Faith of a Mustard Seed

This issue of faith of a mustard seed troubled me till no end. I do not agree with healers who say to those that did not receive healing that it was because of their own lack of faith. It is heart wrenching to know these people want healing so badly but did not receive healing. So, I was very excited when I read Kathryn Kuphlan’s book and saw her same struggle. It haunted her for weeks!

She wrote:

“I waited expectantly for the answer, and it came. …….
I listened now, as the little woman spoke “As you were preaching on the Holy Ghost, she said, telling us that in Him lay the resurrection power, I felt the power of God flow through my body. Although not a word has been spoken regarding the healing of the sick, I knew instantly and definitely that my body had been healed. So sure was I of this, that I went to the doctor today and had my healing verified”

"The Holy Spirit then was the answer, an answer so profound that no human being can fathom the full extent of its depth and power, and yet so simple that most folks miss! I understood that night why there was no need for a healing line; no healing virtue in a card or a personality; no necessity for wild exhortations “to have faith”. That was the beginning of this healing ministry which God has given to me; strange to some because of the fact that hundreds have been healed just sitting quietly in the audience, without demonstration whatsoever, and without even admonition. This is because the presence of the Holy Spirit has been in such abundance that by His Presence alone, sick bodies are healed, even as people wait on the outside of the building for the doors to open. …….."

She went on to explain the concept of Holy Trinity to help us understand how healing takes place and that we are to look at Jesus.

She wrote:

“The three persons of the Trinity, God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Ghost are a unity. They are co-existent infinite and eternal. …..But although the three work together as one, each has at the same time His own distinctive function.”

I summarise:

1. God the Father planned and purposed the creation and the redemption of man. We cannot come before God on our own because He is so holy. Remember God spoke to Moses out of the pillar of cloud in Exodus 33:9 assuring him that His Presence would be with the Israelites? Remember in verse 11 God spoke to Moses “face to face” out of the cloud, but when Moses asked to see God’s glory, God told Him: “You cannot see My face; for no man shall see Me, and live” (in verse 20). This will always be my favourite passage to remember how awesome His glory is, how we CANNOT stand before a Holy God, NOT EVEN if we think we have done enough good deeds, enough charity etc. We will DIE if we stand before Him without Jesus.

2. Jesus purchased our redemption at Calvary. His death on the cross made possible God’s eternal plan for us. All that we receive from the Father MUST come through JESUS, and that is why at the very heart of our faith is JESUS. When we pray, we come before the Father’s throne in Jesus’ name.

3. The Holy Spirit is the power of the trinity. It was His power which raised Jesus from the dead. (Romans 8:11 "And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.") It is that same Resurrection power that flows through our physical bodies today, healing and sanctifying. In short, when we pray in the Name of Jesus, the Father sees us perfect, holy and righteous BECAUSE Jesus paid the price in full for our redemption, and in JESUS, lies the ANSWER to every human need.

She continued “God honors the redemptive work of Jesus by giving to us through Him, the desire of our hearts. Thus, while it is the Resurrection power of the Holy Spirit which performs the actual healing of the physical body, Jesus made it perfectly clear that we are to look at JESUS, the son, in faith, for He is the One who has made all these things possible.”

And in that context, that is all we need - a faith of a mustard seed.

Faith is NOT presumption. Kathryn describes many misconceived faith as follows – I picture a witch brewing her potion.

“There are many who mix the ingredients of their own mental attitude with a little confidence, a pinch of trust and a generous handful of religious egotism. They proceed to add some belief, along with many other ingredients, and mixing in a spiritual apothecary’s crucible, they label the total result faith. Actually the consequence of this heterogeneous mixture is more likely to be presumption than faith”

Our faith is not in the words “In the name of Jesus!”. Our faith is not just in rebuking and casting out evil spirits. Our faith is in JESUS, the One who has made all these things possible, the One that will meet our heart’s desire, including healing. We won’t go wrong when we look at the cross.

Eelech - No Power Whatsoever

I am so thankful for Uncle Allen, his wife Sally, Pek Hoon, Steven and Rosalind who came trooping in again to my house on 25 August 2009 (Tues) for prayer and worship. I felt His AWESOME presence again. Uncle Allen calls it the "Shekinah Glory". Each time they come, I receive confirmation once again that God has healed me! It confirms God’s direct revelation to me- His rhema for me, confirmation of God’s words from cousins and friends and confirmation of healing for me from His many miracles upon me in this journey (See my blog "Update and Thanksgiving for more MIRACLES!").

I feel I am on fast track with God. He is revealing so much to me and I still have more questions for Him.

These past 2 weeks I’ve been searching God’s words on prayers, His sovereignty and His healing powers. Thanks Ee Tan for the book “I believe in miracles” by Kathryn Kuhlman. I never understood before my trial how healing works. I have wondered if some of the healing that I saw on stage was fake. I remember Marvin teaching me that ultimately if the miracle glorifies God, that is all that matters. If the healer gets glorified, then that is so wrong! That itself ties to His sovereignty.

Isaiah 42:
"I am the LORD; that is my name! I will not give my glory to another or my praise to idols".

This is our God.

He will not share His glory with anyone including the healer who has received the gift of healing. I realized from reading Kathryn Kuhlman’s book and from my conversations with Hamir and Steven Lee who ministers to others that they have no healing power. When I witnessed how Hamir or Steven tell me God’s words that can be verified later I am amazed but they tell me “I have no power – eelech (Indian for nothing). It is God. We are just His servants”.

I can’t help but be in awe but these people must be so humble to say they have no power. But now I realise that it is because they know their position with God. They recognize that God is sovereign. He is THAT big. I personally am only beginning to grasp how awesome He is and recognizing that He is sovereign. I am looking for bible verses to see who he says He is. And the more I seek and the more I experience His healing and His miracles for me, the more I am humbled myself and that is the same awe that Kathryn, Hamir and Steven experience(d) before our Sovereign King.

This is what Kathryn wrote in her book which was published in 1962!

“If you believe that I, as an individual, have any power to heal, you are dead wrong. I have had nothing to do with any miracle recorded in this book, nor have I had anything to do with any healing that has taken place in any physical body. I have no healing power whatsoever. All I can do is point you to the way – I can lead you to the Great Physician and I can pray; but the rest is left with you and God. He has done for countless others. What He does for you depends on YOU.”

At the beginning of my journey I was struggling with whom I should pray to. In the back of my mind I knew Jesus held the answer to it all but I was all so rusty. At first I was praying to God as the sovereign God and all those Psalms were God talking to me. Then I felt I betrayed Jesus for not reaching out to Him. I was in much confusion. King Wai and Ps Soo Inn said it doesn't matter. They are one and the same but they have their distintive roles. Now, I am beginning to learn all over again about the Holy Trinity. When seeking healing, I look at Jesus, at what He did on the cross for me, that He even bore my sickness by His wounds (1 Pet 2:24) I look at Jesus because by His death, He has purchased my redemption with His blood. Redemption from the wrath of God I so deserve. Because I understand from the old testament that you oh Father God, Your GLORY is so AWESOME that I cannot come before you on my own (NOT EVEN if I did many good deeds), You are that holy and you are my Sovereign God! I look at Jesus for he says in John 14:6,7 "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really knew me, you would know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him."

Thank you Jesus for the cross. Thank you Father God for loving us that much that you gave your son to us to die for us. Thank you Holy Spirit that flows through me for healing. Thank you Lord for everything.

Update and Thanksgiving for more MIRACLES!

Thanks Sue. I've put your comments here so we can extend our prayer that reach to the heavens:

"Dear Bunny, thank you for sharing out a beautiful prayer that I can echo in my heart. Yes, let us pray that FBC will unite as a family of God, and be aflame for God. Let each and every member of FBC be aware and honestly evaluate their relationship to God, and rededicate their life to God. Purify us, so that we can reflect God's glory. Love you dear sis...the biggest hug! "

Guess what? I have stopped coughing. I no longer cough. My mum, who has been so wonderfully taking care of me, feeding me with good food and splitting her hair how to cook vegetables and grains more creatively, confirmed this yesterday! Even when I drink cold water eg the cold enzymes (thanks Rosalind), I do not cough. Henry has also been saying for the past week that I have such warm hands. Before, sometimes my hands can be a bit wet and clammy. Also, he noticed my double chin for the first time yesterday. I've only been praying specifically for the food to "build my resistance, build my reserves, feed my healthy cells and not the malignant cells and oh Lord, help me GAIN WEIGHT to my normal healthy weight" since last week. Our God is a living God, who answers prayers. Even Adrian and Sook Yian who have not seen me for the past 3 days says my face and limbs are a bit more fleshy. Hallelujah, praise the Lord. These are all confirmation of miracles after miracles from God. Thank you Lord for you are my healer!

