Two years of new life!

Two years of new life!

It has been two years when I was first at hospital to check what was wrong with me, why the cough would not go away. Since that first night at the hospital, it has really been an exciting journey watching God bring people to my life, experiencing how real He is, actually received His plans for me, learning more about Him in Leong Tien Fook's class, Deeper Life Seminar and Bachelor of Ministry. Most of all, I experienced love from the body of Christ itself and how together with the prayers of the saints, each time I faced a tough situation He always delivers me whenever I ask for prayers!

I think even though I started with a measure of faith, He increased my faith because from the first night, He just gave me such peace that everything will be alright. He has sustained me so far with the word of God, signs, encouragement from friends especially word of knowledge through the spirit.

This verse spoke to me this morning. It is from Hebrews 6:12

"We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised."

The opposite without this rich experience with God through this journey is like this verse. A life of laziness, losing our priorities, the loss of how BIG our God is, being persuaded by our friends that what they do is alright even though the bible says differently. Slowly, we become spiritually dull and indifferent. So, I am warned this morning to never go back to the way I was.

The joy of walking with God far out shadows the cancer. I don't think about cancer, not because I am in denial but just a strong peace that everything is going to be alright because I believe I am healed in the spiritual realm. It is just it always bewilders me how to transfer head knowledge to my spirit man and my friends tell me to just receive it like a child. I do i do but being traditional, I have so many queries in my mind. Only a few weeks ago, God gave me this revelation and I finally have the answer!

I know God does not bring sickness to me. Yet, when faced with this question, "Is it God's will to heal me?", the answer would be "It is up to God's will and sovereignty" (traditional view) or "God does not bring sickness to you". (those who believe in healing). I agree with both but it does not answer my question! I definitely do not want to pray a pleading prayer all the time because how can I be confident? It has been 2 years and no satisfying answer but recently, He opened my eyes! I got it, I got! I was dancing and groovin'.

If it is not God's will to heal, that means it is His will for you to remain sick. So, no servant of God can pray for you because the poor servant of God will come against God's will. We also should not look to doctors to get well, because if we do get well, it might come against God's will and we don't want trouble with God!

Therefore, there is a difference between:
1. It is God's will for you to be sick;  and
2.  It is God's will that you should go home to be with the Lord.

God does not bring sickness to you. Therefore, it is God's will for you to be well again, to be healed!  In this way, you can now appropriate healing, receive God's healing and claim all of God's promises for your healing with confidence that He hears our prayers (1 John 5:14). Just believe (Mark 11:24). Even though we do not really understand the term "appropriation", God still has mercy and compassion and does grant instant healing even to non believers. I have seen this in the many miracle rallies I have attended. Sometimes, it is God's will for you to be called home. That is God's sovereignty, God's will for you to be called home and we have no say about it because God is sovereign. It is far better to be home with God than to be here on earth yet there is a time for everything, even for dying.

The real journey is that person's itself. We do not know what is in their heart, what dark past they have, what unforgiveness they have, what desires they have. Maybe they really can't take the pain and want to go home. And God hears our desires and does not let us suffer more than what we can bear.

All I know is I can now confidently say it is God's will to heal when you fall sick and that is not the same with God's will to take us home. I can't believe how we could have been on the wrong wave length all this time!
 
Thank you Lord for this revelation. Thank you for leading me, guiding me, building me up all this time. It has been a great adventure indeed!  :) as for the cancer, you are under my feet, you are pulverized, dead, dead, dead, finished, pulverized into dust and expelled from my body in Jesus' name! I thank you Lord that You are restoring me back to health and healing all my wounds. ( Jeremiah 30:17)