sickness/sins with authority just like Jesus knowing that we are now heirs and co-heirs with Him (Romans 8:17).
iii. We can pray unceasingly to our heavenly Father with our prayers and petitions (Phil 4:6).

We can ask whatever we need and believe in Mark 11:24. And we can stand on God’s word that nothing is impossible with God Luke 1:37).

But in DLS, I learned more! Wow! The best part is during class, we have practical sessions and we pray for people in critical conditions. When it came to our group's turn to volunteer someone, I quickly put my hand up! I mentioned Shaun Ling's dad condition who was then critically ill in ICU that time (the day after CBM). We were learning the prayer of agreement. This is based on Matthew 18:19,

"Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven."

We can confidently approach God with our prayers knowing that He will hear us and we will have what we ask Him (1 John 5:14,15). Everyone in the group must be in agreement over something before praying. One person prays in the understanding (English). Then, we thank God because we believe we have received it (Phil 4:6). This is the big part which I did not know. I always thought we thank God AFTER we receive whatever we ask for. Then, we ask the Holy Spirit for a perfect prayer to pray, in this case, complete healing for Shaun Ling's dad. Then all of us, holding hands would pray in tongues together, united as one. From that day on, we continue to thank God for healing Shaun Ling's dad. That's how I pray for Aunty Beverly these days too.

I John 5:14.15
"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him."

Philipians 4:6
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."

I was so happy to report back to my group last week that Shaun Ling's dad has begun to stabilise. I was so grateful to them who told me then that they had continued to thank God for healing Shaun Ling's dad throughout the week. I am overjoyed today when Shaun confirmed this morning that his dad has been discharged from hospital and that was a surpirse to them. Praise the Lord! All Glory to God! God is a prayer answering God!

On Tuesday, we prayed for another person who was also in critical condition. One of the girls in our class, Mithiah (she is only 9 years old), received news that her dad in Penang passed away. Then later, another call came in and she heard that he hadn't passed away but he was taken off the breathing machine and just waiting to die. We were learning the Intercessory Prayer. Margaret Falls said it is very important not to ignore the Holy Spirit's prompting when any of us suddenly feel burdened to pray for someone. Also, when following the above steps, and praying in tongues, she said it is possible for us to feel very depressed. It is not our depression but the burden that we are feeling for the person we are praying for. In that instance, we are to bind the spirit of depression (or whatever else you are sensing - lies, deception, idolatry, suicide) and break it in the name of Jesus. This is such a revelation to me. No wonder many of you feel burdened to pray for me and I feel burdened to pray for Aunty Beverly, Caleb and a few others. It is the Holy Spirit prompting us!

Margaret Falls prayed for healing for Mithiah's dad in understanding and also prayed for his salvation as he is an unbeliever. Then, all 60 plus of us, holding hands, prayed in tongues. I was so sad I started to shed tears while praying in tongues. We will only know next week of his outcome.

I used to have trouble with the believing part. The bible says we are not to doubt but believe we have received and it will be ours. I used to think it is a mind game where I try to convince myself that I believe. Now I understand it is not like that. It is because God loves us and we are His children that he says we can approach Him with confidence and He will grant us whatever we ask. We have right standing before God and we are mow His children. We belong to Him. He loves us.

This evening, I received a call from Henry thanking me for praying for his report preparation and meeting today. His counterpart in one of the european countries was so happy with his report that she said she wanted to wave the Malaysian flag for she was so proud to be Malaysian! All Glory to God! Isn't it wonderful to have a loving God who loves us so much, who listens to our prayers and answers them. I am so happy I want to cry. Thank you Lord for you are so real to me. I am sorry I doubted you before. I pray that my friends will desire to speak in tongues because that level of communication with you Oh Lord is that much higher and much more wonderful.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Acknowledging God

I found this on the Gersen website which I do agree:

"No treatment works for everyone, every time. Anyone who tells you otherwise is not giving you the facts. We know that when you have been diagnosed with a life-threatening ailment, choosing the best strategy for fighting your illness can be a bewildering task. Everyone claims to have either "the best treatment", "the fastest cure", or "the only therapy that works." In most cases your trusted family physician only has knowledge of conventional treatments, and is either unaware of, or even hostile toward alternative options. No matter how many opinions you receive on how to treat your disease, you are going to make the final decision on what to do, and you must be comfortable with your decision. Choose a treatment that makes the most sense to you."

God gave us brains to think and to sort out information. We need to come before God through fasting and prayer when we are sieving out information. I think this is where our partner play a vital role. It can be very disheartening for a cancer patient to hear for themselves all the facts that face them. After the second oncologist's opinion and many other opinions, I just want to soak in God's words, seek shelter under His wings because all reports from the world is negative. I mean that is reality but God says otherwise. He says He heals. While the world says you only have a few months more to live, the bible in Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;"

If you have just been diagnosed with cancer, please seek a second opinion and do all the necessary homework, chemotherapy as well as seek advise from a nutritionist friend and other alternative treatment. Ask your partner to fast and pray for God's guidance during the search. Choose a treatment that makes sense to you and discuss it together and then, commit it to God together. That is an act that you acknowledge God, that you have consulted Him. He says in Psalm 91: 14-16:

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. 16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

Do not move until you have consulted God, until you acknowledge God. Only when we acknowledge Him, then naturally, we will also fall on our knees to confess our sins before Him knowing He is always there ready to forgive us 1 John 1:9

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

Then, all we have to do is just move on (pray unceasingly claiming His promises with thanksgiving) and let Him guide us.