Psalm 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

Indeed God is my healer, my HELPER and He is sovereign, all powerful, all mighty! He makes the medicine work with only ONE tarceva tablet where I started turning around quite dramatically and He gave me good food from blessings of family, friends and nutritionist.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

Yes, He never slumber nor sleeps. This is our God. Powerful and loving. His love is beyond all human understanding!

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

Yes, we do not even have to fear H1N1 if our trust is in God as we can claim His promises as He is a God that cannot lie and His words are flawless, yes FLAWLESS. This is our God.

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Amen! Praise the Lord! I will sing of His mercies forever and ever!

Prayer for First Baptist Church

Let us pray together and ask God to help us in our church and that His hand be upon us everyday and during the church business meeting this Sunday. It can't be business as usual anymore. We need to put on the armor of God, get on our knees to pray and act. The battle belongs to our GOD. He will answer our prayers and deliver us! I claim Ps 91:15! I believe because He loves us that much. (Please watch the first box you tube on your right.)

Lord,
We pray against the spirit of dissension and factions in Jesus Name!
We bind the evil forces that want to tear our church apart in Jesus Name!
We pray against all the evil desires in people's hearts that that goes against God's plans for this church in Jesus Name!
We cast out any self-righteous spirit that may be present in the members in Jesus name!
We pray against the schemes of the evil one and that the hearts of our members will not be swayed / deceived by him in Jesus' name!
We ask that YOU nullify the discord sewn by human agents in FBC & BREAK the spirits that bind them in Jesus name!
Cast out, O LORD all hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions, pride and envy from amongst us in Jesus' Name!
Do NOT let satan have even a toehold on FBC
Stop the evil one from devouring our church and her members
Help us to SUBMIT to you first, O LORD and thus resist the devil, that he will flee from us
Lead us NOT into temptation, but deliver us from the devil.
Help us NOT to stumble NOR cause others to stumble in our action or inaction.
Restore to us the fruit of the Spirit - love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control
Restore us the love that you gave us
Remind us that Christ died for the church to make us holy,
Purify us O LORD and help us be that radiant church again
Help FBC be a church on fire for you again O Lord
Use us for your glory in Malaysia and beyond!
In Jesus Name, Amen!

Prayer for Aunty Beverly

Let's all pray together for Aunty Beverly from my church as one united family in the body of Christ and apply all that we have learned in our journey together. She is going through chemo this morning. Tet Shin's sms just now (25/8/09 10.15am) :

"Bev going for last cycle of third line chemo this morn. Pls pray for high enough red cell and platelet count, flawless administration of drugs and their working to stop the cancer"

Let's pray "I rebuke you cancer cells in aunt beverly to get out now from her in Jesus' name. I cast you cancer cells from Aunt Beverly in Jesus' name. Cancer cells, you have no power or dominion over Aunt Beverly. She is a child of God. She is a temple of God. There is no room for you in her. I command you to get out from her in Jesus' name! Blood count of Aunty Beverly, arise and bless your creator in Jesus' name. Platelet of Aunty Beverly, I command you to arise and bless your creator, in Jesus' name. Blood count, platelet of Aunty Beverly, I command you to worship your Creator and go back to normal, in Jesus' name. I command every cell and organ of Aunty Beverly, be nourished by the food that she eats in Jesus' name and build up you immune system to generate T cells to hunt down any remaining cancer cells and destroy it completely, in Jesus' name! And I claim Mark 11:24 that whatever I ask in prayer and believe it, it will be mine. Yes, I believe Lord. I believe you will break the lies of the enemies, all the lies and doubts and fears in her heart will break now in Jesus' name. And Father God, I know you will show your mighty love for her and reveal yourself to her with your holy spirit. Let her know that she will live, she will live, not to give up, not to give up but trust in you completely for you are a living God and you are all powerful, all consuming and you will indeed burn all those lies and doubts from her mind. And I ask for a ring of fire to be around her mind and to stay there to burn up all lies and doubts planted by the enemy. The lies of the enemy will not come near her. I claim Psalm 91 for her that she will not be hit by the arrow that flies by day for it will not come near her. I claim it for her in Jesus' name! And I ask for your divine intervention upon her today Oh Lord. And I ask the blood of Jesus to flow through each and very cell, organ, every part of Aunt Beverly and heal her completely, restore her completely and make her whole again. And I ask all this in Jesus' name.

Superfood Recipe

I'm so excited, I have to share this with you. Last night I managed to cook a meal for myself and my family and it catered to my condition as well. I am on a no sugar, no salt, no oil diet, just so I can starve the cancer cells. Dr Ibrahim does not agree with me as he says that all food you eat will eventually turn to glucose in the body. But I believe God gave us natural food to eat to build our immune systems to kill those evil cancer cells. So God is more powerful, so let's not worry about the glucose in our body. Whatever you do, don't take white stuff - white rice, white sugar, white bread. Instead, eat brown rice, molasses or natural cane sugar (organic shop) and Adventis bread (really yummy when toasted). Use sea salt rather than processed salt. Amazingly, I did not know about any of this before my trial. Organic food is so expensive, I would just walk out! Still, I realise now how badly our vegetables are sprayed with pesticides (even Edge reported on it 2 weeks ago) and our meat is tainted with hormones. Sigh. Please wash your vege and fruits properly with some vege wash.

Anyway, back to this recipe.

I used:

60 ml quinoa (thanks Anita) (ha ha - I just used the little medicine cup that has reading to 15 ml. 4 cups of that) (high in protein, rich in calcium, iron & phosforus)
2 leeks (rich in manganese, vit c & iron) (thanks Hamir)
1/2 white onion (contain 25 active compounds that appear to inhibit the growth of cancerous cells)
1/2 carrot (rich in vt A)
1/2 cabbage (rich in vit K and vit c)
1 tbsp of kei chi or wolfberries (chinese med shop) (rich in B1 and B6 and lots more)
1 tbsp of flax seed (rich in alpha-linolenic acid (ALA), an essential fatty acid - good for the heart)(thanks Grace and many others)
750 ml water

I am super lazy when hungry. So I just dump all the ingredients including water and turn to high heat until it boils. Then lower it to medium heat stirring now and then for a few minutes. Then turn down the flame to low to cook for 30 mins. There is no oil no salt.

Meanwhile (that's while the vege mix is simmering), I boil the quinoa noodles/ soya noodles/spaghetti (from organic shop) till al dente and strain it.

Then I scoop our my portion of the vege mix with soup into a bowl and add in my portion of quinoa noodles (thanks Tzu Anne) for myself. Splash a dash of Braggs Liquid Amino (from organic shop) (thanks siew may) and voila - that's my dinner. :)

I then whip out the blender (thanks to my cell group - TRYGOS) - pour in the vege mix, put in some sea salt and grind in the pepper, a tsp of mushroom powder or vege broth (to cheat, from organic shop or cold storage) AND a dash of cream (whipping cream from cold storage). My mum said I put in too much, so use your good judgment!

Blend it all. Pour it out into 4 shallow soup dishes. Put in the noodles OR serve as soup with toasted Adventis bread (thanks Bee Lian and Cheng Yi). Enjoy!

What would I do without all my friends. I know organic prices are crazy and it did occur to me about the poor who have no organic food to eat. Indeed God is great. If he can provide for the birds, the bees and the flowers, what more His children. Thanks so much for your blessings upon me friends. You alone are blessings from God. So, I return this blessing to you in form of a recipe. Eat healthy friends. :)

Update

I have zits on my head and it's itchy. But it has no power and no dominion over me. I rebuke it and cast it out in Jesus' name. Amen!

