Two years of new life!

Two years of new life!

It has been two years when I was first at hospital to check what was wrong with me, why the cough would not go away. Since that first night at the hospital, it has really been an exciting journey watching God bring people to my life, experiencing how real He is, actually received His plans for me, learning more about Him in Leong Tien Fook's class, Deeper Life Seminar and Bachelor of Ministry. Most of all, I experienced love from the body of Christ itself and how together with the prayers of the saints, each time I faced a tough situation He always delivers me whenever I ask for prayers!

I think even though I started with a measure of faith, He increased my faith because from the first night, He just gave me such peace that everything will be alright. He has sustained me so far with the word of God, signs, encouragement from friends especially word of knowledge through the spirit.

This verse spoke to me this morning. It is from Hebrews 6:12

"We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised."

The opposite without this rich experience with God through this journey is like this verse. A life of laziness, losing our priorities, the loss of how BIG our God is, being persuaded by our friends that what they do is alright even though the bible says differently. Slowly, we become spiritually dull and indifferent. So, I am warned this morning to never go back to the way I was.

The joy of walking with God far out shadows the cancer. I don't think about cancer, not because I am in denial but just a strong peace that everything is going to be alright because I believe I am healed in the spiritual realm. It is just it always bewilders me how to transfer head knowledge to my spirit man and my friends tell me to just receive it like a child. I do i do but being traditional, I have so many queries in my mind. Only a few weeks ago, God gave me this revelation and I finally have the answer!

I know God does not bring sickness to me. Yet, when faced with this question, "Is it God's will to heal me?", the answer would be "It is up to God's will and sovereignty" (traditional view) or "God does not bring sickness to you". (those who believe in healing). I agree with both but it does not answer my question! I definitely do not want to pray a pleading prayer all the time because how can I be confident? It has been 2 years and no satisfying answer but recently, He opened my eyes! I got it, I got! I was dancing and groovin'.

If it is not God's will to heal, that means it is His will for you to remain sick. So, no servant of God can pray for you because the poor servant of God will come against God's will. We also should not look to doctors to get well, because if we do get well, it might come against God's will and we don't want trouble with God!

Therefore, there is a difference between:
1. It is God's will for you to be sick;  and
2.  It is God's will that you should go home to be with the Lord.

God does not bring sickness to you. Therefore, it is God's will for you to be well again, to be healed!  In this way, you can now appropriate healing, receive God's healing and claim all of God's promises for your healing with confidence that He hears our prayers (1 John 5:14). Just believe (Mark 11:24). Even though we do not really understand the term "appropriation", God still has mercy and compassion and does grant instant healing even to non believers. I have seen this in the many miracle rallies I have attended. Sometimes, it is God's will for you to be called home. That is God's sovereignty, God's will for you to be called home and we have no say about it because God is sovereign. It is far better to be home with God than to be here on earth yet there is a time for everything, even for dying.

The real journey is that person's itself. We do not know what is in their heart, what dark past they have, what unforgiveness they have, what desires they have. Maybe they really can't take the pain and want to go home. And God hears our desires and does not let us suffer more than what we can bear.

All I know is I can now confidently say it is God's will to heal when you fall sick and that is not the same with God's will to take us home. I can't believe how we could have been on the wrong wave length all this time!
 
Thank you Lord for this revelation. Thank you for leading me, guiding me, building me up all this time. It has been a great adventure indeed!  :) as for the cancer, you are under my feet, you are pulverized, dead, dead, dead, finished, pulverized into dust and expelled from my body in Jesus' name! I thank you Lord that You are restoring me back to health and healing all my wounds. ( Jeremiah 30:17)

Stepping out in boldness

Stepping out in boldness

The first term of bible class (Bachelor of Ministry) has ended and my first leadership assignment has also ended. Whew! At the beginning of the term, none of us in our team of five wanted to be a leader! So, we  decided to cast lots. The one who holds the paper with a little star on it will be the leader. Yup, it fell on me. So, I praised God even though in my heart I went "Oh no!".