Notes from my Nutritionist Friend

I thought I’d better share with you some of Siew Mei’s notes. I was quickly jotting them down as she helped explain to me what I can eat. Earlier on in my journey, I was troubled when many told me what food to stay away from. But I was constantly hungry and I wasn’t sure what I could eat. Even white bread is bad. What about Gardenia brown bread then? Pray tell me, “What CAN I eat?”.

Needless to say, I was so pleased that there is so much that I can eat after she briefed me. She also brought over so many types of organic food that I have never seen before because prior to my condition I have never walked into an organic shop. Forgive me for the messy notes!

Notes:

Adventis bread (don’t buy bread off the shelf). You can store loaves of bread in freezer until you need them. Siew Mei buys 10 at a go. Our fridge is not so big! :)
Go on juices
Take raw food – enzymes help in digestion

Breakfast ideas:

Take 3 tbsp flaxseed oil before juices
Oatmeal and fruits with orange juice in the morning

Seaweed Porridge Recipe
In one pot, cook ginger, pumpkin, onions, seaweed (soak for 15 minutes first) in water until soft (A).
In a crockpot the night before, cook porridge and millet. In the morning, pour the porridge over (A).

Lunch ideas:

Salad e.g. carrots, green & red pepper, green leaves, onions served with baked or boiled potatoes/ toasted bread
Salad Dressing: Tahini & garlic & liquid amino
Salad dressing: lemon juice/ lime juice, olive oil, chopped garlic/onion and honey. (Avoid vinegar. It kills friendly bacteria)

ABC soup Recipe: lots of onions, corn, carrot, tomato and potatoes

Baked pumpkin and salad
Baked sweet potatoes and salad

Porridge – potatoes, onions, ginger, pumpkin, shredded carrots

Eat brown rice, quinoa, millet, 5 grain rice, 10 grain rice. Eg. You can mix 1 cup brown rice and ¼ cup millet.

Dinner ideas:
Eat light – bread and fruits
Mangoesteens – high in antioxidants
Banana/soursop/mangoes (carbide)
Watermelon (in season only end of the year)

Google Gersen therapy (http://www.gerson.org/g_therapy/default.asp)

Serai water – 4 cm turmeric + 4 serai (bang the head) + 3 cups of water. Boil for 15 minutes.

Burdoch Soup Recipe
Burdoch – 250 g
Radish & leaves – 450 g
Carrots – 250g (buy only Australian or NZ)
Dried shitake Mushrooms – 3 to 5 pieces
Boil for 15 minutes on high heat and then simmer for 2 hours.


Black lentils Soup Recipe
Boil lentils (from organic shop) with carrots, pumpkin, onions, tomatoes, Italian herbs to make lentil soup. Then sprinkle some chopped parsley before serving.
Serve with Salad and brown rice. Drizzle on a bit of flaxseed oil.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Missions family

On 4 September 2009, Steven Lee had a vision for me. He sees me traveling to the south east asian countries to testify of God’s glory and goodness. He sees my family as a missions family. Nic on guitar and Ethan on drums at the age of 17! But he says it would be best to get another confirmation.

I always had in mind for the boys to go on mission trips but I wasn’t sure where we would be as parents except to mould them to be after God’s heart. We surely would like to see the boys in music as we both love music a lot although we can’t play any instruments! Nic is currently attending piano lessons with Junior Music Course with Yamaha but he needs to step up his practices at home and be more courageous in class. Ethan already shows much artistry in playing drums. He is too young to attend any classes. I think he pictures himself with strong arms hitting on humongous Japanese drums. His movements are almost martial arts-like, striking a pose after he finishes and even bows!

So, I pray these days for God to speak directly to me where he is leading me to. I ask God to show me what He has in store for me. Few weeks ago, I asked God for a vision. Strong impression of the following words came to my mind on the night I wrote the lyrics for the song “No Fear”:

Cancer

Guitar

Cobra

Hamir

Guitar (again)

When Uncle Allen came to my house with his prayer warriors to sing praises to God, to share God’s words with me and to pray for me, I thought it was such a very powerful ministry. To my surprise he told me that I was the first! Later, Uncle Allen shared he felt led to continue with this ministry and I expressed to him that I would like to be part of this ministry as I believe that many cancer patients would benefit from this ministry as much as I have. The songs sung with guitar on the background ministers to my spirit. The word of God increases my faith, lifts my spirit and shoots down all lies of the enemy (cobra). In Luke 4:40, Jesus demonstrated he healed the sick by laying hands on them.

“When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying his hands on each one, he healed them.”

So, where does Hamir fit in? So far, he has visited my home group with his guitar together with Steven Lee. We had a good time of praise and worship and sharing of testimonies and listening to God’s words. I believe each of our spirit was lifted that night – just enjoying God’s presence and worshipping Him filled with the holy spirit.

This morning, during my devotion, the Lord impressed upon me again the need to share the gospel to the unbelievers. Unbelievers can only choose to believe if they are first given an opportunity hear God’s word. For the bible says faith comes from hearing God’s word. But how will they hear God’s word if we do not go and preach to them.

Romans 10:14,15,17

14How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? 15And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!" 17Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ.

I ask that God prepares our hearts (Henry’s and mine) to do His will. Previously, I noticed that it was very difficult for Henry to sing songs like “Lord I offer my life to you, everything I’ve been through, use it for your glory”. These days, when he sings it, he means it. :) The good Lord has opened our eyes to see His love, faithfulness and wondrous works. I know He has already begun His preparation for us. Even this “Deeper Life Seminar” that I am attending every Monday and Tuesday for 8 weeks is a preparation that He is putting me through. I only joined it so that I can be close to God to avoid the fiery darts from the evil one but now, I see His hand is moving me and nudging me to the right path. Thank you Lord for leading me. Thank you Lord for your guidance. Thank you Lord for everything.