During bible study last Friday, we sang a few songs. I was pleasantly surprised that I was enjoying singing aloud without coughing. I was able to sustain all the notes without coughing. We had a tremendous time of worship. I felt God's presence! Like the song. Be still, the Holy one is here! Awesome! I was enjoying the worship so much that the words "NEW LUNGS" came to my mind. Yes, I claim it in Jesus' name. Thank you Lord, for giving me new lungs. To God be the glory!

Led by the Holy Spirit

I just realised something. It is easier said than done to “Turn to God . Fall on your knees”. At one point before even my diagnosis, I asked God. Lord, if Hamir is right and you will use me to share your word, then I pray you will give me the Holy Spirit because I am not brave enough to speak. UNKNOWINGLY, that was the beginning of my adventure – because I ASKED for the Holy Spirit to come upon me. I was spiritually very dry at that time but I was starting to read the bible again and praying (not very victoriously) because my coughing just wouldn’t stop.

This adventure of returning to God is like peeling of an onion. As each layer of sin is removed, I can hear God better.

If we do not ask for fresh anointing of Holy Spirit daily and willingly die to self and live for Christ, then we allow attacks of lies from the devil. The wall between God and us will become thicker and thicker and soon, we can’t hear – we won’t hear God anymore. Then, from powerful Christians in Christ, we become defeated cancered Christians.

Ask for the Holy spirit! Desire it and on bended knees – ask God for Holy Spirit to come upon you. Like fresh anointing of NEW oil. Old oil is smelly, new oil is fragrant. Ask for fresh anointing of the Holy Spirit upon you. That is really the beginning of your journey, for without God, without the Holy Spirit, we work with our flesh, our own strength. We TRY to be sincere. We TRY to be kind hearted but all with our own selfish motives.

But led by the Holy Spirit, we begin to see miracles after miracles and ultimately God is glorified! Led by the Holy Spirit, we just LONG to do things for God. We just long to go to church – not because we have to – we desire it because we want to worship God. So, if you ever have this longing, know that the Holy Spirit has touched you! Praise the Lord! As usual, the devil will make life difficult for you but persevere and just go with His prompting and you will be greatly blessed!

It is hard to explain but here is a recent example of being led by the Holy Spirit. Last year, King Wai felt a burden to hold a youth concert. He didn’t know why but he just obeyed this prompting and the youths agreed and started rehearsing 2 to 3 months ago. I did not know this until yesterday and apparently, they felt discouraged along the way from comments made but they too persevered knowing ultimately, God will be glorified. The past 2 weeks I have had this great longing to see the youth concert. It’s strange to have this longing. Normally I am too busy with my family to think of even of such concerts. Maybe alien movies for my kids! But I sensed God will use them mightily for the church revival so I too followed His prompting for me to go. I also went partly because I wanted to see for myself this group that God was going to use. Just hearing them play and sing during rehearsal was awesome! And that was just rehearsal! God was right! He was pleased with them and I sensed His big wave of love enveloping us at the church sanctuary. So I blogged about it not knowing that it would be a great encouragement to them. And that night on 22 August 2009, I heard 85% of the youths who attended the Elevate ’09 youth concert rededicated their lives to God. So, who gets ALL the glory? God! God is sovereign. God is awesome. God is loving because he desires to have a relationship with all of us. Please love him and return back to Him.

Desire and ask for the Holy Spirit.

For those who are already “in” His presence, just listen and obey. He will always prompt you. Like what was said in the Spiderman movie, “With power comes great responsibility”. Yes, we have much to do for God’s kingdom. Not on our strength but led by the Holy Spirit.

Rhema Again!

God just won't let go this topic from me. Just when I think I have gotten it, Isa tells me it is not what people say His words are for you (that's more for confirmation) but what did God say to you? And I think to myself - a lot! God tells me a lot. And roughly, I know God's rhema for me for healing but I never wrote it down on paper. Then, I pick up Freeda Brooke's book on healing and she asked me to write down 3 verses that really abides in me! What this means is that these words will really come alive in me and burns in me. I do say the rhema that I have in mind lifts my spirit and I claim them in Jesus' name but I am still walking the journey of it burning in me. I do believe it is for me only, in my situation because I have to address the issues that I will remain faithful in reading His word, to be wise in Him and not my own ways. Also, he says healing will come quickly to me, and so I claim that it Jesus' name!

So, FINALLY, I wrote down 4 rhema in my journal which I will keep reading it until it burns in my heart and really, REALLY comes alive. Here it goes:

It is written in Isaiah 53:5: "....and by his wounds we are healed."

It is written in Proverbs 3:1-2: " My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you prosperity."

It is written in Proverbs 3:7-8: " Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones."

It is written in Isaiah 58:8: "Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear".

There! I finally got it down on paper yesterday. This morning after meditating and trying to memorise Ps 91, I came down stairs and *ping*, a sms came in from Steven Lee. It was confirmation of Isaiah 58:8. Yay! Praise the Lord. My spirit is lifted even more!

Thank you Lord! You are indeed an awesome God. And you are with me all the time. Indeed, as psalm 91 says "His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart". Thank you Lord for everything! I sing and praise your name! Elevate '09!!!!

Put on the armor of God

Church, put on the armor of God and stand firm. The battle belongs to our God! Use the sword of spirit and thrust it against the enemy - pray victoriously, mummy says! Arise army, arise!

Stephen visits

Hey Stephen, if you pray for me, pray to Jesus ok? :) Hugs to all.

Thank You

Thanks for dropping by and bringing a smile to my face. I am very touched. Tracy & Isa, I forgot to take Pix of u. :(

Elevate '09 22 Aug '09 - 8pm FBC

(Pictures taken were during rehearsal!)

Message from FBC Youth:

Dear friends,

The youth of FBC would like to invite you to join your hearts and voices with us as we seek to lift the name of Jesus high in a night of praise and worship this Saturday, 8pm, FBC Main Hall.In the fall-out of recent events which have occured in our church, our earnest desire is that we as a church would come together as one body and elevate Him above all our circumstances and bring our focus back to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, the head of our church and Object of our worship.We do not see this as merely another youth event but a chance for all of us to unite as a family and dedicate one night to pure praise and worship of our Lord.We would love so much to have you with us this Saturday, but ultimately your presence is for God. Would you please join us as one church, the body of Christ, to worship Him?We hope to see you there.

For His glory,

FBC Youth

Hi friends,Elevate 09 is happening this Saturday, 8pm at First Baptist Church! It's going to be an awesome time of pure praise and worship as we lift up the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and sing, sing, sing so come with hearts prepared to encounter God!Our e-flyer is attached, please spread the word, publicise this on your online space and invite your friends!May He be lifted high in our generation and generations to come.We look forward to worshiping our Lord together!

Love,FBC Youth

PS: Come early to receive your door gift (while stocks last!). Doors open at 7.45pm. Light refreshments served after the concert.
Elevate 09.
Meet Him there.

The time has come for action

He he I said I would not blog today coz my bones behind my waist were hurting from 2 solid days of blogging. I can't help it. Words are just flowing, so I have to get it out.

When you seek the Lord, that is a sign of genuine conversion. There is a hunger right to the very soul. A hunger to worship Him. A hunger to read His every word. To find strength in Him. I see genuine conversion in Fee. Please read her blog. Feeisfree.blogspot.com We are all taking baby steps but the words are flowing from her led by the Holy Spirit! Just like in my blog. God is really speaking to us! Sue, I am so glad you have caught on to the how we should pray. It should be like that for all sickness, all habitual sins and even against the ENEMY at work in our church.

Church you need to pick yourself up now. The time has come for action. Through this journey, the scales on my eyes have fallen off. I see it as clear as daylight. The fight in the spiritual realm is so real! In the beginning of the journey, I was fearful knowing in my mind that it is spiritual warfare but trying not to say it aloud as that would be opening the door for more attack. But what could I do? I felt so helpless. I looked at my son’s lion head gear and I fear. I looked at my red antique cupboard and I fear! My friends and cousin see and sense warfare when they pray for me. When I am low and don’t sese God, I fall even lower leaving more open doors to more attacks. It’s all the work of the devil. When my friends and cousin help me realize this I now turn to His word and PUT ON THE ARMOR OF GOD. The battle belongs to our God. We have to learn to pray more specifically (Hebrew 11:1) and offensively and believe in His word. We need to gather all that we know in the bible and thrust the sword of spirit against the enemy at work in church.