Proverbs 16:33
The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decision is from the LORD

The consolation is it is an assignment from God. :) Earlier, a few of us thought there would be a possible friction within our team and I thought oh no, this is worse than church politics but thank God it turned out not to be or at least we prayed about it and it all got sorted out. Whew! The power of prayer!

Then, there was drilling time by Ps Vernon and the leader has to face the firing line and answer first with just a bible at hand. That was scary but thank God there were whispers into my ear for the answer!

I still remember Uncle Albert's prophecy to me in 2003 that I will be a church leader in 15 years. What? I get all shaky at just the word 'leader'. Since coming for Deeper Life Seminar and bible class, I have had another prophecy of leadership, intercessory leader. So, when the role of a leader fell on me, it was like another confirmation of God's plan for me. Ah well, I will just let the Lord lead me. For now, I just need to step out in boldness and just obey what He asks me to do. I am so glad my first assignment is over. It is term break now and another leader has been named. We still have to meet to pray every week to build up our group dynamics and we still have homework to do each day ie to spend time with God. We are such lazy creatures that without homework, I think most of us would just rather do our stuff first in priority over God at the beginning of the day. But when we actually spend time with God first,  we are blessed throughout the day. Still, we do not get it. So, I guess that is why they call it homework. :)  

She Will Live

Hamir, my mother in law's neighbour, used to call me every other day and he would sing praises to God over the phone and pray for me and if God led him, he would give me a word or two to encourage me. He hasn't done that a long time as i drew closer to God. Just this morning, Hamir called out to Henry as he saw Henry walking down the road after sending Nic to school. He told Henry that as he saw him walking down the road, he saw the words "She will live". He told Henry "Don't forget to tell Liz".

Henry just told me and I was so touched, i teared. He also said to just trust God's words and that is what I am really learning now. That despite the circumstances, despite the aches I am experiencing, I tell God "I do not consider how I feel. I believe I have received your healing. I thank you for healing me". The pain is still there but it is only temporary. I think the aches are from the bug Ethan passed to me. I am going to try and walk it off shortly without pushing myself too much.

I thank God for His words through Hamir. God is good all the time. He just knows the right time to give us the right words. I love You Lord!

Update

Update 
Ethan was down with sore throat since last Friday and I think I got the bug from him. I was feeling rather weak on Sunday, unaware I was having fever. I sure did not feel hot, just weak. I thought I would feel better after lunch but I kept wanting to rest. At night, I asked Henry to pray for me and to ask for my home group to pray for me. At the same time, I heard in my head, take 2 panadols.  Ethan and Henry prayed over the pills. Shortly after I popped the pills, I felt so much better, strong enough to clean up the kids' room! Amazing! Praise the Lord!

I still feel a bit shaky but I think I will do well once I put some proper nutrients into my system so I must be disciplined not to be lazy. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Please do pray for quick recovery for Ethan so that he does not pass any more germs to me.

Praying for Nic

Praying for Nic

At about 2 am I woke up and decided to look up for articles on how to boost Nic's confidence. Every time Nic gets his report card, Henry and I just crumble and wonder how to help Nic. To me, it is not the academic that I am worried about. It is about bringing out his potential. With fear, there is so many things he would not dare to do. I know because I was in that position. Yet, I do not know how to bring Nic out of it. Yesterday, I sensed God say to pray for Nic so I looked up prayers for children. There was an article highlighting the big topics to pray for eg his relationship with God, his friends, protection,turning his weaknesses to strength etc. It was most helpful. The article can be found at this website, http://powertochange.com/experience/family/parentprayer/.

As I said a short simple prayer for Nic, I then prayed in the spirit and I broke down and cried. My heart was so heavy. I really don't want Nic to go through what i went through. Khin Wee I believe has a soft spot for Nic because he too can relate to Nic. He said to be patient with Nic and to keep encouraging him.

God is teaching me to lean on Him for help rather than to use our reasonings to help Nic. With our mind, we want to change schools, we want to put him to drama school over and above his current activities. 