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 8/8

Thank you all for your presents, blessings and well wishes. My, this is the longest birthday celebration. In fact my first birthday gift was given by my dear friend Daphne way back in July! Then, there was a surprise birthday party in early September by Elaine and friends and later, a September babies celebration in our own home group on 18 September 2009. Last Saturday's birthday celebration with lanterns organised by Marvin and Julie was also unplanned and was really heartwarming. Plus a little getaway to Kuala Selangor on Tuesday with family - what else could I ask for. Thanks guys for showering me with your love. I've posted some photos on the blog for your amusement. :)

Fresh heong pang ga faw faw

Henry's artistic eye...

Pasir Penampang where we ate..a little fishing village with good seafood. We lunched at River View Jetty. Oh, I had my usual oats and raisins and stole some fish, rice and vege..tsk tsk

Common vehicle here

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 7/8

Silver monkeys

On the tram looking out for monkeys

Akuarium Ikan Air Tawar but the mangrove nearby is more interesting

Ethan and Nic not convinced this is water. Nic calls it hard water.

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 6/8

kor kor what do you see?

I saw the ship!

Tram ride for RM2 from Akuarium Ikan Air Tawar at the foothills. Kids ride free.

Food for the silver monkeys

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 5/8

Mummy! There! The takraw ball!

Ladies and gentlemen, this is the void area under the malay house which houses the muzium

Mummy, God is good all the time hor?

Built in 1907, the Altingsburg Lighthouse at Kuala Selangor (previously the capitol of Selangor).
Also, two fortresses were built on the hills overlooking the estuary of the Selangor river in order to guard the city.
The larger of the two, standing on Bukit Malawati,
is now the royal mausoleum containing the remains of Selangor's early Bugis rulers

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 4/8

A man we met at the lighthouse said Ethan was doing the right thing - he has a good compass.

From the car park near Taman Alam leading up to the lighthouse

Steps not a hindrance to the boys

Arch bridge to the muzium

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Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 3/8

Peace rooster!

Peace lantern!

Shalom everyone!

We are called to be salt and light..in the darkness

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Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 2/8

Mummy, he said Nicholas' godpa baked the cake

Unplanned color coordination

My friend CJ and pooh

Lanterns, lights, lighthouse 1/8

"Happy Birthday Auntie Liz/mummy!"

"Did I tell you about the boy with no tail?"

"Mummy says this is rich in antioxidants"

"Happy birthday to youuuuu.."

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Guard Your Soul

Now that I understand that the soul consists of the will, the mind and the emotion, and that we have to face the reality of the existence of the spiritual realm and how the devil is powerless except to throw lies at us affecting our soul, all I can say is - "Guard your soul!" (Read my blog "Spirit, Soul and Body" for further explanation on spirit and soul)

I have often heard of the saying “the flesh fighting with the spirit”. Even Paul in Romans 7 : 14 - 20, said:

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it."

Wow, what a struggle! Now that I know what “soul” means, it is easier to see where the devil attacks – our mind, our will and our emotions!

Now that we are dead to sin but alive to God in Christ Jesus, we have God’s nature and God’s life in us. Praise the Lord! That is the spirit that is in us. But the flesh is our soul that can still be deceived by the devil and that’s why we still struggle. But once in Christ, we make lousy sinners. How great is this understanding. That’s why the spirit and flesh fight all the time. It is true!
We only need to soak ourselves in God’s words to arm ourselves with the spirit of the sword (God’s words) to thrust against the enemy when we are attacked. Last night, I was reminded again in Romans 8:15 -

“For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."

I have found another verse to thrust against the enemy over and above 2 Timothy 1:7 which says that fear is not from God. How wonderful. Thank you Lord for your revelation to me. I have the spirit of sonship in me. I do not have a spirit in me that makes me a slave again to fear! Praise the Lord! I shout from the mountain top! I am freeeee!

I was sharing with cousin Tammy yesterday night and this morning about how God, when he performs His miracle, we stay healed. But the reality is that there are people who get it hit again from cancer, asthma etc. What we both learned is that we are only humans. Our spirit is constantly fighting with our flesh (our soul) and when we are busy doing things our way, be it our family or work or friends, we lose focus on Jesus and allow the devil room to attack us once again. But God is good. He will prompt us and nudge us to Him again. We need only begin our journey again, repenting and throwing our cares to Him and He will take us in His arms again and pull us out from the slimy pit.

Psalm 40: 1,2

"I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand."

Thank you Lord for your faithfulness. Thank you Lord for everything.

Courageous Nic

I marvel at how Nic mustered so much courage to perform on stage. He is often camera shy, does not like to be in the limelight preferring to direct rather than to perform. He was very excited about the whole event - the practices, the dance, the costume. I suppose more importantly doing things together as a team. Greatly inspired, both Nic and Gwen would "play concert" during their play time - directing Ethan and Ryan to perform, dressing them up (garlands and all) and gelling their hair with water!

Nic's kindergarden concert

Taiwanese Dance

Gwen's turn - Festive Dance

Cousins unite!


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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Spirit, Soul and Body

I never really understood the difference between “soul” and “spirit”. I gather from the movies that the soul is something the devil wants. “Spirit” to me means either Holy Spirit or evil spirits. I thought maybe these words can be used interchangeably. So, it was good that Ps Vernon Fall helped explained it to us in class yesterday.

But to hear the explanation, you must be prepared for an adventure through the bible. Are you ready? Here we go….

Based on 1 Thessalonians 5:23, our human body comprises of Spirit, Soul and Body.

“May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.”

When our spirit leaves the body, we die physically. To understand this further we need to ask ourselves “What does it mean to be born again?” Born again means “to be born from above - doing things God’s way and not man’s way”.