We are Baptist and well known for our foundation in God’s word. Help each other. It is time to oil those dry bones and speak death to the enemy and speak life to our church.

As what I have been blogging about praying, speaking life, speaking death, rebuking, commanding in Jesus’ name, claiming His promises to flu/cancer, so the same manner we use against the enemy at work in our church. It is time to rise up as prayer warriors! Turn to God, confess and put on the armor of God and stand firm.

We pray offensively. No time to be meek. We know we want the enemy out from our church, to do away with all spirit of COMPLACENCY that has almost completely destroyed our church spiritually and in our ignorance, opened doors to the enemy’s work in causing DISUIT, DISHARMONY, HATRED, DISSENSION, MALICIOUS TALK, BACK STABBING, MANIPULATION, BRAINWASHING etc.

It is not a fight against men but against the enemy, the devil. The battle belongs to our God. Whatever both sides claim as evil, rebuke it and cast it out from Church in Jesus’ name. Then ask for the blood of Jesus to flow through each one of us and cover our church and protect it from the evil one.

Do not be afraid.

In Isaiah 41:13, God said:
13 For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

In 2 Chronicles 20:17, He said:
17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "

I want to share a paragraph from Jack Deere’s book “Surprised by the Power of the Spirit”. On page 153, he wrote:

“If you haven’t seen any truly miraculous healings, ask yourself how often you pray for these things. I am not talking about the kind of ..prayers where an absentee sick person’s name is mentioned on a list with others in a Sunday service so that we can ask God to guide the doctors hands, comfort the family, and let them know all things work together for good. These kind of prayers are frequently offered as a pastoral courtesy with no real expectation or anticipation that God will do a miracle”.

Does that sound familiar?

He went on to say by and large, people won’t take the trouble to lay hands on sick people in believing prayer. And he said “Conversely, I have yet to find anyone who regularly lay hands on the sick in believing prayer who doesn’t see at least miraculous healing”.

Now I come to the good part – Ezekiel dry bones. Thanks Fee, thanks Henry.

Ezekiel 37:4-10

4 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! 5 This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. 6 I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.' "
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. 8 I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.
9 Then he said to me, "Prophesy to the breath; prophesy, son of man, and say to it, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe into these slain, that they may live.' " 10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.

It hit me that the way God commanded Ezekiel to speak was like the charismatic way! You know how sometimes we perceive that charismatics over exaggerate their speech and not grounded in word. But if we are open to the holy spirit, He will guide us to the truth and the truth will st eus free. Ezekiel didn’t pray “God, if it is your will, please bring life back to these bones.” He didn’t say “God, if it is your will, please heal the whole house of Israel and make them come back to you again”.

Similarly, since we have the authority given to us in Jesus Christ, we can ask for healing etc in the same manner that Jesus did. We learn from Jesus’ ministry on earth. We can speak life in Ezekiel’s manner with such authority and in such graphic detail (and understanding how powerful our tongue is in Proverbs 18:21). We can rebuke and cast out sickness/sins with authority just like Jesus knowing that we are now heirs and co-heirs with Him (Romans 8:17). We can pray unceasingly to our heavenly Father with our prayers and petitions (Phil 4:6). We can ask whatever we need and believe in Mark 11:24. And we can stand on God’s word that nothing is impossible with God Luke 1:37). You put it ALL these together and our prayer will be so powerful we can anticipate God’s miracle!

Arise prayer warrior, arise! The time has come for action.

Youth Concert 22 August 2009 Saturday night

Wow! It's 11.12 pm and I just came back from watching the rehearsal for First Baptist Church's Youth Concert for this Saturday. I had this great longing to watch the concert but alas, Nic's school concert is this Saturday. Then I hear the rehearsal is on tonight and I am so glad I went. I don't know, I sense God will use you (youths) mightily for the church's revival. I felt God's awesome presense during the rehearsal tonight. I sense God's love so great for you and that He is so pleased that your worship is from your heart. I am truly encouraged to see your passion for God. It was also very eye opening to see how all of you are so talented and how all of you work together to make it all gel together. Gone are the days we have one director that supervises all on what to do coz that would zap away most of the individual's creativity. Thanks King Wai, Su Ann, Rachel, Alex, Haris, Amanda, Luke, Julian, Thomas, Rayshaun?, Ji Meng?, Benji, another guitarist, drummer (Jeevan?), pianist, choir gals, Michelle. Sorry guys I can't remember all your names but you guys are awesome! I love electric guitars. Henry hears only noise. Now, I know where to go for my electric guitar fix. Thanks guys. To God be the Glory! Play your hearts out!

I got it! I got it!

I told God this morning, "God you are amazing, each time I seek, you answer, I seek you answer. I am so humbled that you love me so much. I am in awe of you!"

Then, I told Henry “I got it! I got it!”. Now, I know that the healing books are correct, Ps Philip is correct, Eric Thoo is correct and Ps Yonggi is correct! No more confusion!

See, logos is God’s word to EVERYONE. So, in the many scriptures that God says He heals or he has healed us – we can confidently claim His promises! We can claim it 100% and pray confidently because that is is His will for everyone.

But Rhema, which is God’s specific word to you is God’s word that comes alive for you and you only.

Therefore, we cannot play God and know what the rhema is for others. That’s where His sovereignity lies. So, like Uncle Alan says, do not doubt that He heals! Indeed God heals. He said so in the scriptures.

God’s Words for Healing Part 5: Jesus Heals

This is the hardest blog to write because God is still revealing Himself to me. At first I was confused why the bible says we can ask for anything (including healing) yet it seemed that at end of the day it is still God’s will. How do I pray confidently that God heals in such situation. How do my friends pray for me in confident hope in such situation?

Never say to someone who does not understand the healing process “We pray for healing FIRST but always remember it might not be His will”. Because when that person starts to feel pain, he/she might think this is it, this is God’s will for me to die. If I did not know God’s many scriptures that he heals, my prayer might be “God, if it is your will please heal me, please please heal me”. At the next wave of pain, I will be shaken.

I asked Hamir once “How can you pray with such confidence that God heals. He may choose not to heal. Hamir replied “We do not know that, so until He announces His will not to heal, we are to hold on to God’s promises that God heals”.

Did you know that when Jesus died on the cross, He died for our sins? Did you know He also bore our sickness- By His wounds we are healed. Past tense.

Matthew 8:17

17This was to fulfill what was spoken through the prophet Isaiah: "He took up our infirmities and carried our diseases."

1 Peter 2:24
24He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.

Did you know that God said He will heal us and take sickness away from us?

Exodus 15:26
26 He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."
Exodus 23:25
25 Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you,

Yes, sickness is not in the menu.

God does not lie and we can rest on His promises and claim healing. Healing is a gift given to us 2000 years ago. When we wait upon the Lord, the Holy Spirit will reveal God’s rhema , His word specially for you. Others may confirm that word to you but it is important that you get it directly from God, a word that will speak to your heart, a word that becomes a saying word for you, a word that once given to you, you are to cling to it to dear life. Because satan will try to knock you off, friends might give you different advise but you are to just stand firm and that Rhema that you hold onto will pull you out from the pit. Friends, you do not know what His will is so pray for healing the whole time. We are not to give up because we stand on His promises. Pray victoriously. Speak life. Claim God’s promises for healing. Rebuke any doubts. Pray for a ring of fire to protect the mind from Satan’s lies. Speak death to the symptoms. It has no power or dominion. Rebuke and speak death to the disease. Ask for the blood of Jesus to flow through every organ, every cell for complete restoration.

This is the hardest part to write. I was going to say you can ALWAYS receive healing. And I thank God for bringing my cousin Tracy and her husband Isa to my home today. The timing is so good. I did not finish my blog as I was getting tired. And now, I stand corrected and I am glad He sent “messengers” to me just in the nic of time. Isa reminded me today that God is ultimately sovereign. We cannot question God why he does not heal everyone. He has His purpose and you cannot question Him. We cannot put God in a box.

Romans 9: 20-21 says:

20But who are you, O man, to talk back to God? "Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?' "21Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?

God is the Sovereign God that shows His activity throughout history and He will use us to fulfill His purpose i.e. until the return of Jesus again.