So, I am off to write a prayer to Nic now and keeping it in my bible. Please pray for wisdom for Henry and I and for us to rest in Him with regard to Nic.

Snake's head chopped off

Snake's head chopped off

Isaiah 7:11
“Ask the Lord your God for a sign of confirmation, Ahaz. Make it as difficult as you want—as high as heaven or as deep as the place of the dead.”

I was praying today, well, as part of my homework too, to reach 40 minutes in praying in tongues. Previously, it  was 20 minutes but now they have pushed us to 40 minutes. Anyway, while I was praying, Isaiah 7:11 came to my mind and I was thinking I know this one. This is God's rhema to me that the cancer will not rise up against me and they will be too shattered. So, I decided to look up the bible and instead, it was about asking God for a sign and to make it as difficult as you want!

So, I asked for the same sign my mum asked for, that once my cough goes away completely, it will be a sign that the cancer is dead and I can go for a scan to check to glorify God. But I also asked that He makes me bold and stouthearted, so confident, that I know that I know that I know that all is well.

My mum has been praying very hard for me. She prayed for complete healing to come upon me on Pentecostal Day on 12 June 2011. So, I also prayed that from 12 June 2011, I will just get stronger and stronger and start to put on weight. A few days before 12 June, she asked God for a sign of how will she know I will be completely well and she asked could it be that my cough would go away and I can go for a scan. She was talking to God in the car and suddenly when she asked this, a splash of rain fell from the sky across her windshield and that was that! To my mum, it was an answered prayer!

So, when it flashed before me Isaiah 7:11, I had no idea it was about asking for a sign but I believe it is no coincidence for God does not want me to lean on my mum's faith but to have faith on my own so He is asking me the same.

Ever since 12 June 2011, the cough has started to change so I am praying once all the phlegm comes out, the cough has done it's job and all is well. :) I have been exercising and stretching and lengthening my muscles. I noticed that as I climb stairs now, I do not pant so much. I see a slight improvement. Praise the Lord!

It is amazing how the evil one attacks. Yesterday, a Karen called me and she was diagnosed with lung cancer and had gone through chemo but tumours started showing up again and she is confused whether to take another round of chemo. The whole time I was talking to her, I was coughing. It was most frustrating. Thank God she too sensed it was the evil one at work.

I remember when i was in so much pain and the medical report showed that the tumour was growing, I felt so cornered by doctors that chemo is the only way out but God opened the door for us to take low dose naltrexone and we have committed it to God. The pain also slowly left me. God will do the same for you if you go before Him. He will open and close doors for you. Just commit to God your plan and it will be a success.

My mum had a dream a few nights ago. She was bitten by a snake but the snake seem very weak. So, she chopped off the snake's head. She was worried but her friends assured her she was alright and that the snake is dead. She woke up and felt that the venom of the snake was so weak. It wanted to kill her but it was too weak. So she claimed things are beginning to turn around and the evil one is leaving us. It has lost it's sting.

I quoted Luke 10:19 where we have been given the authority to trample on the serpents and scorpions and nothing will harm us. I too believe the devil has no choice but to lose it's grip on us because we are children of God and as long as we continue to stand on God's word and not look at our circumstance or the medical report (not aligned to God's word),  we will have victory!

Previously, I would stand on God's word but get discouraged when I see the symptoms but God told me to keep binding and breaking the devil from me and keep gazing at Him and to confess His word. On 13 June 2011, my mum told me she has put me in the care of God and she is not going to worry about looking after me so much. I agreed with her and I am so happy she has let me go to God. In fact, all parents should do that when they dedicate their children to God knowing God will take care of them. We have grown so much since 12 June 2011. I just know I am going to see God's goodness in the land of the living and very soon. :)

Psalm 27:13

I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

I continue to wait upon the Lord.

Update - cough reducing

Update - cough reducing

I got up in the wee hours this morning feeling sore on my back so I decided to spend some time with God. It was not easy because my throat was dry. I wanted to sing and talk but it was tough. I started singing, all croaky but I persevered because I know if I sing long enough, I will be at His dwelling place. Then, I went into a dance and sort of like exercising but doing a praise dance to God. I was praying for my friends and then I broke out in tongues and then fell asleep again till morning. It was so weird but I enjoyed my time with Him.