In John 3:3, Jesus said, “ I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again.”

Unless we are born again, we cannot understand the things of the Kingdom of God. That Is why it is a waste of time to argue/debate with unbelievers on God’s words as in John 3:6, it says

“Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit.”

1 Corinthians 2:14, it is written:

"The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned."

Unbelievers consider the truth of God as foolishness. He may understand it in full details but he does not receive it because for him it is just foolishness or nonsense.

In John 3:4, we can observe a NATURAL MAN’s natural understanding to the meaning “Born again”:

"How can a man be born when he is old?" Nicodemus asked. "Surely he cannot enter a second time into his mother's womb to be born!"

But to a SPIRITUAL MAN, once we are born again we are able to understand the things of the Kingdom of God.

John 3:5
"Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit."

So, why must we be born again?

1. In Romans 3:23, it is written “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”

We sin because of one man, Adam:
2. In Romans 5:12, it is written “Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned”

3. In Ephesians 2:1,2, it is written: "As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient."
The “ruler of the kingdom of the air” is satan. Therefore it is a spirit that works in unbelievers.

By nature, before we were saved, we are of the devil, children of wrath, God’s wrath.

Ephesians 2:3

"All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath."

But, praise the Lord! We are now saved from God’s wrath.

Romans 5:9

"Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him!"

Jesus bought us (redemption) back to God when He died for us on the cross.

Romans 3:24

"and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus."

We are saved not because of good works that we have done but because of God’s mercy. It is a gift from God! The bible says so:

Titus 3:5
"he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit"

1 John 5:11

"And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son."

Eternal life means God’s life and God’s nature. God has given eternal life to us already for those who believe in Jesus. Right now! This life is in his Son, Jesus. This is what the bible says about Jesus:

John 14:6
"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

There are no other gods. The bible says so:

Acts 4:12
"Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."

1 John 5:12
"He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life."


In Ezekiel 36:25-27, God made this promise to Israel about a new covenant. He said, “I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.”

As what Ezekiel wrote, the day has now come when the Lord has washed our heart, washed our life; and washed our inner man now that we believe in Him. He has put a new heart in us and he has put his Spirit in us.

We now have a new heart, a new spirit. So, that’s the explanation to what “SPIRIT” means.

As unbelievers, their spirit is ruled by the devil. As children of God, our new spirit is of God - God’s life, God’s nature in us. He who is in us is greater than he who is in the world (the devil).

Our SOUL consist of the will, the mind and the emotions. The devil has access to our soul but NOT our spirit because that is of God.

Colossians 1:13
"For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves."

1 John 4:4
"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world."

We have His nature, His life. Now that we are in Him, we do not make very good sinners. Why? Because he has begun His good work in us who believe! We still sin, but we are lousy sinners.

Philippians 1:6
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

Now that we can distinguish between spirit and soul, we must guard our soul. We must know that when our thoughts and feelings contradict God’s word, we must :

1. Recognize that that is from the devil – hurt, anger, discouragement (all evident in our church crisis)

2. Cast it out in Jesus’ Name

3. Stop thinking that thought

4. Fill it with God’s words

It is important to read the bible to hear what God says. This morning while in the car, I was hungry and saw a tiny box of raisin I left in my car since yesterday. I picked it up and ate a raisin. Then, I asked God, can I eat this? A big “NO” came to my mind. I said “OK, Lord, but why?” No reply. Then I remembered the above lesson and thought of this morning’s verse that I was meditating on from Exodus 23:25

“Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you”

Ah ha! So, that “NO” was definitely from the devil. I thanked the Lord knowing He would protect me from sickness even though the raisins were a day old. It is good to be able to trust God’s words and to reject what is from the devil and eat my raisins!

Optimistic bunny

Praise the Lord! The pain behind my neck near my ear is gone! Previously, that area had bumps and was quite painful. Now, I realize that it was perhaps 5 to 6 pimples that surfaced at a go at the same spot that caused swelling and pain – like a big stuck vein! After praying and rebuking for 2 days with the help from the ladies during our bible study night and your prayers as well as prayers during a healing rally on Saturday evening at PJ Hilton, the pain started reducing until Sunday. Then, it was just down to "a dot". That's when I realised they were just pimples!

I also realize that my stamina is slowly improving as I jogged a longer path round my neighbourhood. Normally, I would give up after a row of houses and just walk slowly but last Sunday, I just kept jogging and did not stop until I reached home. I said to myself, “At this rate I am going, very soon I will be able to climb Mt Kinabalu again!” Ah, the optimistic bunny. All glory to God!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Rejoice! God Has A Plan For Us!

I am really pleased with how the Church Business Meeting went yesterday and really felt the Holy Spirit was with us. I wasn’t so worried the outcome as the Holy Spirit then leads us to vote accordingly. Siew Har was worried I was warming up but I was actually praying over and over again and rebuking all the evil spirits from amongst us and casting them out in Jesus’ name. So, when I saw how orderly everything went, I just looked up and thought to myself, “God, You are a prayer answering God”. Later, Henry and I thanked God in the car for His presence in the meeting and for so many members to move out from our position of complacency to fighting to what matters to God. We want to MOVE ON and do what matters to God. To save souls!

I was sitting near the mic ready to speak if anyone was going to upset God. I didn’t know when but thought I would just go with the Holy Spirit leading me. So many emotions flooded me as the meeting progressed but never terribly angry so I guess maybe that’s how God sees us too. In the end, I didn’t feel it was necessary. Praise the Lord! The Holy Spirit was with us!