I am confident that if you walk so close to Him and wait upon Him, He will reveal His purpose to you as how he reveals to me each day. I find it hard to believe that if you walk so close to Him, He won’t tell you His will if you ask Him. For Michael, Elaine told me he had a conversation with God the night before He passed away. Michael was prepared for God’s will for him.

I understand Lord. Ultimately, if it is your will I should go, so be it but I will still believe you, I will still praise you. I thank you for speaking through Ethan when out of the blue he sang “Blessed be Your Name” in the car one day. You give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your Name.

Until then Lord, I still ask you oh Lord, what is your will for 1 Sept 2009?

And God answered me “Be joyous”. That was what popped to my mind when I asked Him in the car just now.

God’s Words for Healing Part 4: Talk to God

I think this depends on our personalities. Some of us are more rebelious in nature. It’s alright to be open to God, you can challenge Him on His words. After all, he cannot lie.

For me I asked God “ What good am I to you dead. I can’t serve you.” Henry and I have dedicated our 2 boys to God. I always have in mind they will go on missions one day so what good am I dead if I can't supervise them! Nicholas means “Victory for his people”. He will reach out to share good news to his friends around him and he will bring victory to them in Christ. Alas, we found Nic has trouble making decisions and would be so anguished about it. So, when our second son came along we named him Ethan meaning “Firm and Strong”. Ethan would help Nic make the decisions on mission. And true to His name, he is very firm in his decisions. We just pray that his strong will will be tempered with love and compassion. Little did I know that dedicating your child to God means letting them go to God. They are NO LONGER YOUR CHILDREN (I read it in Retha’s book – “Messages from God”). They belong to God. When Ps Sasha hugged me and said that Jesus loves my children very much, that I need not worry, He will love them and protect them and care for them. I knew it was God’s words for me. So, talk to God. Open your heart and wait upon Him. Just close your eyes and wait. He will send you angels, encouragers, words from the bible etc. Just soak in His presence and His word. He will answer.

Psalm 6: 1-10
1O LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.
2 Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint;
O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in anguish.
How long, O LORD, how long?
4 Turn, O LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
5 No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave ?
6 I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.
8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.


Then, ask God whatever you need, whatever your heart desires because once you have ALIGNED YOURSELF TO GOD, you can ask him anything, WHATSOVER.

John 16:23,24

23In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.
24Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.

Mark 11:24

24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

1 john 5:14,15

14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
15And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.


Go ahead. Ask your heavenly Father.

God’s Words for Healing Part 3: Repent and Seek Forgiveness

Seek forgiveness from God on WHATEVER you can remember and a GENERAL prayer for all that you cannot remember for now. You can seek forgiveness again later when you do remember. Instinctively, I knew how to do this on the first night. It shows how connected we are to God. He is our Father, we run to Him when we are in trouble and say we are sorry.

Psalm 51:2-4 (New International Version)

2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.

Know that God’s wrath is only for a moment but His favor is for a lifetime.

Psalm 30: 5
5 For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.


He will not condemn you. I found Psalm 32 very reassuring after seeking forgiveness.

1 Blessed is he
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.
2 Blessed is the man
whose sin the LORD does not count against him
and in whose spirit is no deceit.
3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
4 For day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.
Selah

5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, "I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD "—
and you forgave
the guilt of my sin.
Selah

6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you
while you may be found;
surely when the mighty waters rise,
they will not reach him.
7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Selah

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.
9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.
10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.
11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!

And I pray as you begin to talk to God, His words will touch you and assure you.

God’s Words for Healing Part 2: God’s Will For Us to Have Long Life

It is God’s will for us to have long life. He is your creator. He wants us to acknowledge Him as the Sovereign God. He made us because he wants a relationship with us. A simple love relationship. He will extend to you His grace, His love, His blessings and much more than you can imagine. What struck me was not to be wise from my own understanding but to follow His ways because His ways are higher than mine. Look towards Jesus and everything will fall into place. He only calls for simple obedience.

Psalm 91:14-16

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."


Proverbs 3:1-2

1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,
2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity.


Proverbs 3:7-8

7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.
8 This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.

Update

Of late, I've been praying that God will bless the nutrition and tarceva medicine to my body to build my resistance, to build up my immune system, to build my reserves, to feed my healthy cells and not my malignant cell and to help me GAIN WEIGHT to my normal healthy weight.

I also ask God and claim John 16:23,24 and Mark 11:24 that He will grant me a medical report on 1 September 2009 that will show complete healing with not a single lesion or nodule left anywhere in my body and to give me a clean bill of health. And all this I ask in Jesus' name.

John 16:23,24
23In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.
24Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.

Mark 11:24
24Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.


Last night I felt a big bump of zit on my head. This morning, I felt it again and it had already burst and covered with hardened pus. Praise the Lord! Indeed, He has been building up my resistance that zits can disappear within 12 hours!

Thank you Lord for healing me. Thank you Lord, for you are my healer! :)

On gaining weight, Henry's been busy thinking and praying about how to make wife put on weight. Ezekiel came to His mind and nuts came to his mind! Nuts can be very dry for my throat. I do take them but in moderation. Henry can snack on a whole bag of peanuts and nothing happens to him! Ezekiel - is that about dry bones. I don't know, anyone has any revelation from Ezekiel?

God’s Words for Healing Part 1: Do not be afraid

Thanks Uncle Alan for reading out God’s words to me. I don’t know what happened the night of 13 August 2009 but everything fell into place that night. That night, I felt God’s assurance that He heals, God’s amazing love for me, heard God’s instructions to stand firm in light of doubts thrown at me, heard God telling me to let go my life to Him, and found my confidence to speak in tongues. The culmination of all these areas grounded in God’s words was what made it all so powerful. An unshakeable truth!

I want to share with all of you God’s words from the bible for those who face the same circumstances as mine. They are mostly from Uncle Alan’s sharing with me. I’ve added in verses that spoke to me during the journey.

God is powerful and does not lie. He lifts my spirit and brings healing. And knowing God is sovereign and that I can rely on His promises is comforting and assuring. I am humbled and in awe.

Do not be afraid

At the hospital bed, I was scrambling for the bible because I knew somewhere in there He told me not to be afraid. I dived into Psalms because I thought that was the best place to begin. When I went down on my knees and asked for God’s peace upon me, he started sending angels to help me. I asked God, please give me a verse and “ping”, a sms came in immediately (not exaggerated) from Steven Toh. Later in the afternoon, I received a few more verses from Marvin through Henry. Thank you my friends. You don’t know how God used you to help me that day. So, I would like to share with you God’s comforting words upon me that first few nights at the hospital.

Psalm 57:1

1 Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me,
for in you my soul takes refuge.
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
until the disaster has passed.


Psalm 91:4-7

4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.


Isaiah 41:10

10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.


Isaiah 41:13
13 For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.


He is your Helper

This psalm became very real to me in the second or third week. It was when we were ploughing through so much information on nutrition and talking to oncologists and friends on chemotherapy. It is easy to be overwhelmed by them all. But God said HE is my Helper, NO ONE ELSE – not chemo, not nutrition. That moment I knew He was in control and I just let go. I let Henry do all the research on chemotherapy and later God even prompted him to fast and pray! In your case, I believe without a doubt that He too will watch over you and keep you from harm.

Psalm 121

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Matrix Reloaded

I have just unlocked the mystery of matrix for my own understanding! This is really for my own enjoyment as I have finally unravelled the deceit thrown in by the evil forces. Hah! I can see through the enemy's evil plans now. It is just a movie but there are people I know that actually buy this concept. They have likened the sentient machines as the evil God and they actually say that what we experience (even you reading this and me typing this) is all not real. That we are actually enslaved by this evil God. There's so much absurdity in all this but how do you explain to someone that God is not evil and that it is irrational to say we human beings do not exist. Yet, this is how the devil works, to deceive us slowly at first and then completely.

Actually, what that does not exist are all the sickness that come upon us. SICKNESS is the MATRIX. Get it? Actually, it's not that sickness does not exist but sickness can be easily overcomed. Why? Because Jesus, on His death and by His wounds (the many lashes He received), bore our sins and sickness. He has overcomed the devil. It has no power over us. No dominion over us. So, if you remember that, then, remember, you are victorious in Christ! That's why when Henry, Tammy, Fee, myself and whoever else believes what Jesus did, (and He said we are his heirs and co-heirs) then He has given those powers too! When we pray, we can pray victoriously too!