I have been meditating on Psalm 27: 4-8

4 One thing I ask from the LORD,

this only do I seek:

that I may dwell in the house of the LORD

all the days of my life,

to gaze on the beauty of the LORD

and to seek him in his temple.

5 For in the day of trouble

he will keep me safe in his dwelling;

he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent

and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted

above the enemies who surround me;

at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;

I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;

be merciful to me and answer me.

8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”

Your face, LORD, I will seek.

Actually, the whole Psalm 27 is so beautiful. It gets better and better each time I read it. Yesterday, at Elpizo, Ps David of the Full Gospel Christian Church in Brickfields chose to speak on Ps 27. I was thrilled. Again, it is not a coincidence that he chose the same Psalm.

What I took home was he said to wait upon the Lord. And I know the term 'to wait upon the Lord' or at least I thought I did. He said to wait until we hear God before we declare or claim God's promises. This morning, I was just doing that. I was preparing myself to hear from God and each time I sense Him ie when I cry because I am touched by Him ( it works for me) I then began to claim His promises and it is more effective this way. Ps Yonggi Cho observes it is God's rhema word that heals. It is not just a list of God's promises that we run through but it does help to run through them because it is medicine and the more you feed on God's word it goes into our spirit man and brings life to our body.

As I laid down, I put my hand on my chest and just thanked Him and spoke His words "Thank you Lord for healing me. Thank you that you sent forth your word and healed me. Thank you that you have restored me back to health and healed all my wounds (Jer 30:17). Thank you that your word is spirit and life. Your word that you are restoring me back to health and healing me all my wounds are flowing through every cell, every tissue, every being of me ( my hand motions the flow of his words throughout my chest). Your life, your word is flowing into my lungs dissolving all tumours and growths. I thank you, I praise you that by Your stripes, I am healed. Body, align yourself to the word of God. Body, you are completely healed and made whole".

Last night, during bible class, a lady came forward and gave me anointing oil for my healing. I did not tell her my condition but i suppose she noticed me coughing. She said to apply it at bed time, say a prayer for healing and keep thanking God evey day after that. Ps David also said when we pray, we wait in expectation that God will heal us and we keep thanking Him that He has answered our prayers.

I applied the oil while saying the above prayer. This morning, I noticed the cough has reduced even more. It is no longer an itchy cough that starts every time I do something. It has changed to a productive cough where I cough to spit out white phlegm. Yesterday, during the entire Elpizo meeting, I hardly coughed. I did stretching exercise for an hour this morning and I hardly coughed too. Sometimes I cough continuously to get the phlegm out but once it is out, I am good.

The morning stretches got rid of the back stiffness. I really enjoy stretching. It is so relaxing. I feel rather good today. I am going to try to do another set of stretches at night too. I just want to glorify God for taking the cough away and making me stronger today. I know as soon as I say it, the evil one will plot to attack again but I will meditate on Psalm 27 and keep my head above my adversaries and gaze at God's beauty and dwell in His house instead. It is the only way to win the battle. Please pray for me my dear friends.

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 7

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 6 Cable Car Ride

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 5 Cable Car Ride

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 4 More Swimming

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 3 Underwater World

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Part 2

Danna Hotel, Langkawi - Underwater fun

Update - Getting Stronger

Update - Getting Stronger

I was still feeling weak yesterday further to the nerve attack last Friday in Langkawi. Though the nerve pain is gone, it left my entire body weaker and there was some pain at the bottom of right shoulder blade. By the time I went for bible class, there was some pull on my chest near my right arm pit. It all seems very alarming but it has no power no dominion over me. 

During bible class, I waited and waited for the right time before i caught Ps Vernon Falls to pray for me. After he laid hands on me and prayed, I felt the pull immediately left me. Praise the Lord!

This morning, I woke up a bit stronger. I had craving for Nasi lemak so I substituted the white rice with 10 grain rice which i cooked earlier.