What I wanted to share with FBC was that God has burdened my heart to tell you not to be inward looking anymore for there is much to do in God’s kingdom. God has also burdened my heart to show you that He is a God who is in control and that He has a plan for you. But after yesterday, I really feel deep down that things are slowly turning around, a sign that many of us are repenting. As a lukewarm church, He should have already spat us out from His mouth. For a long time, I have had this thought in my mind and to the words in Revelation 3:16:

“So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth”

Sue thinks we should have been zapped a long time ago. Yesterday, someone had a vision of a square and a tunnel within growing narrower and narrower showing how inward looking we are and God saying that we are very close to a calamity wherein He will spit us out from His mouth. It is not a coincidence that we are getting the same messages. But God is faithful and loving.

I’ve walked this journey with God for quite long now and only yesterday I realized that we as a church have the same problem. Complacency. We use all sorts of excuse not to serve Him. For a long time I have complained of our church being lukewarm but I could not nail down exactly what is causing it. It does not help that I did not know how to minister cell members properly and all their discouragements, hurts, chaos arising from this same sin was burdening my heart opening the door wide for more of the devil’s attack. It is only when Hamir, my neighbour, led by the Holy Spirit, prayed that our church not be inward looking and asked for the Holy Spirit to help me open my mouth to share this with others, that my eyes began to open. How wonderful it is to be filled with the Holy Spirit.

It was during the first night at the hospital after receiving the “machine gun” scans and feeling of hopelessness, that I confessed my sins of always using fear as an excuse for not serving Him effectively. Also, our (Henry and I) focus was on the kids and not so much at Jesus and I also repented for that. Still, it is not until now that I realized that THAT is the spirit of complacency within me and within each and everyone of us. THAT is the message that God wants to tell us. He is slow to anger because He wants all His children to come to repentance. AND He is watching us very very closely now. Everything we do or what is happening around us seem to be connected to each other, there seem to be a lot of coincidences but it is NOT. It is God talking to us nudging us to repentance. Isn’t He awesome. Isn’t He loving. I seriously think that if we had seen another bout of fury yesterday, God’s fury would also be unleashed on us instantly. Lightning and all.

This is what the LORD says in Isaiah 48:18,

"If only you had paid attention to my commands,
your peace would have been like a river"

Because we have disobeyed God, there is no peace in church now. For many of our disobediences have opened our hearts for attacks by the devil. Over the years we have allowed the devil to build upon our sin of complacency leading to the rut we are in now. As I have cancer, so you are cancered. We are all in the same state.

In Proverbs 3:5, He said
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Just as God is patient in showing His anger, we too must be patient in this trial and trust God. Open your eyes to see that this disobedience has accumulated over many years and as a result, our sins have opened doors for the devil to take a stronghold in us. We are facing spiritual warfare.

But our God is a powerful God!
He who is in us in greater than he who is in this world.

He is a faithful God!
As soon as I repented my sin, He started to pull me out from the pit.

Our God is a prayer answering God!
He has begun his healing process and on 1 Sept, my scan results showed that the nodules are almost all gone. Even the spots on the liver have been almost completely resolved. In Amos 5:6, God said “Seek the Lord and live” As I sought Him, He has given me life, so too will He give FBC life as we turn back to Him.

We need to repent, let go our woes and let God take control of FBC. God has shown His miracle on me to you FBC so that you may believe that He is a God who is in control, that He loves us and will heal us. Now that the new council is elected, God will raise servant or servants amongst us to lead FBC back to being the Church that He desires. As I testify of His glory and goodness so too will FBC have the opportunity to do so soon. I believe since we are in the same state, my rhema is also the church’s rhema. God told me in Isaiah 58:8:

8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;

In Matthew 26:41, Jesus told his disciples to “Stay awake and pray that you won't be tested. You want to do what is right, but you are weak."

Wake up FBC! You are being tested. Your disobedience has allowed the devil to use you. You want to do what is right but you can’t because you are operating in the flesh. Ask for fresh anointing of the Holy Spirit. I am so glad to see from yesterday, that many of us have asked for the Holy Spirit to work within us.

Ps Tan Eng Lee gave me God’s word when he prayed and when he visited me at my home, he said from Jeremiah 29:11:

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.

I remember Ps Tan said he did not understand why this verse was meant for me as in wasn’t in the right context but now I know why, because, God’s words for me is also God’s words for FBC. Isn’t our God awesome.

In Haggai 2:9, it is written:

9 'The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,' says the LORD Almighty. 'And in this place I will grant peace,' declares the LORD Almighty."

We have much to wait for, we will see many miracles happen and there will be many blessings soon as healing will quickly appear. Come quickly, let’s return to God.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

I've Got a Stuck Vein

I think it is. There's this new pain just about a day ago appearing behind my right neck near the ear. The pain seems to be moving around so I think it is some clogged veins from lack of exercise. See how my mind had sensed it a few days earlier. Ah, actually it is God's prompting. So far, I've managed 3 days of slow jog round the neighbourhood. The path I chose around the neighbourhood is very small but it is a start. Do help me rebuke the pain. I also have itchy scalp as a result of zits on my head. Both symptoms have no power no dominion over me and I know it will go away. I was just reading Fee's blog at http://www.feeisfree.blogspot.com/ and am reminded again how God loves us so much and He is constantly watching over us, sending angels to guard our ways, every single step. I know He is prompting me to exercise more to get my blood circulation going. For the first time after a long while, I played the Pilate exercise cd for beginners last night. I didn't really follow the whole thing but just one repetition to just stretch my muscles and for the deep breathing exercise. Thank you Lord for prompting me and guiding me in everything.