Now friends, listen to me. Who is actually the ones in cocoon, locked away? It is the devil! When Jesus died, He has overcome the world, the enemy has no power over us anymore. But the devil can hurl lies, cast doubts, deceive you - and by doing that - steal, kill and destroy.

And you can see who is lying now. Am I lying when I say say sickness can be easily overcomed? Read my blog, read Fee's blog http://www.feeisfree.blogspot.com/. If you still do not believe me, you can wait for the medical report. But if I am right, it shows:

- God heals!
- In fact, He sent Jesus to bear our sins and sickness 2000 years ago on Calvary ("By your stripes, you are healed" Isaiah 53:5) Past tense.
- The gift is given, you just need to believe that God did this for us because "..God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
- He loves us THAT much
- Just reach out for the gift, fall on your knees, turn to God

The devil wants me to believe that this cancer (MATRIX) I have is real and that I will be defeated by it. Friends, in any of your sickness, DO NOT AGREE to your condition. Rebuke it! Actually cancer is no greater than fever, flu, cough, diabetis or fungus. I just came to this realisation on 12 August 2009, the day before I realised that I have been completely healed. The message is getting stronger everyday! I can actually laugh at the cancer now because I know God will deliver me. He has delivered me. I just need to claim His promises in the bible.

I have unlocked the deceit of the devil. Sickness is the matrix. It does not exist, it can be easily overcomed. Because of what Jesus did for us. He loves us that much.

Fungus Trampled "Kow Kow"

When Henry first had a vision of a finger and he felt warmth when God's peace fell upon him, I thought to myself that God will work mightily in His life too. I believe God has given him certain gifts. For me, I have to remember Habakuk 3, that even though I can't sense Him, He is always there for me and in my heart. But for Henry, his will be an even more powerful journey.

Recently, he received a verse from God for his friend. He was walking in Lake Gardens and lo and behold the verse Isaiah 43:1 came to his mind. It was so clear yet he told God, "You mean Isaiah 53:1" to which God replied "No, Isaiah 43:1". He later gave this verse to his friend and said "Claim it. I am serious, claim it now. Things like that don't normally happen to me. I mean, I don't even get verses like this for my wife". I chuckled when he told me that. Our ministry has already begun!

This morning, Henry showed me the patch of skin that had fungus growing the past few days. He has been praying and rebuking and covering it with the blood of Jesus over and over again. Yesterday, he said he wasn't sure but it seemed like the fungus was running away from him because it would move to another spot. He was begining to doubt whether he used the wrong cream. But he kept rebuking and praying. I think Henry has learned to put his acid pool of words to good use these days. His rebuking in Jesus' name can be quite vicious. For my cancer cells, He will command the T cells to hunt down the cancer cells which are hiding and to kill and destroy them completely. His prayer for his recent sniffles disappeared quite quickly and now even the fungus patch has been completely destroyed. He said he rebuked them "kow kow". I don't know how many drivers out there have been cursed by him on the road but today I pray that ALL those curses be reversed in Jesus' name. Whew!

You too can be prayer warriors and pray victoriously. We have been given the authority by Jesus Christ. (Luke 10:19)

19 I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.

Anyway, I am just pleased at how God is using Henry. Today I saw him laying hands and praying for one of our friends in Church. I am so encouraged. In this journey I did wonder what verses supported rebuking and laying of hands. The bible says:

Luke 4:39-41
39 So he bent over her and rebuked the fever, and it left her. She got up at once and began to wait on them.

40 When the sun was setting, the people brought to Jesus all who had various kinds of sickness, and laying his hands on each one, he healed them. 41Moreover, demons came out of many people, shouting, "You are the Son of God!" But he rebuked them and would not allow them to speak, because they knew he was the Christ.


I pray that you too will experience His many miracles day after day. It should be like that everyday.

The Message is Getting Stronger- Part 5 : I Am Completely Healed!

The message is certainly getting stronger. Part 4 was the climax when I wrote it at that point in time and then I asked God “Lord, what now? You have to give me the words to put on the blog because it’s your blog and they are not my words but yours. I’ve obeyed you and I did say I needed the Holy Spirit, else I am not brave enough “. I like Hamir’s response when I shared my concern “Don’t worry about it. God will know what to do. Don’t worrylah”.

At this point, I just want to share with you that as of 13 August 2009, I am totally convinced that Jesus has completely healed me! Now, I just have to stand firm and put on the armor of God because there will be a lot of machine gun shots of putting doubts in my mind but I claim God’s promise in Psalm 91 that “a thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand but it will not come near you”.

Actually I feel a bit of a lunatic telling people that I am completely healed. And yes, that is how doubts develop so I reject that thought in Jesus’ name. God has shown me in a series of events in arriving at this peace and like an end of a beautiful love story, He has now revealed to me how big and how much He loves me.

Uncle Allen and his group of warriors came trooping into my house on 13 August 2009. Earlier, Uncle Allen said over the phone. We pray for a miracle right? I said “Yes!”. He shared God’s word as it is God’s word that will heal us. There is power in God’s word. We just need to claim it and believe it as true and it will come to pass. God cannot lie.

When we were singing praises to God, we started off like a rusty engine. We wanted to worship but something was dragging our spirit down. Uncle Allen said, there is something heavy here, let us cast it out. So we started speaking in tongues. It was like warfare. Then, we started singing again. What a load removed. When I started singing again, I felt like singing a love song to Jesus and tears started to roll down. Rosalind fell on her knees and started praying in tongues. Later she said that her hand started to harden from hand to the entire arm and then pain on her left brain. Suddenly, she shouted “Healing!”. My eyes were closed but I felt I was receiving healing as by reflex I gave a big nod and said “yes”. I am constantly amazed what we can do in the spirit. I just continued to receive healing and we all continued to sing later. After it came to an end and I opened my eyes, Uncle Alan said to me “Good news…good news. I see the words “GOOD NEWS!” and “VICTORY”. I see ANGELS flying above us and looking down as if they are watching a football match and we have WON the match”.

My spirit lifted. I felt it was confirmation that I have been completely healed.
I’ve been to a few prayer sessions for healing now. Each time I receive and believe in my heart He will heal me or He has started the healing process. But on 12 August 2009, things started changing...confirmation of complete healing and His great love for me was impressed upon me. First, I noticed my friends’ (Fee and Sue) and my cousin Tammy’s prayer and comments to me have changed - confirmation that I am healed, that I am beginning this new relationship with Jesus and thanking God that He is my Healer. I claim all this in Jesus’ name.

One thing Uncle Allen shared with me on the healing night of 13 August 2009 really shook me. It was as if God was speaking directly to me and addressing my last issue. Uncle Allen said “Remember, ultimately, you must be in a position to say to God that even if He doesn’t heal you and you die, you will still trust and believe in Him”. In Retha’s book “Messages from God”, she wrote that God spoke to her “I want your life. Lay down your life for me”. I was very uncomfortable when I read that line because I didn’t want to die. I also struggled that if God wanted to heal me, why did he want my life? Uncle Allen asked me outright, “If God asks you tonight, “Who do you love more, God or your life?” what will be your answer”. The answer I gave in my mind without a doubt was “God”. It could not be ”life” after this wonderful journey that I am still going through. I was then struck with awe of His overflowing love for me because he had already started healing me even though I was struggling with this issue of holding on to my life. Little did I know I had already let go when confronted with that question last night. Uncle Allen said, it’s when I let go that He will give my life back to me. He doesn’t want me dead, He wants me to relinquish my whole being to Him and He will just extend His grace to me.

Uncle Allen later said “I sense God’s love for Elizabeth is so great but I have difficulty expressing to you how much is much. I cannot hug, nor fathom nor describe in words”. It was that much.

That night I flashed back of the same confirmation I received during one prayer session where Hamir had the vision of a scepter given to me and he said that He loves me very much. I also remembered during a prayer and worship session with Ps Sasha, Ps Chris and Elaine on 11 August 2009, Sasha hugged me as if Jesus was hugging me and God’s words to me is “I love you very much. You do not have to worry about your children. I love them very much and will take care of them and provide for them. The telephone line is open 24 hours. You just need to call me anytime and just pray earnestly”.