This week seem like a healing week from me beginning last Saturday. My mum was praying for me during a vigil which started 10 pm last Saturday to 6.45 am Sunday morning (Pentecostal Sunday). I think she was slightly discouraged to hear of the nerve attack but I said that is normal. There is sometimes spiritual attack before miracles happen. Then, there was Ps Vernon praying for me. This Thursday, Bro Leong will be back in Shah Alam again for a healing fellowship and I will be attending with Lai Ping. 

This morning, I received a healing cd from my friend who is very much into health food, fitness, meditations and has a statue of an elephant on her table. She actually visited SIB church and bought a healing cd for me by Dr Paul And and Dr Christina Ang! Praise the Lord! They read God's words and give testimonies of healing from their ministry. I cried listening to the cd as I prayed with the couple.

Then, this Saturday is the Miracle Healing Explosion at RLC church at Lot 5, Jln 51A/221, PJ. During our "wall of fire" prayer meet, our leader prophesied that it will be an uncommon session and the auditorium will be jam packed. However, there will be spiritual attack just before and we are to pray everyday till Saturday. I was thinking how the spiritual attack has already hit me but I bind and break it in Jesus' name. Last night, while we were praying in tongues, Ps Joshua Yee felt the presence of God so strong that he took over the mic and prayed with us and together we held hands and prayed for the miracle rally. He said he was compelled to do it because of the awesome presence of God and he felt God has surely heard our prayers collectively.

So, it is another exciting week and I look forward to enjoying God's presence this Saturday and continuing to receive his healing. Already, His power is at work in me. The Miracle Healing Explosion starts at 7 pm.

Do You Have Power?

Do You have Power?

Acts 1:8

"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere—in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

I still remember when Ps Vernon asked our class in Deeper Life Seminar 1 "Who thinks they have power?", only a few of us raised our hands but yesterday when he asked again in bible class, almost all of us raised our hands!

It is not like we are playing god. It is always "we in Christ". without Him we are nothing, but in Him, we have everything, we are heirs as children of God.

We have power, we have authority given to us by God so I constantly use it these days. The nerve pain is gone now. Praise the Lord! I was feeling weak yesterday morning as soon as i woke up and I could not exercise. I was too weak to cook. Anyway, my fridge was empty so I had to drag myself to buy groceries. But when I got home, I was still too weak to cook, so I made oats to eat instead and a couple of fruit juices. Again, it was Karen Kerr who motivated me to get back to the exercise routine because she had the same difficulties after her holidays. So this morning, I asked God for strength, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". Yes, He did stengthen me and I went for my walk! Praise the Lord.

The pain is currently at the bottom of the right shoulder blade but even this will go away because what is seen is only temporary. There is a small spot of pain, pulling sort of pain when I take a deep breath. I bind and break all this spirit of pain, this spirit of affliction, this spirit of fear, all work of darkness assigned to me in Jesus name, I bind and break you! In Jesus' name, I command you to go from me and never return again! You have no power and dominion over me because I am a worshipper of God. I am a child of God. Holy spirit, fill me with God's love, joy and peace. I thank You for healing me. I thank you that you are restoring me back to health and healing all my wounds. I thank you that my immune system is getting stronger everyday. I claim your promises for me of Isaiah 7 that the cancer will not rise up against me, it will not happen, it will not take place. They will be too shattered, pulverized into dust, expelled from my body. I just stand firm on your word and it will be established. Thank you for you say in Isaiah 55:11 that you watch over your word to perform it. Thank you that you send forth your word and healed me. Thank you for your word for they are life and spirit (John 6;63). Thank you for the power and authority you have given me. In Jesus' name I pray Amen.

Please continue to pray for me. I am truly blessed to be in the body of Christ.