My next check up with doctor at SJMC is on 1 Oct where I will be required to go for an X Ray this time. Thank God! At least, I won't have to go through the poking session. :) I stand on victory ground and Jesus has borne my disease 2000 years ago. He said "By His wounds, we have been healed". I cling on to His promise and I thank God that He has healed me. All glory to God!

I also want to share that it was no coincidence that the messages in some of Fee's articles are the same as mine except from another perspective. For a long time, I have sensed my rhema will also be my church's rhema. But who am I to say right because I am not God. God is saying to me "Seek me and you will live". So, He is also telling my church "Seek Him and you will live". God is watching us in First Baptist Church very very closely. He has the same message to each and everyone of us. He is our God. Lord, open our eyes to be the church you desire. (Please double click on first box on the video bar)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSCE8uLuTJY

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Believing God's Words Over Our Feelings

I went for my first "Deeper Life Seminar" yesterday at RLC by Vernon Fall. It is fine tuning me to understand the lies that are constantly thrown at us. I myself am beginning to understand this. So far, I have been told that even when you are dry, you must understand that God is still present. I remember dear Sue’s kids devotion on Habakuk 3. There is another scripture:

2 Corinthians 5:7
7We live by faith, not by sight.

Ps Vernon explained that anytime your feelings (physical & emotional) contradict God’s words, we must believe God’s words OVER our feelings. And that itself is a new revelation to me because it means that I need to depend on God all the more, not on my strength but by trusting God's words.

And I hold Him to His words because He is a God that cannot lie.

I would recommend anyone seeking to walk closer to God to attend this "Deeper Life Seminar" at RLC Church at 51A/221 PJ. I’ve never been to a Christian seminar where it is so filled with God’s presence. The Holy Spirit was with us and it is such a wonderful experience. The registration closes next Tuesday. What I experienced yesterday night was so powerful and eye opening because faith comes from hearing God's words. Ps Vernon has this gift of explaining the truth so simply. The whole time he is just giving us scripture after scripture and I can imagine if we are so hungry for God, we will just meditate on His word so that when we get another attack from the devil, we can just speak God’s words aloud and it will flea from us immediately.

The devil is always on the prowl to devour those who are God’s children. Ps Vernon reminded us that guilt and condemnation are not from God. When we walk in the flesh, we FEAR condemnation. But when we walk in the spirit, we are FREE from condemnation.

Ps Vernon shared this scripture with us:

1 John 1:9 (New International Version)
9If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

God is faithful. This means WITHOUT FAIL, He will always do what He says. The moment we seek forgiveness, He forgives us. Full stop. We do not have to feel condemned anymore. Even if we still feel guilty tomorrow, or next week or 20 years from now, He has already forgiven us. He is NOT a dead God. He has heard us the FIRST time! Any other feelings are not from God. He had this funny example of his own sin as a 5 year old boy slaughtering baby chicks. The devil called him a “Baby chick killer”. Even though he had sought forgiveness from God, the devil will just remind him again and again that he is a “baby chick killer”. God may have forgiven you ALL your sins but there is this sin that He will not forgive. But that’s the devil’s lies.

Another funny example though very real is the couple that argued in the car on the way to church and once they stepped out of the car into church grounds, they would smile as if all was fine. Nevertheless, this couple sought forgiveness before entering church. Still, there was a remnant of bitterness and resentment and this prevented them from serving in church that day. Ps Vernon reminded us that even in such situation, once we have sought forgiveness from God and we don’t FEEL 100% clean, we HAVE been forgiven. The bible tells us so. We just bind the negative thoughts and command it out from our mind in Jesus’ name.

The scripture says:

Romans 8
Life Through the Spirit
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

We are now led by the Spirit, no longer in the flesh.
We live by faith, not by sight.

What a wonderful revelation. We know it yet we don’t. Now, I reminded again that I can rely 100% on God’s words for all my daily struggles, needs as well as claiming God’s words for healing. Thank you Lord for healing me because you said so in the bible.

Happy 9th Anniversary!

It was our 9th anniversary yesterday. Henry's not much of a romantic person, prefering to stay away from commercialism. He even got interviewed once by Malay Mail against Valentine's day. One Valentine's day I resorted to calling it "Bunny Day" so it was a special day for us and I got to celebrate too on Feb 14...he he...

Anyway, dear Henry was so sweet. He sneaked into the house wanted to surprise me with a bouquet of red roses with some cute shiny pink butterflies and pink lilies. I did not expect it which made it a lovelier surprise! Alas, I had not left home yet for the "Deeper Life Seminar" at RLC so he was caught in action. The timing was still great because he got to meet Ps Sasha and Ps Chris for the first time.

Happy Anniversary dear Henry and may the good Lord bless us with many many more years together!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Laziness is not from God

Whatever is not the fruit of the spirit is not from God. Ps Joseph advised me that this is a quick way to discern whether whatever we are feeling is from God or not.

Last night I blogged about feeling lazy to pick up pace during my exercise. As I laid in bed, I realised laziness is not from God. Self control is. If I had more self control I would do what is best for my body. Thanks so much for praying for me and helping me realise this. So, I got up this morning with zest and jogged slowly for two small rounds within my neighbourhood. Thank you Lord for oxygen! Thank you Lord for strength to run!

I am just praying the endophins will kick in more so that I would feel motivated again for tomorrow's exercise. :)

Wow! I Know the Rhema that Really Burns

Isaac told me that I need to find my rhema because that is what I will cling to when trials hit me and I need only hold on to this rhema and God will pull me out from the pit.