That night, I could not sleep from this shot of adrenalin. I was just basking in His love and in awe of how a mighty God can just love a worm like me. 11 years ago I experienced His love. Thanks Marvin, my “si fu”. Then, I pictured myself resting on the inside of God’s wings as He envelopes me. I felt so comforted, so protected, so loved.

That night I experienced it all over again and with more realisation now than before. GOD REALLY REALLY LOVES ME. I am so humbled, so in awe.

I pray friends, you will catch fire and experience this awesome love that God has for us all. AWESOME!

Oh, there was one last confirmation from God. The next day, on 14 August 2009, I went for another prayer and worship session in another christian group. A man who does not even know me gave me God's word :

Acts 3:16
16 By faith in the name of Jesus, this man whom you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus' name and the faith that comes through him that has given this complete healing to him, as you can all see.

God is awesome indeed. Awesome is His love. All glory to God! Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!

Update

Henry has noticed that my skin is clearing up. My cousin Stephen reckons I am more energetic these days from his last visit about 2 weeks ago. Definitely I feel strong except for the occasional cough. Even the purging that i had on 3 consecutive days this week has stopped. Thanks so much for your prayers. Imagine each time I had purging pain, I would start praying and rebuke. Henry saw me lying down on the couch on Monday and he started feeling anxious so he smsed to some of you for prayers. Within moments, I started to recover. Oh, Henry put in the sms to pray and rebuke! It is really a new way of praying for us. It works because we do not agree to the condition and we use our authority given to us by Jesus (Luke 10:19)to trample on the enemy.

I also noticed that I can sing better now. Before, when I try to sustain a note, I would start to cough. I realised this improvement only last week when I sang "The Joy of the Lord is My Strength" in the car all the way home. That was the very first time in a long time that I sang a whole song so loud and enjoying it!

Another improvement I noticed is that I can sleep on my side at night. Normally, I would rather sleep on my back. Sleeping to my side would normally cause me to cough after awhile. I remember Dr Zainuddin said it is because the nodule is pressing against my bronchial tree or something like that. So, these days I can sleep whichever way and still feel comfortable.

And another improvement! Little Ethan sometimes asks to sit on my lap in the car. When he does that and rests his head on my chest, I feel as if my lungs are depressed and I feel uncomfortable and start to cough. These days, when he does that I do not feel the depression anymore!

One more improvement! When the kids start to fight with each other and stress me out, I would start to cough non-stop. But I noticed last week that it doesn't happen anymore. So, it would seem that my body is strong enough to tolerate the stress. Still, I am aware I need lots of rest and not get stressed!

These are really wonderful signs that God is working his miracles on me. Deep down, I sense that the cancer cells are gone and that I am just building my resistance and I am praying that the food I eat will help me gain weight!

I just want to thank God for loving me so much. Indeed God heals. We just need to look to Him and seek Him with all our heart, mind and soul. Then He just extends His hands and brings his angels to lift us up. Little Ethan is here bugging me now, asking to listen to CDs which he thinks he can dance to but I keep telling Him they are sermons and they are all "talking talking".

Arise O Prayer Warriors! Arise!

Hi Fee, I am so deeply encouraged by your testimony. Indeed, once we learn to pray victoriously, we can just let go and see God work in our lives and see miracles after miracles after miracles now even Grace's! Praise the Lord! I feel like doing a red indian dance and jumping for joy! Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!

Fee, I see you really hungry for God too and I am overjoyed and to see God work miracles in your life too, I am more than overjoyed, words cannot explain! Here was Fee's testimony of the nurse's reaction to Clarissa's recovery:

"Dear Liz
It is amazing on how God healed clarissa! When we were at clinic today for chk-up, the nurse was in disbelief that C didn't have fever! and when the doc checked her, she was amazed to find that her cold is gone, chest is clear and fever subsided! in her haste, the doc didnt tell me that C had phlegm in her chest the day b4! (so mummy didn't administer the phlegm medication) God is our great healer and brings healing to us even when we didn't know we needed it!! Grace just text me that Ben is now fully recovered too! To God Be The Glory!"

All glory to God! Amen!

Praying Victoriously

I pray that you will walk with me in my journey to slowly transform from a defeated soldier to a prayer warrior!. My prayers are slowing changing. This afternoon, I paced up and down the room, singing the song “Come Holy Spirit I need you” (er, that’s the only one I remember by hard) to invite the holy spirit and then I started to pray for healing for my mummy – coughing, for my friends (eg Cynthia Gan – coughing) and their children (Fee’s Clarissa – high fever and flu, on tamil flu & home quarantine, Wendy’s Ivan - fever and Ben – flu, cough, fever). Then I started rebuking, casting out in Jesus' name. It progressed to speaking in tongues and later I even started trampling on the cough, flu, fever, etc!. I suppose as the spirit leads you, then you will know how to pray (whether, kneeling, lying down, walking or trampling).

I just wanted to share with those who are not feeling well or for parents whose children are ill, speak life to them/ yourself and DO NOT agree to the illness. Instead, say:

I have symptoms of (fever/cough/flu) but the (fever/cough/flu) has no power or dominion over me/ (name of child). (fever/cough/flu), I rebuke you in Jesus' name, I cast you out in Jesus' name. There is no room for you in my/(name of child's) body. I/he/she belongs to God,we are God's children, we are a temple of God, there is no room for you in this body. Get out now in Jesus' name, begone, begone, I cast you out in Jesus'name! Just say it over and over again and then speak life - ask for the blood of Jesus to flow in right now to every cell every organ and make us whole and healthy again.

Oh, the trampling is grounded in the Word (Thanks Tammy):

Luke 10:19
19 I have given you authority to TRAMPLE on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you.

I am so glad to hear that Clarissa’s fever just broke after 24 hours of fever. Indeed, it is an encouragement to me and I am sure to many praying for me to see what a living God we have and that we can pray victoriously! Amen!

Thank you, Prayerful Heart

Thanks Joanne for sharing the song. You have been a great encouragement to me and I really appreciate that you sacrifice your time to reach out to many cancer patients and tell them about the importance of nutrition. Joanne survived colon cancer without chemotherapy. She went on to study about nutrition and is a qualified nutritionist today. She offers nutrition advice based on the type of cancer we suffer. Joanne, I did buy probiotics eventually to help my skin recover from the zits. Nicholas is on Peckers from Frontiers to build his immune system. Thanks Joanne!

Ultimately we recognize that God is our healer. He gave us natural food to build our immune system to generate T cells to fight the cancer cells. Chemotherapy can be very toxic to the body as we know too well how cancer patients suffer as a result from it. The targeted therapy which I am taking is a second line of defence. Most doctors will recommend the first line of defence, the most toxic form of chemotherapy first to increase your chance of survival rate. That’s why we were tussling between life vs healing using God’s natural food. We finally found Ted (Stella’s husband), the ONLY doctor we met that was sympathetic towards alternative treatment. Eventually, God led us to choose a mixture of both i.e. targeted therapy and nutrition.

I remember before popping the first Tarceva pill, I was saying a prayer that I am taking this because God is asking me to do it and I believe he would use it to heal me. I was quite afraid of the toxic level that was going inside me. I popped it just before bed time just in case something happened to me. I thought maybe if I slept I won’t feel the side effects!

Miraculously, the next morning, all bone aches disappeared and I had no more fatigueness. I still continued to take a pill daily. After the second week, I went back to SJMC for the administration of the bone reinforcement drug. I told her the fantastic results after taking just one pill. She looked at me disbelievingly and said it is not possible. She turned away and then turned back and said “magic”. I said “God heals!”

Looking back, I am glad I said that prayer. These days I have forgotten to say the prayer (because I am too busy concentrating gulping tons of pills) until I started purging and in pain again 2 nights ago. Siew Mei asked me to take charcoal pills and she said

“Whatever you take, take it with a prayerful heart”.

That is so true. Henry taught me how to pray like this these days “Lord, please bless this food/pills to my body and I pray that you will use it to build my resistance, build my reserve, feed my healthy cells but not the malignant cells and help me gain weight back to my normal healthy weight. I pray all this is Jesus’ name”. I just started praying like this yesterday! God knows my deepest needs and he had already started His healing process long ago.

He loves us very much.


