Actually I don’t know what to write anymore. After sharing by some meaningful friends to be careful what I share, not to explain myself and after a heated debate with a home group member, things were beginning to look ugly. My heart was discouraged but I have been seeking God even more and letting His word speak to me instead. Everything’s alright now with my home group member and I. We quickly made up not allowing the devil to work strife in our home group.
I suppose that’s why it’s taken me so long to write since I did not want to spark any debates. I know many speak with love and not wanting me to be carried away with charismatics. Still I am on this journey of seeking and I pray you will allow the holy spirit to guide me and to help me discern accordingly. Last night I slept repeating these words to myself over and over again “Have courage. Just as you testified to me in Jerusalem so will you testify about me in Rome” (Acts 23:11). I will not be discouraged but go on testifying what God has done for me.
Last night, in Deeper Life Seminar, we learned about “Hearing the voice of God”. Margaret Falls taught how we mainly hear God’s words from the bible. The other ways we can hear God are from audible voice of God (e.g. Gen 15:1) , angels (Luke 1:19), dreams (eg 1 Kings 3:5), visions (e.g. Acts 10:17), prophecy (Acts 11:27-30), still small voice (1 Kings 19:12-13), prompting (Acts 8:29-36) and inner witness (Acts 10:19) but all these must line up to God’s word and that’s how we know whether it is from God. DLS helped encouraged me to know what I experienced in my journey is true because that’s how I sought God and he answered me mostly through His word, soft promptings, prophecy from friends and all that lines up to God’s word. What crushed my spirit 2 weeks ago was when my home group member advised me that Isaiah 53 did not refer healing to physical but ONLY to the soul and that I can’t claim it.
As I went to bed last night after reading the bible, I heard what God say to me which I wrote down in my journal:
“Come to me daily and read my word and I will reveal more to you. Obey me, come and talk to me daily and I will reveal great things to you. Do not be easily discouraged. He does not know the things that you know. Strengthen your heart and your mind by abiding in me. Draw strength from me like a vine from a branch. Remain in my love always and there will be peace of heart.”
Then I started to cry because after 8 months I am beginning to “talk” again with God like I did 11 years ago. The reason why we spend time with God be it in personal prayer and personal devotion is so we can be sensitive to what God wants to say to us.
I pray that God will touch you and open your ears to hear him and experience His mighty love all over again.
John 6:63
The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life.
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hi bunny
ReplyDeletei know what you are saying when people have a different view and yet you are so convinced about it. well, the good news is, God is bigger than what we interpret in the bible. some of us can be wrong, some of us can be right, but God would not, on account of our "confusion" stop to heal or work! He is greater than our error. I remember a time when I asked Him,"gosh, so difficult to discern, so how do illiterate do it?" then it came on to me: child like faith! believing in Him in everything and meantime, try to catch up in learning! :)