As I was driving home tonight, I was speaking life to myself. I was commanding my lungs, brains and diaphragm to work together in Jesus' name. Sometimes, I feel breathless. I have this trouble quite some time now. It has no power no dominion over me but just that I wish more oxygen would go into my body! I know I need to step up my exercise and yet I know I can't go too hard because I wasn't feeling too strong since I lost a bit of weight earlier. But now, I do feel stronger and I've been trying to step up my pace during exercise but I am feeling lazy. Do pray for me for more motivation to exercise at a faster pace. If I do a slow jog it will cause me to pant for more oxygen so it would definitely help. So anyway, I was commanding my brain to tell my diaphragm to breath correctly i.e. use the diaphragm and not my chest to breathe (for my deep breathing exercise). Then, I commanded my lungs to receive the oxygen to kill all remaining malignant cells in Jesus' name.

Suddenly, I started speaking out the verse of 2 Timothy 1:7:

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

The more I said it, I started to cry. Then, I remembered He commanded me not to anxious about anything so I cried out to God "Lord, you said not to be anxious about anything so I cry out to you Father God, give me more oxygen!".

Philipians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Then, my spirit was lifted and my fears went away. And I thanked Him. Then, I remembered what Isaac said about rhema. I realised that I even penned it down in my lyrics on Saturday, not knowing that that's my rhema! For when I say it, I can feel God pulling me out from the pit! Praise the Lord! I am so happy! I finally understand. Rhema is a word given from God, that burns in our hearts, that means so much to us to the point it can save us from the fiery darts of the evil one in hard times. Thank you Lord for your revelation to me. Thank you Lord for your rhema for me. Thank you Lord for everything. I pray tonight that Aunty Beverly finds her rhema from God. She needs it so much now. Please also pray to rebuke the cancer cells and cast it out from her body. Speak life to Aunty Beverly. Pray for the blood of Jesus to cover her and flow through her to restore her completely. On the cross, Jesus died for our sins and bore our sickness. By His wounds we have been healed.

Matthew 8:17
This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: "He took up our infirmities and carried our diseases."

1 Peter 2:24
He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.

We are all children of God because we believe what Jesus did for us on that cross to make us righteous again before God. In Jesus lies the answer to every human need. So, WE can claim healing for Aunty Beverly through our faith in Jesus. There is power in Jesus' name! Pray for the blood of Jesus to cover her whole household against the lies from the evil one.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Minestrone Soup Recipe

My mum prepared this soup for me today and I was pleasantly surprised that I did not have to put liquid amino (Braggs) to add flavour. It's so sweet and tasty! The word "minestrone soup" came to my mind. So have a try and let me know if it works for you.

Minestrone Soup Recipe (serves 2)

1/2 cup soup mix (comprising of various beans from organic shop - high in protein)
2 small carrots (diced)
1 big onion (diced)
8 dates (for extra sweetness and to replace meat)
2 slices pumpkin (so it does not break up)
1 stalk celery (diced)
1 tomato
1 litre water

My mum said the trick is to stir fry the onions till transluscent in a bit of WATER (since I'm not taking oil) and add carrots and stir fry a while too. Then only add everything else. Once boiling, to simmer for quite sometime until the all the flavour comes out.

I served the soup with quinoa cooked separately in a rice cooker.

Enjoy! :)

Saturday, September 5, 2009

No Fear

No Fear (by Liz)

Jesus paid the price
Made a sacrifice
And in Jesus lies
The answer to my cries

No fear, no fear
Fear does not come from You
No fear, no fear
Only power, love and self control

Little by little
Baby steps to You
I cling on to your Word
You pulled me from the pit

I love you Lord
I thank You, You're my healer
I love You Lord
No fear but only joy

You took my sins away
Bore my sickness too
You have defeated death
Now we can overcome

I love you Lord
I thank You, You're my healer
I love You Lord
No fear but only joy


Wow! I don't think I've ever written a song before! I was lying down with Ethan by my side and practicing my deep breathing and thinking about God and what He has in store for me. I asked God for a name for a ministry that Uncle Allen has in mind for those suffering from cancer which I think will be a very powerful ministry to make people realise that God heals. Suddenly, the lyrics filled my mind and I had to grab some paper downstairs. Poor baby Ethan woke up - now watching TV!

Any takers to create the tune for me?

All Glory to God!

Friday, September 4, 2009

Thank You Lord

Thank you Lord for all you've done
For all you gonna do.
My heart is always for you
I love you very much


Thanks King Wai for sharing this beautiful song. It is so beautiful to sing out to the Lord! (Double click the first box on the video bar on top right of the page.)


Thank you Lord (by Don Moen)

I come before you today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank you lord
Thank you lord
For all you've given to me
For all the blessings that I cannot see
Thank you lord
Thank you lord

**With a grateful heart
With a song of praise
With an outstretch arm
I will bless your name
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord
For all you've done in my life
You took my darkness and gave me your light
Thank you lord
Thank you lord
You took my sin and my shame
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank you lord
Thank you lord

Check out youtube: http://www.lyricskeeper.com/don_moen-lyrics/223408-thank_you_lord-lyrics.htm

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Nutrition - God's way

Thanks Aunty Judy. Thanks for driving all the way to my home to deliver my nutrition pills. Aunty Judy helps supply E Excel products to me which are well researched by a Taiwanese doctor, Dr Chen. Dr Chen's ambition was to be a famous scientist. She was a snooty young lady upon graduation mostly because she was so brilliant she did not have to put much effort in her exams. Interestingly, her heart changed when she saw a 30 year old woman suffering from cancer making voice recordings for her 3 toddlers (that wasn't the first patient). Dr Chen's life completely changed after that. She wanted to find a cure for cancer. Scientists have budgets to do research but their drugs are mostly chemical. When she found out that a plain little soya bean can have such great reaction to a cancer cell she started researching further but no one wanted to sponsor her. So she formed a research company to carry out research for other companies and used the profits for her own immunology research. That was a long time ago. She has no secrets. Anyone is welcomed to do better. Her only goal is to find a cure and for cancer prevention.