Jungle trekking and cable car ride in Langkawi

Jungle trekking and cable car ride at Langkawi

We were blessed to be one of the earliest to reach the cable car station. There was no steep and windy drive up to the mountains because the cable car ride starts from the base station at the Oriental Village. Then it goes up to the intermediate station. It is a very steep ride and quite fast too considering how steep it is! Very powerful machine! Once we hit the intermediate station, the ride from here to the peak is what we can see from the hotel, way up in the mountains. It is more than just a ride. We got down at the peak and went up to the observatory deck. Then, we went downhill, a little jungle trekking towards the sky bridge. It is like a canopy walk except we are way high above canopies and the bridge is made of made of metal and stone. Nic and I keep wondering how they manage to build it!

Nic and Henry both were a wee bit afraid of heights. Nic kept wondering what if the bridge came down. I told him how is it possible if God love us so much? The whole journey he also asked many times what will happen if the black hole sucked in planet earth. I told him it will never happen because 2 Peter 3:7 says that heaven and earth are preserved by God's word. The world will be renovated, never destroyed in the sense that the whole planet earth will disappear.

2 Peter 3:7

7 But the heavens and the earth which are now preserved by the same word, are reserved for fire until the day of judgment and perdition of ungodly men.

So, we can be rest assured the black hole won't swallow us up!

Ethan and I on the other hand enjoyed the sky bridge, both fearless and brave.. ha ha! The walk back up to the peak was a painful one for me. I was so breathless and that is really due to the lack of exercise, lack of stamina. Those sights of the ladies in stilettos climbing Batu Caves and panting and I always wondered why they are so breathless -now I understand! Ethan too decided to whine and asked poor Henry to carry him. Thank God it was only for 2 flights of stairs and not the whole way! Henry said it was a good work out.

So, in summary Nic gave a thumbs up for the cable car ride but thumbs down for the jungle trekking bit. Ethan, on the other hand gave thumbs up to both the cable car ride and the jungle trekking despite the whining.

One improvement I noticed from all the recent exercises was my thigh muscles did not ache at all that night. Whoo wheee! That is really a great improvement!

On Sunday morning, I woke up feeling more painful at the side of the waist. I think I pulled my nerve even more as I got out of bed. As I coughed, the pain was so excruciating, at one point I cried because I wanted to cough but I couldn't. The word that calmed me down and gave me strength was

Joel 3:10
"Beat your plowshares into swords and your pruning hooks into spears: let the weak say, I am strong." and

Ephesians 6:10
"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power."

I kept saying "I am strong" and "I am strong in Your mighty power".

Then, I would gain strength and not worry about it anymore. I went to soak in the sea and enjoyed God's creation around me. The clouds, the blue skies were beautiful. The mountains before me were dark green and way up the mountains I see the cable car ride again. The sea was calm and warm and there was no one else around except a man riding on a horse galloped on the beach passed me and greeted "Hello!". Then I soaked in the jacuzzi to ease the pain.

By noon, after a nap, I felt much stronger even though it is still hurt every time I coughed. As soon as we reached home, the pain was just a numbing pain and I can cough without excruciating pain now. Praise the Lord! Praise God for His strength. Did you know in Isaiah 27:5, God says we can reach out to take His strength. It is never our own strength that we overcome the pain but God's strength and it is so easy when we just rest in Him and let Him help us. Go ahead, reach out for His strength! :)

Isaiah 27:5

"Or let him take hold of my strength, ..."

Greetings from Langkawi Island

Greetings from Langkawi Island

As we were about to land, I saw rain coming down from some rain clouds and rain streaming down vertically but elsewhere Langkawi is dry! What a sight!

We're staying at Danna Hotel. It reminds me of Raffles Hotel in Singapore and even Henry agreed. He said it is like old English colonial style. This is the nicest hotel we've ever stayed. The boys love it so much, they keep wanting to go back to the hotel room. You know why? Because they want to use the big bath tub. It has a sliding door between the bath tub and the bedroom. The bathroom is almost as big as the room! It is also the first hotel that served healthy celery and apple juice, no sugar added as their welcome drink plus a free neck and shoulder massage. Gee, we're really treated like royal family here. It is so luxurious! 

Oh, the pool is huge, lots of shallow parts for the kids with an overflowing pool overlooking the sea and another big area for jacuzzi.