Lyris to Thank you Lord
(by dan burgess)

Thank You Lord for the trials that come my way
in that way I can grow each day as I let You lead
and thank you lord for the patience those trials bring
in the process of growing i can learn to care

chorus
but it goes against the way i am to put my human nature down
and let the spirit take control of all i do
cause when those trials come my human nature shouts the things to do
and god's soft prompting can be easily ignore

i thank you lord with each trial i feel inside
that your're there to help lead and guide me away from wrong
cause you promised lord that with ev'ry testing
that your way of escaping is easier to bear

i thank you lord for the vict'ry that growing brings
in surrender of ev'rything life is so worthwhile
and i thank you lord that when ev'rthing's put in place
out in front i can see your face and it' there you belong

The Message is Getting Stronger Part 4 – The Devil’s Scheme

If you have not followed the crisis in my church, I guess it is not important to understand in detail what happened. It is important to understand the devil’s scheme.

It is written in John 10:10
10The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

The enemy comes to STEAL our focus from God, it takes away our joy when we hear of our loved ones suffering (one after another), STEALs our time from God to fix problems in church, STEALs our time from God to care for the sick, KILLs whether physically or spiritually and DESTROYs unity when we have in-fighting.

And like cancer spreading to every part of me, the “cancer” also spreads from one person’s disobedience to the entire church! You see, church is not a building. Church is the family of believers, they are people like you and me. You look at me and you may think that I am hardly disobedient but if you have read my blog from the beginning, you can see I have taken my focus away from God. If everyone does that, are you surprised that our church is lukewarm?

Maybe it is clearer if I explain it in a cell group context.

After CCF, things weren’t going so well in our cell group. It is encouraging to see one cell member increase in faith every year and this brought encouragement to us but we were never “on fire” TOGETHER. Spiritually, we took turns to grow and backslide. We would have an additional member or two but loose them along the way. Some days, we are unable to meet because the children fall sick. Last Friday, we are unable to meet because three kids from three families were unwell. Some days, the adults fall sick or are away. We push prayer to the last and then hope that a leader can pray for all our needs rather than to break up into smaller groups to pray. As leaders, we get discouraged but persevere on. I was unaware that I was ministering wrongly. I was taking disappointments and burden upon myself unknowingly. Although we lift our cares to God, our prayers seem powerless. We lack the confidence of what He can do in our lives.

That’s because the enemy destroys our faith in God, destroys our understanding that we are actually very powerful for those who believe. We must understand the reality of the devil’s scheme. Once we have understood the reality of attacks from the enemy and turn our focus to God and seek forgiveness for NOT PUTTING HIM FIRST, we must also realize this….It is not our battle. The battle belongs to God.

In 2 Chronicles 20:15, 17, it is written:
15 He said: "Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the LORD says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.
17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'

On 7 July 2009, I wrote in my journal. “Prayed - God revealed Ephesians and James.” I knew about Ephesians 6 but it didn’t sink in. Like most of us, it just passes over our head. Last Saturday, Tammy and Richard shared that God’s word for me is Eph 6, James 4:7 and Matthew 4: 1-11. Their message to me really woke me up.

During this journey, I can feel the devil attacking me with lies after lies, putting doubts into me, giving me fear. Now, I am wiser as I know fear is not from God. Thankfully also, with King Wai and Hamir’s advise, I quickly grab the bible to read His word again. It is good to keep it somewhere easily accessible at all times. I normally go to Psalms first. Like Hamir said, “Isn’t it amazing how when you read God’s promises they are all positive and when you get feedback from the world about your condition, it is negative.” Even during the prayer sessions, I saw a flashing silhouette of witchcraft three times. There was a man next to me was crying aloud for me out of compassion. He later told me he cries when he sees “dirty things”. Another prayer session, Barnabas told me he saw the devil say “Don’t move!”. During Tammy’s prayer for me, she started to speak in tongues and later she related that normally it would not sound so warfare like. After Tammy and Richard’s sharing, I was quite afraid but all they told me is TO STAND FIRM and PUT ON THE ARMOR OF GOD. The battle belongs to God. Once we have done everything, we are to stand firm with the armor of God. Isn’t that reassuring. Ethan loves wearing his knight gear. At the CCF camp recently he surprised Brandon that he could name all the gears. The children did a craft on the armor of God and now I have it stuck on my fridge door to remind me daily.

Ephesians 6:10-18
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

Tammy also shared the temptation of Jesus in Matthew 4: 1-11 and James 7. She said “Did you know why the devil stopped tempting Jesus after only 3 trials. The devil could go on and on. The reason is because THE DEVIL WAS DEFEATED! Each time, Jesus just answered back with the word of God.

Three times he rebuked the devil and referred to the bible
"It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.
"It is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.
“For it is written: 'Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.

No wonder every time I feel doubtful, I find so much comfort from reading His word. The devil knows and FLEAS immediately.

James 4: 7
7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.


Jesus has overcome the world by his death on the cross. The devil cannot touch us. It can only hurl lies and doubts at us. Hamir taught me to cover my ears now and then and to pray, “Protect my mind and cover it with fire to burn up all the lies of the devil so that I can only hear God’s words”.

Neil Andersen once asked us to imagine us walking on a straight path to God and to imagine a row of shops on the left and right of us. We are walking towards God and the devil hurls lies at us from afar, from the shop house window. Friends, we only need to walk straight.

Proverbs 3: 6 says:
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

This is only my cell group experience. If most of our cell groups experience the same struggle, aren’t we like cancer, building up burdens and disappointments, saying prayers but not with confidence as we have lost our understanding that our God is a living God. He wants us to return to Him and he will give us life, HEALING WILL QUICKLY COME. We will cry to him, and He will hear us. Stop the cancer spreading, turn to God, fall on your knees. Let the devil flea immediately.

The Message is Getting Stronger Part 3 – My first task of Obedience

Thanks to the Toh brothers for your encouragement. The “toes” was the hint! Gambateh! I love the picture of Ethan too. He takes his role as ultraman very seriously. When I ask Ethan, “Come Ethan, come and kiss mummy”. He takes of his imaginary mask first and then comes to kiss me. Tony, follow God’s promptings. It doesn’t have to be one or another, it can be both. When you pray with Min Yi, pray for yourselves first and then, pray for us. I see that God has already begun His work as your prayers on our yahoo groups are changing and covering your brokenness as well. That’s the beginning of our journey. Hey Sue, I too cry when touched by the Holy Spirit. Thanks too Wei Ling’s message and your kid’s story dedication to me on Habakuk 3, I will always remember now that He is always there for me even though I can’t sense or see Him.

Anyway, my first task of obedience was at a prayer and worship gathering at the Koot’s house after the results of the church business meeting.

There was a time for sharing about how we felt after the Church Business Meeting at FBC recently. It was at the very tail end and I still hadn’t shared. After God’s revelation to me that commanded me to speak I knew I had to speak but my mouth remained glued (like always before) until the tail end, Chiew Hwa said “Anyone else, if not we will close in prayer”. I looked at Chiew Hwa and she looked at me and I said “I have to speak”. “Have to” is the word! See, I normally don’t share as I am just afraid to open my mouth.

My cousin Tammy reminded me earlier of 2 Timothy 1: 7 that fear is not from God and we should rebuke it. The only fear we should have is the fear of the Lord.

7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

So, I finally opened my mouth. And I shared with them (half crying) how I told Hamir, my neighbour how luke warm our church is and about Hamir’s prayer for me one and half months before my diagnosis, and he prayed that we in FBC not be so inward looking as there’s so much to do for God’s Kingdom, there is really no time for in-fighting. Then he prayed for the Holy Spirit to fall upon our church and for the Holy Spirit to open my mouth to share God’s word. I was thinking how is that possible as I am too afraid to speak unless the Holy Spirit is with me. I told the CCFers that this is not a fight with men but against the evil spiritual forces for what good is there to leave the church, who will win? The enemy! I remembering saying, “It’s not about me (what I am suffering) but it’s the church”. And that was my sharing to them.

Lo and behold, the next morning in Church, there was an invited speaker Kim Lan and he was given a free topic, so he chose to speak on “Be an EXTERNALLY FOCUSSED church”. Henry and I just looked at each other in shock when the power point slide came up. That’s like the same message I gave to the CCFers the night before!

Praise the Lord! God’s hand is upon His church.