It is heartening to know that God our maker gives us natural plant to build our immunity and in a way, Dr Chen has found a way to bring the potency of these natural plant to our homes as it is impossible to consume so much daily. When God created the world, He said in Genesis 11,29:

11 Then God said, "Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds." And it was so.

29 Then God said, "I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.

Interestingly, in my situation, I had to turn back to what He originally provided to us in Genesis (what we call "vegetarian" these days). Siew Mei mentioned that in the end times, when food get so processed and meat get so tainted, at least we can still go back to the "Genesis produce" to heal us.

That's why for the time being I've left out meat from my diet. No pork, no chicken, no fish. Maybe later. My current diet also does not contain sugar, salt, oil, milk or eggs. All so to starve the cancer cells. My creative mum (she says it is inspired by the Holy Spirit) comes up with fruit juices and warm meals from vegetables, grains and nuts. Thanks Daffy for the juicer and thanks TRYGOS for the blender.

Here is to give you an idea of what SUPPLEMENTS I take in daily:

E Excel Products (all from natural plant - no chemicals):

Nutriact (polysaccarides from mushrooms) 1 sachet 3 times a day
Celebration of Life (cactus juice, ginseng, cordiceps) (2 sachets a day)
Daily Nutrition Pills for Morning (6 pills once in the morning)
Daily Nutrition Pills for Evening (6 pills once in the evening)
Noco (for respiratory) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Art (for bones) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Act (for action) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Circle (for circulation) (5 pills 3 times a day)
Nutrifresh beverage (15 fruits & vege) (2-3 sachets a day)
Lidan beverage (for liver) (2-3 sachets a day)
Herba beverage (for heart) (2-3 sachets a day)

Others:
Probiotics 1 pill a day
Porcupine powder (1 a day)
Tocovid (2 pills a day)
Grapeseed (2 pills 3 times a day)

Chemicals:
Tarceva (1 pill a day)
Antibiotics (1 pill a day)

There's really a lot of swallowing to do. But sweet Siew Mei reminded me that whatever I take I must take with a prayerful heart. So, I think I have slowed down a bit and say a more detailed prayer to the Lord which really worked! The last check up, for the first time, I gained weight! 1 KILO!

Collectively, it costs a bomb! Thousands and thousands of ringgit! But with showers of blessings from my mum, aunties and friends and insurance, so far, all has been provided for. Believe it or not, the insurance money only kicked in last week! But I am very thankful for God's hand upon my life and my family even down to logistics, kids being taken care of, ability to rest, exercise and read the bible. Thank you Lord for everything! Indeed I lift my eyes towards the mountains and He is my Helper! The maker of heaven and earth! Praise the Lord!

We have AUTHORITY & POWER in JESUS'' Name

Thanks Tracy and Isaac, your encouraging words are so deep and revealing, I must share with everyone. We are victorious as Christians and many of us have not taken the journey to experience this victory! We walk on victory ground as King Wai always says. We are "in" His GRACE. We just need to believe and claim this victory. All Glory to God!

"Hi Liz, from both of us tonight! We wanted to encourage you (just read your latest blog together) with a scripture from 1 John 4:4, 'Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world'. Also from Isaiah 41:10 'so do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God'. Just to encourage you during this time - yay Victory is yours! - how wonderful to know the hand of God is on your Life! Victory was yours the very moment you accepted Christ into your life; it was then that in your journey that you learned this amazing truth! This is God's amazing truth to us and for us! We have AUTHORITY in Jesus's name, POWER in His name. Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world! Amen! Thank you God! King of Kings and Lord of Lords; maker of the heavens, maker of our galaxy, maker of this universe! Jesus, saviour of the world! Victory is ours because He said so, Amen! We are praying with you and with your band of prayer warriors! take care, love Tracy & Isaac"

I Asked for Vision

Yesterday at the Global Breakthrough, I asked God for a vision during the loooooong praise session. Whilst everyone was speaking in tongues, I asked God for a vision. I could not see anything. It's like looking at darkness in my mind! Later, I can see things around but I can't quite make out. I thought I saw people's back. I saw the word "King" and then the picture of a crown and a furry robe came to my mind. Then, I saw the word "camel" slightly hidden. The word "gentleness" came very clearly followed by "kindness". Still trying to look further, I saw a shape and "church" came to my mind. When the session was over, I asked Ps Joseph what the camel meant. It is so strange to see a picture of a camel. He said camels in a dry land are beautiful to the people living there. A camel also stores a lot of water. Later, I told him the other words and when Ps Lydia heard the word "church", she said "Again? You are always burdened for your church!". She warned me not to get entangled with the church politics because my health comes first. I told her I will always remember her advise and when I do feel burdened for FBC, I will just say a prayer and let it go to God. Then Ps Joseph said, "A camel also carries loads". You must be the camel carrying the burden!"

This morning I told Henry about the vision and he said "Haiya, it means the fruit of the spiritlah". So clever, husband of mine! Now, I know what the whole vision means.

"God is the King in First Baptist Church and He wants us to be filled with the Holy Spirit so we can show the fruit of the spirit which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. And I am the camel to tell you all this."

Ah well, at least that is my interpretation. The only way we can be filled with the Holy Spirit is if we desire it and ask for fresh anointing.

That was my second vision. The first vision I had in this journey was on 17 July 2009 where I saw 3 flashes of witchcraft sillouette. Now I know it confirms the spiritual attack that constantly happens to me. We have to put on the armor of God friends.