When we first arrived, I wasn't feeling well. Each time I cough, the side of my waist, a bit to the back hurts. I was tired, I hurt and fear set in. Thank God I brought my healing scripture book "Healed of Cancer" by Dodie Osteen. She quoted John 10:10

"10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."

She would read aloud this verse everyday. But I found it useful to cast out the fear in me last night. She said she would say "Devil, you are not going to steal my health. You have not stolen my health, and you will not steal it. You will not kill me, and you will never destroy me, because I am a worshipper of God. I do His will, and He hears me. Jesus has come that I may have life, and have it more abundantly." I was quoting many other healing scriptures and the confidence arose in me again and by bedtime, worry had left me. Today, I could enjoy myself with my family, I even took a swim, sat in the jacuzzi to massage the hurting part and went to The Underwater World. Nic said he loves the penguins at the UW because they can "fly" underwater!

I suddenly realize how wonderful God's word is as medicine. It really is health food, spiritually, more important that healthy food that we consume daily because God's words feed our soul, our hearts, our spirit and then it overflows to the body and that is how healing takes place. It is not about whether it is God's will or how much faith we have. In my earlier journey all I could say is that it is different for everyone's journey but everyone has to walk their journey. Now, I understand more in detail. So, this morning,even as I woke up early in the morning, I just wanted to take in God's word and just kept repeating it over and over again until I felt God's assurance and love for me.

The pain is still there as I write but there is no anxiety. Last night when I was filled with anxiety, I actually felt weaker but today I am enjoying myself despite the pain. I sense the holy spirit telling me, don't worry, it is just muscle pain. Praise the Lord! Please pray for me too. 

The cable car is high up in the mountains and we can actually see it from the swimming pool. At night it is lit up. It is so high up in the mountains. The drive up there must be interesting. Maybe a steep and windy road?

A Miracle Healing Explosion with Dr. Vernon Falls

Dr Vernon Falls has ministered in over 100 nations of the world with mighty signs, wonders, miracles and gifts of the holy spirit.

Venue:
Renewal Lutheran Church
Lot 5, Jalan 51A/221
Petaling Jaya
(near Jalan 222 next to Sato Building)

Date: 18 June 2011

Time: 7 pm

Bring the sick and afflicted as Jesus does the healing.

Parking within the church is reserved for the elderly, the infirm, families with children and newcomers. You can park near the church or a parking lot marked prominently as "RLC Parking" along Jalan 222. Shuttle vans run every 5-7 mins an hour before and after the service. On rainy days, please drop passengers at the main porch. If you are walking alone to.your vehicle, feel free to ask for an escort at the guard house.

Update - God's love for me

Update - God's love for me

It was 3.45 am when I woke up last Sunday and I went downstairs to do my devotion. I saw flashes of lightning and you know by now, that makes me very happy and I immediately sensed God's presence. Then it started to rain. That brought a smile to my face, filled my heart with joy but what I did not expect was when I finished devotion at about 5 am and headed upstairs to sleep again, the rain stopped! I really felt it was a special moment between God and I! Lightning and rain showers just for me. Thank You Lord for your love for me. :)

Exercise - so far so good. This week, I exercised on Monday and Wednesday (today). Thank you so much to Karen Kerr who smsed me to check whether I was going to exercise on Monday. I really really needed that. It has been hard to get into routine.

Teeny wheezing and mild gastric pain - hmmm, all these symptoms came up in the wee hours in the morning (today) when I woke up. It brought fear to my heart and I used my authority to bind and break it and I commanded the wheezing and the spirit of pain, fear and affliction to leave me in Jesus' name. It did not seem to be hunger pain but just in case it was, I drank nutrifresh (e excel) and ate a slice of bread. Then I popped a charcoal pill. Really, all this I just look to the holy spirit to guide me. I went upstairs and Henry asked for the time. I told him about the pain and wheezing and I asked for him to lay hands on me and pray for me. I sense he must do it everyday for me. There is something about a husband's prayer for his wife. The next morning, he asked how I am. I checked and said, I am healed! Praise the Lord! Can you imagine that wheezing can just go off like that? Nothing is impossible for God. :) 

As what God told me on Monday, I really need to spend more time speaking out His word and casting out all doubts and unbelief several times a day. That is the only way to strengthen my inner man. As I sang "Through it All" this morning, it brought tears to my eyes. I long so much to be with Him...God is good, He delivered me once again!

