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God speaks

Praying for others

It was only in the past few days that there is a longing to pray for others and today it seems, more people in need of prayer. The prompting is stronger today since I was praying for little Lucas Ng who is down with fever for the 6th day..and one prayer led to another prayer for Chee Meng who was also down with fever..for Aunty Beverly suffering from cancer..and for two of Henry’s uncle with leg injury and diabetic..and for Henry’s grandma who is 90+ years old with spinal problem but too old for surgery. Then, I picked up the book that Julie gave me “Give me 40 days for Healing” and it confirms that I should intercede for others at this time. And earlier this morning, Hamir said he wouldn’t be surprised that people might ask for prayers for leg injury etc. Praise the Lord, God talks to us in series of coincidences and he confirms through reading the bible, books, through people and sermons.

Same Psalm 121

One morning a few weeks ago, before confirmation of whether to opt for chemo, God impressed on me Psalm 121. Then I started to cry reading the Psalm 121 coz it hit me again that He is my ultimate helper, my ultimate healer - not chemo, not nutrition..that I should not be anxious. After all, He never sleeps, never slumbers and all we have to do is to cast out worries unto Him and He will do the rest for us. Later that morning, Hamir was sad I could not sing and worship with him in Jln Ipoh. I told him about Ps 121. He said “Aiyooo, I prepared that Psalm for youlah. We could have prayed together”. God speaks.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Awesome Presence of God

This is the most powerful sharing I want to share with you. I never understood what coming into His presence meant. To me God is everywhere and in my heart. I’ve been to charismatic groups and felt the energy but is quickly forgotten. But this journey and Hamir’s insistence to bring me to various small Christian groups has shown me how real Jesus is in other people’s lives. It’s not just a jiggly jiggly high emotional energy from a mass group and His awesome presence can still be felt in small group of 6 people, only if we invite Him into our lives. Even on the 3rd or 4th day of this journey at the hospital, Henry shared he felt a warmth rush in him one day and immediately he knew he received God’s peace as so many of you have been praying for us. I said “Hey, how come I don’t feel any warmth”. Then Henry saw a vision of a finger on the 7th day of this journey just before the biopsy result was released to us. It turned out the finger vision was the little finger gadget the doctor clipped on my finger to get my heart beat count. I said “How come I have no vision”. Even when Pastor Lydia and Pastor Joseph prayed for us and taught us how to feel God’s presence (just be very comfortable, relax, close your eyes, think of Jesus and invite the Holy Spirit to enter into your heart), I felt God’s peace and love but no warmth. Both Elaine and Henry felt the warmth. So I did not expect much from these small Christian groups I attended. On 17 July 2009, a day before my mummy’s birthday, during prayer time, they surrounded me and started praying for me, sometimes speaking in tongues. Led by the Holy Spirit they each have a message to tell me. My eyes closed tightly, I felt like electricity running through me and everyone getting excited around me as they too feel God’s presence. Steven can see God’s anointing pouring over me abundantly – over and over again. I didn’t understand what anointing meant. I just know I jolted each time Hamir said “fire”. Hamir said he does not know what happened that day but something happened that day. There was confirmation of healing and of our ministry together (Henry and I). That was my first ever experience of the AWESOME presence of God! That night I prayed “God are u willing , God, are you willing to give my mummy the best birthday present ever?”. The next morning I woke up in bed, praying for a miracle. The words came to my mind “Get up, you are healed”. I got up and walked and then I coughed a little and got discouraged again. Still, I believe, God has already started the healing process. My mummy believes. Our prayers these days are very different. We thank God for the little miracles He works in my life daily, the achy bones that went away, the fatigueness that went away, the fever that went away, the cough that is tremendously reduced. Glory to God! God heals!

During another Christian group prayer meeting on 21 July 2009, I felt warmth and the vision of fire came to my mind. That night 5 of those praying for me saw so many visions and a clear message, that I will live to testify. Raj said, “ Sister, you are healed. Not that you will be healed, or going to be healed. Sister, God says you are healed!” I claim your promises O God that by your stripes, I am healed! One said a voice told him, I am a prophetess (me?). Hamir said we all have a small measure of that in us. He said “Remember that day you prayed for me and you called me an Encourager?”. Another saw a white hand on my head. Three of us saw shower of blessings upon me, three of us saw fire. Hamir saw a scepter from God being handed to me that He is pleased with me. Amazing, awesome awesome presence of God!


Living victorious lives

I feel I am on fast track with God. And then one day I hit a dry day. I called Him but He didn’t seem to talk back. I was quite depressed. What made matter worst, I am fully aware that in such situations, the devil will start throwing lies at me. True enough, the next day, a doctor turned nutritionist was selling her services to me on some homeopathy treatment. We were not at peace with her as she could not answer any of the questions that Henry asked her. She also gave advice on my medical condition which further dampened my spirit. As soon as she left, I started to pray and crying out to God to lift my spirit again. King Wai was feeling burdened to call me that night and God’s prompting to him was right, I was troubled. King Wai told me to look at the cross, how we are all victorious now. By Jesus death on the cross, he bore our sins and He has overcome death. Now, we have that same power in us.

Ephesians 1:18-21 (New Living Translation)
18 I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the confident hope he has given to those he called—his holy people who are his rich and glorious inheritance.
19 I also pray that you will understand the incredible greatness of God’s power for us who believe him. This is the same mighty power 20 that raised Christ from the dead and seated him in the place of honor at God’s right hand in the heavenly realms. 21 Now he is far above any ruler or authority or power or leader or anything else—not only in this world but also in the world to come.

I asked King Wai, “What must I do? I feel I need to soak in His word but the past few days I feel all dry”. King Wai said He has done everything for us, we only need to let go and surrender all to Him. You can rest assured now that you are in His presence. It is ok if you want to pray 10 seconds or 10 hours. If you really want to know what you must do, then turn to John 6: 28-29.

John 6:28-29 (New International Version)
28Then they asked him, "What must we do to do the works God requires?"
29Jesus answered, "The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent."

Then it hit me, I was forcing myself to spend time with Him. After 3 weeks of journey where I have dived into His presence, I have sought for forgiveness, I have reprioritized my life, I now just stand in His presence, ready to do His will. And on Sunday 24 July 2009, Eric Thoo’s sermon sealed home God’s message to me. I am a rebuilder today, ready to do His will. Isn’t God awesome, He speaks to us today. Jesus is real. We only need to say, “Jesus, come into my life. I need you”.

I am very proud of King Wai. Many times he called me after feeling burdened to call me and he is almost always right. He is in tune with the holy spirit, like Hamir. There is hope for FBC! Praise the Lord!