I look to You

I look to You

I love you Lord, I love you Lord, I worship You, I magnify You, I exalt You, You are my tower and refuge, my deliverer and my fortress. I look to You, o Lord, I gaze on the unseen. I love You Lord.

We sang this song at Elpizo yesterday. It is a beautiful love song to God as we worshipped in spirit and in truth.

Through It All lyrics (by Hillsong United)

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

Everlasting Father, I love You
Ever living Savior, I love You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

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Update - Happy Holidays!

Update

I had a busy week last week when the kids were with us during their school holidays. My mum and I took the kids up to Genting Highland and initially I thought we will make the kids relax with us at the apartment. I wasn't so interested in walking all the way to the indoor theme park at First World. I was hoping to save as much energy as possible. Alas! We did everything in the end. We took the cable car ride and we went on the rides in the indoor theme park, even swam at the apartment! Even my mum went on the rides! My favorite part was the 4D Motion Master which is currently showing pirates. It was quite amusing observing Ethan holding on to the handles and being flunk up and down, left and right. It is actually pretty thrilling. The food was horrendously expensive.

That night, my thigh muscles were aching so much I told my mum I wish I could cut them off! I prayed and prayed in all sorts of prayers including tongues and meditating on His word and in the middle of the night, my dear mum gave me a rub on the legs. 

I found two verses that really assured me 

Psalm 138:7
Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life;

Romans 8:11
But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwells in you.


The next morning, she asked me how I felt and I said I am healed! Praise the Lord! I had also used the negative ion clothing and wrapped more layers round my thighs and I thank God that His healing power just flowed through all these garments for my healing.

Henry and I also took the kids to watch Kungfu Panda 2. Ethan remember all the little scene. Do you remember a scene when Kungfu panda flew in the air and said a slow motion "I love youuuu"? Yup, he replays that scene with his fist in the air!

Bible class has been keeping me on my toes with tons of homework, group prayer meetings every week over and above the classes, wall of fire prayer meets, pop quizes and exams. Last night we had one and a half hours of examination on bibliology. Thank God we were allowed access to our bibles, notes and even discussion within our group, sort of like a group challenge. But we were to write down all relevant scriptures and I was frantically writing them down and still trying to make time for the other questions. Whew! I am so glad that it is over for that topic.

We're off for holidays with the kids again very soon so it's busy busy time again. I just thank God for the strength and I do try to get plenty of rest even while on holiday. Happy hols to you too! :)

God's promises fulfilled in the proper time

Luke 1:20

"And behold, you will be silent and unable to speak until the day that these things take place, because you did not believe my words, which will be fulfilled in their time."

My spirit arose as i read "my words, which will be fulfilled in their time". When God gives a rhema to us, we can expect it to come true but unbelief can hinder us to live out what Christ has in store for us.

God is teaching me to claim His promises and that His promises will come true at their proper time. He tells me to believe and to cast out all spirit of unbelief in Jesus' name. I sense Him saying I should do it several times a day if I have to until I am confident and so sure that there is no sickness left. He wants me to keep pressing on and to keep using His words to speak it out so that my faith may be increased.

It was unbelief that got Eve into trouble as she believed the serpent's words over God's commandment to her and she got deceived. But when we believe in God's words, His promises come true and wonderful things happen. The bible says:

We experience the holy spirit -

John 7:37
"He who believes in Me, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water." 

If it is God's rhema word for you , we can believe it will come true in it's proper time. Just keep planting His words in you, keep speaking it and it shall be done for you.

John 15:7
"If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you."  

Thank you Lord for this morning's devotion. It is so wonderful to just experience your presence and being with You!